Sean
It was 1 night
But that one night happened 2 much
There were 3 of us
And it happened be 4
Almost 5 nights a week
Almost had 6 slices
But I want 7 of you
Ask me if you can come in so you can 8 with me
It's almost 9 every time I order
And sometimes 10
You are at least an 11 out of ten
You stop making pizza at 12
I wish I had found you at 13
It's been almost 14 days
I hope I'll see you again and in case you didn't know I'm 15
And I'm hoping that maybe you're 16
But maybe 17 that's what I'm guessing
Just please don't be 18
And please don't have a 19 year old girlfriend
Let's exchange our 20 digits between each other and give me a call
So we can spend 21 years together
But let's try to get past our 22 word conversation
Or more like 23 characters
Should I try to call you tonight on the 24th
Or tomorrow on the 25th
So I can get that slim chance to see you and my delicious pizza

I walked into a 7-11 with you and  then all of the sudden I stopped and starred,
not because a loud and angry guy was screaming at his kids not to touch anything,
but because,
the coffee in the pots were cold and less than half full just sitting there on the counter
and no one was going to come in and drink it,
it would be left there to sit all night getting colder, until someone dumped them and cleaned them out, that's how I was before you came along,
I was a cold *** of coffee left over from that morning that no one wanted anymore,
you see, you seemed to drink the whole coffee *** before it even had a chance to get cold,
And if it did get cold,
You'd drink it anyway,

You got ecstatic over the thought of having caffeine in you to wake you up and make you lively again  
And I love that about you

You are different
You don't care about my non-coffee drinking past
You don't care about the dark rough grinds that took over me and made me undrinkable
You don't care if I was French pressed or keurig'd out
You still love me

You'd still love me if I was skim milk
If I was a skinny fat free latte
You love me now, even when I'm whole milk
If I became a double chocolaty chip
And I love that about you

You love my "I wanna white mocha latte",
and my "I need an iced French vanilla coffee from Dunkin' Donuts right now!",
And my "I am on a first date with this guy walking around with this amazing dude spilling a watered down small coffee all over my hands because I am so nervous, AND I DONT EVEN CARE BECAUSE I DONT KNOW IT YET BUT HE WILL BE MINE FOREVER!"

You're that kind of "I-don't-need- another-espresso-shot-but-I'll-take-an-extra-one-anyway-even-if-I­-do-have-to-pay-fifty-more-cents" type of guy,

Because in the end I realized paying that extra fifty cents was worth it and I'm glad I did
Because this is the best cup of coffee I've ever had and i don't want any other kind,

And I wish I would have tried this sooner and I want this feeling to last forever, because this feeling is nothing like I have ever felt before, it's like the first time sipping a different kind of coffee and not sure how it's going to taste and then all of a sudden your taste buds start going crazy and you lose your **** mind because it is so good,
And you want the cup of coffee to last forever, and it will,
Because you will keep going back to your most favorite and amazing cup of coffee for every day that you live

We went to Dunkin' Donuts again the other day,
We're known as the 7pm coffee drinkers,
One of the workers that's always there gave you two free to go cups,
We're there a lot....

The first thing I gave you was a small coffee with cream and sugar filled kiss,
the second thing was a gift card to a coffee shop,

I love you a latte
And you know i espresso a lot of feelings towards you
You're my 4 packs of sugar
My hazelnut and French vanilla creamer
You're the first thing I think of when I wake up and what keeps me up at night,
You and my coffee
Us and our coffee,
Surprising each other at work with a 16 oz coffee in our hands with a dumb smile on our faces

You are the reason I am happy
You are the reason I love coffee so much
You are the reason I wake up
You're the reason I ask if you want coffee
And the baristas at our school have an odd look on there face when I order not one but two cups of coffee and they can't help but wonder if there's someone they don't know about
And there is
It's you
And you are mine

Mr.Smola said that a poem is not a poem unless it ryhmes
Ahhh mr.smola
Do you really think that us poets Really have the time to just sit here and ryhme?
We have better things to do
Rather it's sit down and have a glass of wine or two
Maybe watch a tv show that is Devine
What about going to a bar and staring at someone who you think is quite fine
So mr.Smola is this clear to you
Am I getting this through
Or are you just looking up at the sky wondering why it's blue
A poem doesn't have to ryhme
Because obviously we just simply don't have that kind of time

Blue is the taste of fresh blueberries
Blue is the sound of an old lady telling a story
Blue is the feeling you get when sad
Blue is the smell of rain
Blue is the sight of a fire
Blue is the feeling of catching a firefly on your finger
Blue is the sight of an old tattoo
Blue is the feeling of water
Blue is the sight of lighting
Blue is the sound of thunder
Blue is the feeling you get when relaxed
Blue is the first sip of alcohol
Blue is the awkward silence between me and you
Blue is the feeling you get when you crash from a long day of work
Blue is the sound of a camera clicking
Blue is the touch of silk clothing
Blue is the color of the sea
Blue is the sight of an eye
Blue is the realization of life
Blue is the remembrance of a dream
Blue is the touch of sand
Blue is the sound of a roar
Blue is the feeling you get when sad
Blue is the calming sensation when relaxed
Blue is the color you get when you close your eyes and look in the sun
Blue is the look of an aged face
Blue is the taste of a sour lemon
Blue is the color of Cookie Monster
Blue is the sound of knuckles cracking
Blue is the feeling of writing
Blue is the sound of relief
Blue is the taste of really good food
Blue is the sound of marbles rolling on a wood floor
Blue is the smell of eraser shavings
Blue is the sight of home when you went away for awhile and
Blue is the time of day when I get to see you

I hate that sound
It makes me cringe
Wild goose bumps come popping out of my skin
The hair on my arm sticks up
I turn away
But the sound of your chatterbox against his makes me wanna disappear
I'm not here
I don't wanna be
It's almost like you're cheating
But i know you're not
You were in love with another man
Only that's what I thought
Who knew what was going on in your head
How long have you been lying to yourself
And to others
I was foolish to think I believed the magic I was seeing
Ten years it went on
Then suddenly stopped
My world crumbling into pieces
It took forever to put it back together
Some pieces are lost and can't be found
But the damage you did could never be fixed
And that moment could never be forgotten
Now five years later
You went through guys like money flying out of your hands
But this one went on for a little longer
And the longer it went on
The pain I was dealing with kept coming on
It doesn't seem right
Even after  all these years
I miss the one man that stood by you through everything
But you let him go
You were stupid enough to let him go
Now it's every other weekend
Instead of everyday
Why in the world did you make it that way
So now there's only one thing I have to say
I hate those sounds that make me cringe

Her arms were train tracks
Her eyes were rain clouds
Her thoughts were a horror film
Her body was an hour glass and the time was running out
How did no one realize she was a ticking time bomb ready to explode
Maybe because
She always had a smile on her face
Or maybe
Because she always hid everything so well
And she had secrets she would never tell
Her mouth was sewn shut
And maybe that was a good thing
For when she talked she seemed to make things worse
Or as she thought
This wasn't how it was supposed to be
Nothing was like how it was supposed to be
It was all wrong but it was true
She was a beautiful disaster
And no one knew

you're a social studies teacher
Trying to teach English
Stop.
Like no just stop
Before I come over there and hurt you
K thanks

Curiosisty was a mouse
And there was a rumor about curiosity that everyone seemed to believe
"Curiosity killed the cat" they would say
But really,
Curiosity never killed the cat
The cat killed curiosity

No such thing
Love is to powerful to be happening in a second
Love doesn't happen in the blink of an eye
They were lying
The people who told you
It was love at first sight

"Get seven plates"
"Seven knifes ,spoons and forks"
"And Seven napkins and placemats"

Setting the dinner table was an awful request,
but now I take it as a gift...
For the number of plates are less, and less every time that I'm asked

The glasses aren't being used as much,
It seems like we are using the same three glasses every time
And the drinks In it are all the same
except for the ones that are sitting in the cabinet,
There already filled with the memories that happened at the dinner table,
seven years ago, When I was asked...

"Get seven plates"
"Seven knifes,spoons and forks"
"And Seven napkins and placemats"

waiting for a turn on the swing
waiting To go on a plane
waiting for something exciting to happen
Waiting for your bus
Waiting for a waiter
Waiting for the right moment
Waiting for that call
Waiting for a text
Waiting for something to go your way
Waiting for your final grade on a test
Waiting for the perfect day to fly a kite
Waiting for it to rain
Waiting for it to shine
Waiting for the right someone               Or just
Waiting in line

I wish I could fly
I wish I could die
I wish I could spend more time with my dad
I wish I could start a fad
I wish I wasn't so much of a home body
I wish I could be a super model hottie
I wish I could be loved
I wish I could have a dove
I wish I could finally make a wish and have it come true
I wish I would just stop thinking about me and you
I wish I could stop wishing
I wish I could go fishing
I wish the world would be a better place
I wish the blind could see
I wish the deaf could hear
I wish the homeless had homes
I wish the poor were rich
I wish the mean people we're nice
I wish the diseased always had a cure
I wish the racists would stop being racist
I wish the homophobes loved gays
I wish that cancer would disappear
I wish that there weren't any fear
I wish that the bad people wouldn't be here
I wish that we could see the thunder
I wish that all of us could wonder

When tears turn black
When breaths turn to gasps
When talking turns to silence
When cries turn to sobs
When i love you turns to I hate you
When your heart breaks into two
When the room turns dark
When there's nothing you can do anymore
When your completely broken
When all you can say is sorry
When nothing seems to work
When your falling apart
When you think everything is over
I'll be there
To help you
To comfort you
To tell you that i love you
To hug you as hard as I can
To be your friend forever and always

Hello
Oh darling, you need to stop crying,
You have absorbed all the rain from the clouds and carefully placed them in your eyes,
On your cold pillow that's no longer comforting,
I know your confused right now and nothing seems to make sense,
because the people you've come to know and love are not who you thought they were,
The person you thought you knew best,
just betrayed you and you don't know where to turn,
But just hang in there because it will all get better,
and yes your life will still have its ups and downs but trust me,
It won't be as bad as this.

Me
You
Dock
Nine o'clock
Orange skies
Sun going down
We were sunset silhouettes
You looked in my eyes
And I looked in yours
They were locked
I couldn't look away and neither could you
We were sunset silhouettes
The sky was now jet black and the stars were so bright
We both fell back on to the prickly grass
And watched them shine
It was like we never saw stars before
We were sunset silhouettes
A shooting star soar through the sky
We were both amazed
Both us and our sunset silhouettes

My phone buzzed
I was half asleep
I saw it was you
I quickly awoke
I haven't spoken to you in weeks
I thought about you today
But didn't bother texting
But I guess you were thinking about me too  
A thousand questions rushed through my mind
Is he interested in me again?
Should I text back?
Should I fall back asleep?
Should I read it and not reply?
Is he lonely again?
Or is he just bored?
I saw your text
I quickly texted back
I was so excited to be talking to you again
My heart skips a beat when I hear your name
I can't breathe
I start to blush
And I can't help a huge smile
I try to hide my feeling but I can't
The way I feel around you is like no other
But I don't even bother anymore
You pull me in then push me away
And i dont know why I keep crawling back
Now I wish my phone hadn't of buzzed...

She has emotions she doesn't know how to express
In a crowd she stands out among the rest
Her presence is a gift
Her smile and laugh is one of a kind
and that's really hard to find
But she's scared and alone in a world she can't call her own
Her friends think they understand her but they don't
She's a mystery box 24/7
How many times does she really think about hell or heaven
She has perfect imperfections
a beautiful complexion
But is self conscious to those who show her affection
She has so many thoughts that are unthinkable
Mirrors and cameras make her hide
It's gonna be a long ride
But we all hold on tight
Because we all know that's right
And as she sits there in the middle of the night
She fights
She's a warrior and she has no clue
But the amount of stuff she's been through-
She's a fighter and much stronger then we all think
But when she comes around everything seems to be in sync

Our love was like a light switch
Off and on
We never stopped loving each other
Even if we both had girlfriends and boyfriends
We were meant to be
From day 1
It was love at first sight
We couldn't stop staring
We couldn't stop talking
All we seemed we needed was each other
we took breaks
But we always returned to each other
I can't wait to see you again
And turn the light switch back on

Thirteen hour drive
Straight through
There was no turning back
Time for a whole family vacation
We were tired
We were punchy
We were a mess
We were headed to Michigan
Where the weather is always indecisive
Where the birds are always talking
Where the people are always smiling
Where the lakes and rivers are always flowing
Where the boats are always running
Where the bikes are always moving
Where I am at peace
To hear the water crash softly
To see the seagulls fly so gracefully
To feel the damp rock in your palm
To taste the sweet air
To smell the swaying trees
It's Michigan
It's miss ya again
And it's gonna be missed

We were like the first and last pieces of a loaf of bread
We were thrown away to the world
But the world didn't know how to deal with us
So we slowly disappeared into the air
We heard the screams and the secrets of the people
We ran through the awkward silences like it was our job  
We felt the grief and the disappoint of the children
We filled the emptiness and holes that were left inside hearts
We gave them so much
But received as little as bread crumbs

We were seedlings,
I was planted on purpose,
He was planted by mistake,
But that didn't matter,
We knew each other's story.

We grew strong when our mothers cried,
We grew tall when our fathers yelled,
Young seedlings trying to fight our way through the dirt,
Weaving our way to life.

Our family trees related to one another,
Understood and were friends,
We were in the root of happiness,
The root to our happiness.

Roots eventually intertwined,
Underground secrets,
Slowly pulling me down,
Climbing up my limbs,
Wrapping his branches around my trunk.

Struggling for air,
Missing the taste of water,
Hoping to grow bigger and stronger then you.

His words like sap sticking to my brain,
You got to close,
Destroying the only thing I knew how to do,
The very thing we had taught our selves,
To grow tall and strong from the pain.

Uprooting everything good in my life,
Our family trees,
Now enemies,
Silence
Nothing but rustles of leafs.

And now having to move on and hoping one day,
The wind will pick me up,
Take me to a place of serenity,
Where I can begin again,
And grow stronger then you will ever be.

What's a little lie that had held some truth?
Small increment of time wisely pre-planned  
Our wild adventures in our youth
I had known it like the back of my hand
The risk took me somewhere I've never been
I have never felt like that way before  
All that comes to her mind is the word "sin"
I willingly walked through that double door
Hiding from the one who started this mess
She saw me and came at me with her words
She then sent me out and caused all this stress
Me, watching all the obedient herds
I kept walking until I found the way
"Was it deserving she went me away?"

You are a photographer, your flash is extremely bright, people use to tell you to turn it off, but you wouldn't listen so they stopped speaking. You don't come around that much anymore so people either gather around in excitement or hide under there covers in fear. Your pictures are close to being rare.

You are the co-existent crowd, your clapping, roaring and cheering is often misleading. You are invisible but if you weren't I wonder what you would look like.

You are the muted out firecrackers your repetitiveness is calming over time. You make some people have the urge to run outside and  dance.

Drink me
Like your alcohol
Love me
Like you love your alcohol

I will drown myself in an ocean full of beer
Because I know you will drink every last drop

I will shrink myself down
Small enough to just barely slide inside your favorite bottle of beer
Because I know
you will always pick me
You always pick out your favorite one
And then
will you love me?

Would you love me if my name was alcohol?
You could call me al for short
Because I know remembering stuff is hard for you

Can I be your favorite kind
so you'll love me

I will do anything just so that I can feel you hold me again
And not grip me so hard that I have bruises on my arms
And throw me down to the floor
where my thighs seem to be the natural color of black and blue

I don't care
if I have to smell your breath that screams the word "wasted", in my ear

I just want you to love me

Broken bottles hit the floor
Shards of glass everywhere I step

But I can't seem to feel the pain anymore
For you have already caused so much...

Sarah
You wanted me to make you a poem
I asked you if you wanted it to rhyme
And you replied
"Whatever you think is best"

I stopped myself from arguing with you and making you have to decide
I need to stop myself more often from arguing with you
I've always had a hard time stopping
It really wasn't my thing
But this poem is about you not me
So I'll just continue with you

An eight year old little girl
Light brown hair and dark brown eyes
Huge eyebrows and a cute little smile
A little angel but not afraid to throw a punch
Can always make me laugh
Even when I don't want to
You are wise beyond your years and you have no clue

You are still so young and you have a lot to learn
This world is rough
And the road ahead is tough
But I know you'll pull through
Because that's what you always seem to do

You're a tough little girl who can deal with pain
But also has a soft side and will dance in the rain
You are my little sister and will forever be my main

And in case you didn't notice I wrote half in rhyme and half in not
So I hope you like this and if you come back later have a tater tot
Oh oops I'm sorry I forgot
You hate tater tots
I guess that makes me a felon
But make sure you come back and have a slice of some watermelon

If my words I wrote down to you today were clothes, I would be naked.
For what I wrote I put my heart and soul in,
My words were my backbone,
So I guess now I'm missing the most important parts.

I'm ripped apart because you made me vulnerable,
I gave you all I have and you through it away,
I had to go dumpster diving for my broken pieces,
But now you wonder why I don't speak deeply to you anymore,
And my doubt in myself doesn't "inspire" you,
For now I keep my mouth shut.

I only seem to mumble the words I wish to speak in the back of my head,
And now it's time for me to leave this world, for now I'm no longer needed.

Thick girls thighs,
Pretty girls smile,
In denial girls white lies,
"Bad ***" girls court trial.

Smart girls glasses,
Poor girls hand me downs,
Black girls *****,
Rich girls wedding gowns.

Wanna-be girls chameleon attitude,
Slutty girls mini skirt,
Anorexic girls hate for food,
Lost girls amber alert.

Cool girls break the law,
Drunk girls D.U.I,
Klutzy girls trip and fall,
Sad girls wanna fly.

Party girls heels,
Artsy girls love to draw,
Friend-zone girls feels,
Shopping girls love the mall.

Smoker girls pots' laced,
Indecisive girls choice,
Slim girls tiny waist,
Choir girls small voice.

You will go away but the scars you left won't
There a reminder to me
Everyday I stare at them and I hate myself because of it
Because I let you in
I knew you were bad news
All of my friends new about you and what you did
But i didn't believe them
I didn't want to
I wanted to think that you were amazing
But you were the opposite
And once I was in there was no possible way out
I was afraid and scared
Everyday my dignity would shrink
You left bruises mentally and physically
And I never will forget you and what you did to me

First thing when I rise

Devine beautiful mastermind
Badass twisted reckless *******
Chivalrous charismatic being
Grass inhaled and exhaled-
exhibition of your minds greatest works on the biggest ***** of their bodies

Trusted and tender
Passionate pitter of his vocals trickle into my ear
Zoning into his eyes
Dark and soulful
Locked in and uncontrollable involuntary hands move swiftly across colored skin

Secrets swivel through the air
So sell me your sweetest memories
Tell me your worst
I’ll prepare

Aligning our aliens
Parallel parking in the third eye
Dismember her heart
Reassemble the right way
Getting their fix off one another  

Rough rendezvous
Right place
Right time
Tattoos intertwine
Awakening between the sheets of her mind

Reciprocating the rawness of his past times
Renegades seeking retribution

Last thing when I fall

Oh no,
Darling you,
Grew up to early,
It wasn't suppose to,
Be like this,
I'm,
Sorry,

It's no fun,
Being, a grown up.
If I could I would,
Change that,
I would,
Give you your,
Imagination back and,
Go back in time,
But,
Life doesn't work like that and,
I'm sorry...

She said that they don't make it out there
In the real world
They don't survive
I'm one of them
She was one of them
She was surprised that she made it
I wasn't because I knew her strength
She was scared for me
As I broke down I was a mess, and I still am
I couldn't talk about it
Because I knew my eyes would turn to rain clouds
And it was gonna be a big storm
But she seemed to understand
She saw my pain
And I let her
"We are not meant to survive in this world"
This world wasn't meant for people like you and me...

****
*******
**** me
**** us
**** that tree
**** what the ******* ******* put me the **** through
**** the birds and the ******* bees
**** that ******* tree too
**** your ******* lame *** excuses
**** your ******* feelings
Because you didn't give a flying **** about mine
**** your ******* walks you ******* use to ******* take me the **** on
**** your ******* knife that you ******* used to carve our ******* names on
**** the lies
**** the truths
**** your secrets
*******
**** me
**** us
And **** that tree

I miss you

I miss the smell of your granddads cigarettes
I miss the taste of your soft lips
I miss the touch of your hands
I miss the feeling of your love

I miss you

I miss the cigarette smell
I was craving that awful smell
I couldn't stop breathing it in
I wanted to keep breathing it in until my lungs turned black
Because it was the smell of you

I miss you

I miss the taste of your soft lips
I was craving that amazing feeling
I couldn't stop thinking about it
I wanted to keep kissing you untill my lips hurt
because I love your lips

I miss you

I miss the touch of your hands
I was craving your thumb run across my hand
I couldn't bare it any longer
I wanted to feel your fingers rub against mine
Because I love it when we hold hands

I miss you

I miss the feeling of your love
I was craving you
I couldn't contain myself
I wanted to feel your love over and over again
Because I love when our bodies collide

I miss you

sorry my Imagination got

The best of me i guess i just
Hoped and dreamed that we would be
tOgether for the rest of
oUr lives but apparently i
   Guess not and yea I know life
    Has
     To go on but


You know life was pretty great with
yOu, no I take that back life was amazing with
U and I

Wouldn't
changE it for the
woRld
thE

Time
tHat
wE spent together was something that

Only happens
oNce in a life time but you didn't
seE what I saw and I thought you were the one

What are we doing?
We are slowly fading away and i dont want to
But we have to
Nothing lies in the future that is beneficial
There is no progress
There is no future

I’m gonna miss you
Much more than anything in this world
But our love was like watching sprinklers twitch,
in the rain..
Speeding up to a red light,
Pointless

You planted me but did not want me to grow
Just wanted to see me rot
Kept piling more dirt on me,
Making it harder to reach for the sun
But I got there
I did
And I’m thriving...

You are a cat scratch on sunburn,

A turnt backwards fingernail from the carpet you ripped up
"When You Said No But All He Heard Was Yes",

You are a nightmare of which no one can wake up from,

You are a door slammed finger,

An open heart surgery,

No anesthetic,

A person struggling for air while they are forced head down under water,

Drowning,

FISH DO NOT DROWN!
THEY ONLY DROWN IF THERE IS NO OXYGEN IN THE WATER,
AND YOU,
ARE LEAVING ME WITHOUT ANY AIR TO BREATHE,

I AM SUFFOCATING IN MY OWN CONCOCTION THAT I MADE UP

AND I CANT GET MAD AT YOU BECAUSE I AM THE ONE THAT HIT ON YOU FIRST!

Hit On You
Not Hit
Hit Me

you're a nat flying into an eye and making it tear up

but you arnt crying?,
it's not tears of sadness,
tears because you just simply want it to be over

and once you do get the nat out, it still stings, still hurts

and at this point, you just gotta wait it out

The snow covered the land like a white blanket with no wrinkles
The trees looked as fake as-
As fake as plastic
Perfect plastic
That was the thing,
Wasn't it
How everything was and is and will forever be perfect
But perfect can't exist
It's a fictional word
Because nothing is perfect
Not you
Not me
Not anybody
as far as the eye can see
But that's not what they believed
They lived in a land where everything had to be perfect
Even the birds and the bees
Including you and me
And no one understood
Absolutely no one could
How someone and something somewhere could be perfect
Some life to live
Some people to meet
Some perfect people
Some perfect life
Living some perfect day
Everyday
In every which way
And it all starts out in a perfect sway
But when it comes around to May
The perfect people all go away
And they all start to look another way
And they all don't look the same
There is no more fame
And no body to blame
But that blanket
When that blanket melts
And the flowers start to welt
Nothing seems perfect anymore
And maybe it never was
But we will ever know
Because we were living our non perfect life
And living just fine
All of there husbands off with there wife
People weren't walking in a straight perfect line
Everything was just fine
And fine is devine

I lay in an elf size pool
But I get to decide the temperature
As kids we may have dreaded it
But as we grow up we seem to like it
Bathing in tub
Maybe swaying side to side or
With our legs crossed and
Knees up
Maybe with a bottle or glass of some type of alcohol
Depends on the current occasion
And whether or not the tub is actually filled with water
In water we are buyout
We are light
We float
We are weightless
Things don't sound the Same
Except us
We all sound the same
Every body talking is just another muffled out voice
A cracked knuckle is a high pitch tune
Our vision becomes blurry if we decide to open our eyes
We are not water proof
We have to dry
Water droplets role off our bodies
We are damp
And as we dry off covering our bodies with towels
We all walk away

She never had happy parents
He never had caring parents
She never had loving parents
He never had parents
She never had family vacations
He never had house renovations
She never had a home
He never had a pet to call his own
She never felt a hug
He never heard an i love you
She never tasted a kiss
He never wanted to live
She never wanted to die
He was hoping to get the chance
She was wishing upon every shooting star it would come true
They were both happy
And content even through all the never's in life
Because they never knew what the never's were...

Listen to me when I'm talking to you
2. Eat what I make for you even though it might taste like ****
3. Don't curse unless you absolutely have to
4. Defend yourself when the stupid little boy on the playground picks on your outfit that you picked out all by yourself this morning
5. Have the biggest imagination possible but not to big or else you won't be taken seriously
6. Jam out to mommy's music in the car even if you don't like it
7. DO NOT ASK MOM FOR AN ANIMAL because she will take you to the pet store and she will buy everything
8. Don't believe everything a magic eight ball tells you
9. I will get you a phone when I decide to so stop asking
10. Brush your teeth after every meal
11. If your looking for Mr. Right you might have to turn left
12. Don't be afraid to ask questions
13. Express yourself in every way possible and don't give a **** what people think
14. Don't bleach your whole head more then Four times in one sitting just because it's not turning "blonde enough"
15. Buy push up bras if it makes you feel pretty not for some ****** bag who likes em big
16. Go bra less once in your life
17. Always do your homework
18. Only study if you have to
19. Ask me for something you know I'll never say yes to just so you can learn what the word no means.
20. Don't get a dream catcher to catch the bad dreams because they will still happen, get a dream catcher because it looks cool
21. Write all your feelings down on paper
22. Always think before you speak
23. listening and hearing are two different things

She dyes her hair red so she doesn't have to slice through reality to see blood, but simply a flick of her head she'll see what she seeks in her moment of pain.

She dyes her hair red not because she likes the color, but because she is bored with her life and wants a change.  

She dyes her hair red And,
people tell her it matches the deep blue ocean in her eyes that will drown anything that comes across them,
The darkest of the seas,
The things that lie underneath the oceans that people have not yet discovered,
Her, No one knows how far or how deep she is in her own little tragedy or what lies beneath her red artificial dyed hair but,
They compliment her anyway....

Music is my life,
Soul,
and my savior...

Adolescent *******,
you were an accomplished one,
you left me abandoned and apparently I was a *****,
I was beaten and bruised because of your backstabbing, blabber mouth,
you didn't wear a caution sign.
You were cold and careless, you had a concrete heart,
I was damaged and you were dangerous.
I felt dead as a door nail while you were doubting my ability,
elaborating your evil words filling my empty heart and soul.
I was failing to live up to your expectations.
To you I was a filthy, flawed, female,
my heart was flimsy
and I apparently had false information about what was going on
and I was fortunate to have you in my life.
Waiting for you to get to your grave because what you did to me was grim and gruesome
and not once did you ever feel guilty for the haunting, half hearted stuff you did to me. you were heartless and hateful.
you had no hazard sign on you and so I was helpless trying to hide from your humiliating words but I was so hopeful that things could change,
but that was idiotic and impractical and I was imagining all these things.
You had a jagged heart,
you told me I was a jackpot but I was too juvenile to think that I wasn't,
maybe you were jealous and I was just full of joy.
I saw this Kaleidoscope of new colors, thinking maybe you were kindhearted, likable, but all of these loving things were limited and weren't long-term.
you weren't loyal but I knew this was a majestic thing only a magician could pull off.
your masculinity was marvelous,
almost motherly, and I was misguided and mortified,
for what was about to happen again is noteworthy.
I thought you were so nice
I was obedient to your commands,
oblivious to what was happening,
I was trying to be optimistic, open-minded to good thoughts
but the past ,periodically came up and I smelled her perfume on you,
it was pointless this pain kept occurring,
when was it going to be peaceful,
I thought everything was perfect.
still seeing if I qualify for your questionable test,
I was queasy because you were always quick to respond as I became quiet,
so now I was the reckless one in this rare love affair.
was it really reasonable to have me go through all of this
and during all this rough, Rotten and rigid love you never showed one sign of remorse.
I was suffering from your secondhand secrets,
you were selfish so I stood silent,
for this was several times a week and sleepless nights were scary and I shouldn't be surprised but I'm now safe and sane,
our love was tattered, tense and tough.
It was ugly, unacceptable and unhealthy,
you said you were unfinished but I was also useless.
it was unknown what was happening, unrealistic but when our house turned vacant after I was vulnerable because of your vain, vicious and violent words it was not visible but I was weak because of how your wicked, warped, whispering was saying how I  was worthless,
we were just in our youth and we were young.
I was zig zagging through our love, like a newly bought zipper. We
were the animals in the zoo without knowing...

your words,
Like The beads of a dream catcher,
Taking away all my nightmares.

Your artwork
Carefully etched in your soft armor covering your body
Like those of strong Knights

Your thoughts
So,
unpredictable to others,
But i,
I know you like the back of my hand

Like the hand that use to hurt you
But now I'm here to comfort you, like I've been all these years

But you, you're just noticing now,

Can you honestly say you have found a man that suits your wishes everyday

I can

Can you honestly say you are happy to be with him in every stupid little love fling kind of way

I can

Can you honestly tell him you love him and mean it but when he says it, he says it as a friend

I can

Can you honestly fall flat on your face for him and he might not even notice

I can

Falling head over heels for a man that is blinded by his own lover

I'm falling and someday I'll crash

I can't...

If you forget me
You won't just forget me
You'll forget the memories
You'll forget the moments
The time we had together
Everything
You'll forget everything
If you forget me you won't just be forgetting me
You'll be forgetting you too

Traveling through the night,
I found my alter ego on the edge of hope,
It is usually best to speak the words of wisdom that we had taught our selves.
This is what we know, but never wish it upon our worst enemy;
To not care might make jump.

By midnight I fell back to the street and watched,
Listening to the winds made by fast moving cars.
The world lighting up by the tail lights and city street lamps.
She had almost gone up with the others
But I stopped, I stared and she was, okay...

The girl with the mood ring and curly hair skimming her lower back,
Doesn’t quite know what her style is but goes with the calling of the wind,
she told me “This life is not long lived yet, but the longest I’ve ever lived”
Mentality always of older descent
Descending into the world she knew and loved  

Always told she looked older
Old enough to have lived two lives
Old enough to know that “If you drown, at least you know you’re headed to shore”
Washed up into someone else’s mind
daydreaming of you in their frontal lobe
Dreaming of the day you become theirs

They seem to be always looking into life’s review mirror
Can’t get enough of the past-
life the past life
The one you lived before you took ownership of a new body
Signed the papers and checked the right boxes
Revising the one you have now
And reviewing the applicants working papers

She was the temporary occupant of the glass house
The one you can throw stones at because now it’s bulletproof
Vest protects you from the gunshots to the heart
since learning from the first life that not everything is handed to you except the rolled up grass in his tiny shed
That’s when she said you’ll never really know the real me
With the rules circling the air that left is law
Unless you went down the right path
Then you’ll never know us outlaws

In-laws ricocheting their gavel on the podium
They are the real judges
The ones who eye you up and down
Tell you your eyeliner is too thick
And your jeans too ripped
But you tell them
My eyes are black so I can keep your shiny,
fake, plastic-wrapped sight out of mine
jeans ripped so I can practice on how to sew your mouth shut

Nicotine just to fall asleep
Body heavy soaking into the queen size mattress
Soaking up the words of her parents the ones who raised her to be hell bent
Waking up to the soaking wet pillow from sweat
Or maybe those are tears...
From the nightmares she so desperately craves like a hole in her head
Ain’t no bulletproof vest for that
10 when the parents split up
16 when she thought she knew what Love was
17 when she really knew what Love was
18 when she laid down in an open field with vultures circling around her
Merry go round of men
Picking at her hip bones and thighs like it was nothing
Taking the best part and moving in on their next ****
But was it their fault if there next ****-
Was already dead....

We expect a chair to be there when we sit down
We expect that the outcome will turn out ok
We expect the water from the bottle to taste good
We expect a stair to be there when we put our foot down
We expect that we will sleep well
We expect too much from such an unexpected universe
And we hope for good outcomes when all we had was bad karma.

headache- Pop two Advil
But we can do better than that

Down the whole Advil bottle with a handle of jack
and whiskey throttle into the worlds atmosphere

Stepping into the black hole that holds your life in fragments of their soul
Speeding in the fast lane riding in a limousine
When you’re the only passenger on board

The moon may seem like a cool place to venture
But give me the sun so I can sense what it feels like to be the center of attention and revolve into the shotgun of his heart

To burn and no one says anything about it because that’s the way the cookie crumbles

And no one knows how fresh that bakery is down the street on mars because it all tastes good so no one questions it

That’s funny though, isn’t it?
If everything is going as planned
And nothing is wrong
Life’s sweet memories taste sweeter than the last
And there’s never a bitter taste on your tongue, or in your brain,
No one questions it

But as soon as the sun stops shining into your tinted limousine
And the cookies aren’t as fresh as they used to be
We get all fussy and bent out of shape and start trying to fit the wooden square into the circle imprint
And wonder why the hell its not going in,
Our brain matter turns into the static of that old tv
And our eyes get flustered
Things start looking fuzzy
When we awaken after a long nights sleep and everything is blurry

A morphine drip hanging above our bed inserted into our arm
Anesthesia shoved needles into limbs

look I get it
We think we deserve better than the last
“You can do better than that”
But what if the last thing was the best thing
And what if,
it doesn’t get any better than that?