Lost in the universe,
like a passenger,
A stranger in my own mind,
feeling alone abandoned, in despair and it feels difficult to repair.
I feel broken and find myself hiding a million feelings behind a simple smile
I feel lonely not being enough,
sometimes ugly sometimes not loved it hurts inside,
feels like hell that I can't escape from no matter how hard I try,
It keeps coming back,
I push them down and hide them inside me like a cacoon hoping they won't hatch one day.
Nobody should feel this kind of pain,
I push my demons away,
friends won't help, family too
Feels like two people staying in one body.
I feel lost in the universe, and it seems amongst other stars my shine feels pathetic, insignificant,
but I want better,
I deserve better,
my terror to thrills,
my anger to excitement,
my dead dreams to come alive again.
I know these feelings can be manageable,
but I don't want to have to,
Because I know some day they'll become intolerable,
I know I'll find myself soon,
I know I'll end this coldness,
I have to, before it leaves me soulless.
You deserve the world, whether you're a star among billions of stars, you deserve you own light and when you find your light,
I know you'll shine brightest.
Find your light.
This poem depicts a heart troubled, not knowing which way to go, seems at crossroads and knows there's something missing in thier life, trying so hard to find it but still couldn't get through... To you going through this I hope you understand that you can't and shouldn't give up on life.. not now, not ever