On some days
When I'm feeling fine
And the sun peers through the angelic clouds
And I'll catch myself staring
A second longer, at the skies
Really soaking in that fleeting moment
To remind myself that I'm well
But not cured
I'd hit rock bottom almost decade back
Falling to the depths
Closer to madness
Some of those days, I can't remember
Whoever finds this poignant
Trust me
When I say, I find no joy
In telling you that I had no roof over my head
But I want you to avoid
The mistakes I made
Along the way
I'd sleep on some park benches
From time to time
Praying for rain to come
And wash the night off its sweat
I too was tired
Everyday when it was dinner time
From sixteen to twenty seven
It's been a long way
But somehow the change took place
I started working
Had a life of my own
Money of my own
And the future became a bit clearer
My heart a bit kinder
To a clean mind
I never could tell when it all started
To think I didn't get a head start at life
Even fewer get a blank slate
A chance to repair and make amends
Too often
I've held onto regret
To those who I damaged
I carry the weight still
And I hurt myself even now
Bleeding their blood
In a war with myself

There's a certain power
In being happy
And content
When others around you
Just don't care
About whether you live or die

Because it shows you give a ****
About yourself

When you get out
Of a depressive spell
It feels like you've come out
Of the longest hangover
Ever

Wrapped in silk and satin
she has been waiting
long.
She doesn't expect him
not anymore, but habit
stays.
She nor grins,nor frowns
standing at the end of her lawn
alone.
The day count lost numbers,
lost many days and slumber
hours.
Hope faded, love went,
only she stayed
so far.

you left
and suddenly i realised
why we started naming storms
after people.

I must confess, I've fallen in love before
When the leaves settled
Upon the feet of autumn trees
That let the drizzle pool in their palms

I've been in awe of beauty before
That was during a sudden summer
As the heat baked the sheets of linen and satin
That hung neatly on my balcony, letting out the petrichor

I have been kissed, not by her
But by the cold rain that touched my lips
As I looked up at the blue grey skies
Longing for comfort

Although when she'll love me
I'll never know
I know this misery
Will come and go

And so I welcomed the winter
Held its cold, dead hands
Caressed it with tender touch
Accepting that good times aren't meant to last

So, I've fallen again
But this time I think it is for real
And she makes me happy in so many ways
That makes it worth the pain and grief

The play of the seasons
That come and go
Like life's small victories and love's blindness
Remind me, this too shall pass

At the quiet hours of a starless night
In a hushed town
I wait for you in a cafe in a crowded street
Wanting to tell you

You are the warmth of summer
In the vast lands covered in snow and hail
That melts the glaciers
Turning them into rivers that run free

I was yours
But sometimes you were mine
Beautiful and innocent as this may be
I bury the passion inside

The last time when we met
For a brief moment, I felt a shiver run through me
The heat pulsate from within
A hunger for your sensuous lips

I wish I would have said something
But I'm afraid my heart wouldn't let me
Yet, you are calm and tempered
Gasping as you read this, nudging me to write

I remember what you wore that day
The burning sensation inside
Doesn't fade into the endless ether of memories
I need you now, more than ever

Let me hold you till you are left breathless
Gushing into you and gnashing your *******
Away from the world around
Covering your lithe figure with my scent

Unable to get you off my mind
Under the pale moonlight
I write for you on this starless night
As my poems slowly become void of life

Yet, you still love them
And so I channelize the fire
Letting my poems speak for me
Revealing my darkest desires to you