Who wants to be poor
cash is ignored
I want to be yours
Your closets a tour
You smell like Dior
I want to be yours
My presence is sired
These bottles are cured
You know what I want
You know what I want
I want to be your....I--I want to be yours.

I walk to the door the one with the exit sign.
I followed the cord for all my life.
It leads to this
It leads to Christ..
I don't know
I don't know why.
What's behind is ashes and dark nights.
This is the only thing I have in this life.
What means so much is cracking breaking I'm loosing myself.
I hold the **** like it was one of my hands.
There's a light on the other side it's like I can ..I can feel it.
I saw my own body decaying infront of me,
There's a time to die but after I pray that what I did hear was for a greater something...
We live by not living, we die but were not even trying.

I deceive so many
Like a penny on the ground what would they try to buy with me?
I'm entangle like the Girl that's From Disney.

I was trapped with a thought would just keep on singing
"I know Best"
3 years now and i look down at the mess.
ashes
ashes
I can't keep High for that almost took my life
I'm not safe no where,
I just wanna
I just wanna get out here.
Cut the thoughts cut the actions and just Go there.
wanna See My Father!
wanna Meet New Promise!

Bragging rights are like the ocean with waves get notations from the sand like "your gunna end right here tonight".

I Heard about Buddha I listen to the ways of Allah but who is Yeezus?

Down right wrong there coming as a nasty fragrance that's too strong...
Killing just live by clothes, books or songs.

As they ask me can we all just get along?

You headed beast your the same one that's speaking about women like they don't matter at all?!!

Why would I believe in a lie that cost?

I hate how I want you,
I don't you need you but I like to
I can't sleep no if It was me and you
So I sleep alone and it's so cold.
There's a better life and better death
If I can get pass your mess.

If you ever told me I'm leaving I wouldn't run after this,
Escaping you is a stronghold that I'm wiling to break free from all this.

You make me feel like it's magic
Caught in the tricks oh the tricks of you.
You make me feel like this is tragic
The wounds on my body my body cause of you.

Tell me when I'm trying, I'm trying to get over to you.

I just don't get it don't get why I'm up all on you.

Texting and calling
Oovoo and skyping
Well friend I'm trying to I'm trying to get threw...

***** to know you look at me snapchating,
But there is nobody nobody and you..

Look over me and think I'm not gunna be wound..

You only text me just to be tragic
You only Skype me when you wanna be magic
**** pics and body shots that keeps thinking you don't..
Love me like I think
Like I think you do.

Well I'm escaping escaping what you do why you do that you know.

Watch how I don't reply to bodies and bodies of **** Gold...

When I say you I mean me and when I say I , I mean I'm escaping your Body Control.

His heart sinks in his stomach
Gasping for air.
Being the bad guy is to easy you know why?
Cause they just don't care..
My friend forgive me for burning walls where my hands rip and tare.
Here is The man that sits upon a Liars Chair!
I was here to help not provoke your thoughts,
In heaven it's counted on earth it's someone else's lunch.
I can't eat right now it feels like your one hand shake from leaving me today.
I'm weird I know
Am I suppose to leave? I'll go..
Are you uncomfortable let me know
In this life I just don't wanna lose you on second thought ...I .....hate me bro

Oops I have fell to deep
Oops I have fell to deep in it
My love has become trapped in it
Oops my friend I can't tell you how sorry I am
My love has become bread crumbs
Oops my life is fighting to stay alive
I don't know where this strength comes from
Oops I am praying to deep
Oops I have open my eyes in it
Oops I'm soo tired  of falling in this
Oops I have faith I can make it out
Everyone falls!
I'm falling but everyone falls
Will I stay here with the bread crumbs or will I ...
Oops I have faith now

I'm in time of my life where it's not cool to be broke not because your own gain but the people you wanna help things falling around and you just wanna show them your there to help misunderstandings well at least you're standing if we're rooting the problems out of misses.
I'm In a stage of my life where I want see Good outcomes when I give my all have enough time to grasp it all under pressure bout nothing at all face the trails and getting them done tapping my feet cause I'm singing a new song adventuring out while the people that didn't believe and did sings along ...you can count on him because he's been making a difference in the city he's from.
Only twenty-two   so high up but down to earth when you speak to him
Mind_blowing to be around positivety away ye leaks of

Was rolling deep I can't keep them from running away or leaving me
Man forreal this is a shame I'm ashamed..

Couldn't sleep the walls love to talk to me why didn't I keep her well I couldn't feel anything man for real this is a shame I'm ashamed..

Use to be safe on who I was what I am is better then who I use to be follow me you follow him end of story man for real I was shame that was his Name..

Everything that's nothing sleeps with me the mirror reminds me humanity
God is the only thing that let's me breath and I cherish him out of the nothing I am for everything he is..man for real
..cause I was shame
...

My love what's worse...
Cheating on someone or that person saying they don't love you as a joke?
As you try to picture it he had me strip down with a smile and a note.
Wanting more I texted him the same day no reply though
I guess it's safe to say it was a one day thing???
I don't know.
Still I got some somebody I've been looking waiting on to catch him while he was alone.
Back at home I get treated like he loves me but don't touch me I feel so combed if that make sense I feel so plucked out of my thoughts I don't know .
Reminiscing kissing on his stairway,
So many positions made me remember why I like guys in the first place.
But I'm home and reality starts to sit in the hard way
It's either get dog out by the hot freshman that works with you or take the senior by the broad hallway.
I know I'm not right but who is again if we were looking at this side ways.
Talk bout being torn and rip from to guys that really don't have nothing and I'm chasing them both for a good case.
They both want me and they both tell me I have great taste but one sounds just to use me and the other say "I have you i don't care about *** anyway."
He says *** ain't love and everytime I try to show him to me it goes the same way while the other takes it shuts up and prolly rn don't even care which one today.
Was I wrong
Oh I wish I just had you loving me the way you do And you receive how the way I feel today but you won't so we go half notch because When you want four play I give it when I wanna make love you tell me a story and then try to back it up with *** ain't love or nah not today

He goes to a place that is covered in pleases
Dripping from his head is your face and just course jesture and teasing..
I couldn't be more of a meaning, what I'm saying he grieves over stuff that's indicted.

Like watching **** my heart was torn i feel like that is my cigar to release what I have as I sit exploded and out of it..

But out of it I'm far from cause when I think of your love for me I would trade my life of pleases and pornographics

For your Love cause that's extravagant









Deliver me.

Counting stars in the day time
Cause it's darker then most wanna see.
Holding all the answers and never tell them,
So they will never know they are decieved.
Cutting out the picture bring your frame down,
Like a match that supose to be 100 degrees.
Messing with Z's
I'm just checking on dreams
Cause I'm paying for sleep
A bartender with drinks
You should listen to me
Slooowww down..
And Watch what there putting in your drinks..

Son,
God will strengthen you
Dad will hold you
Your sister will behold
What a son you will be one day
What a father I will become that day
Love has made you
And love will guide you
You’re not even created yet,
But oh just a thought of you
Is enough…

I understand that I been chose
I understand to be and not to exist anymore.
Hundred billion people in the world and my spirit came to this body  all the tears I cryed all the foolish things I have done counted worthy...
...to do in this life.

Friends what is the definition?
I feel the warmth of my mom but only in a sacrificial position.
They have been hear longer
Longer then my old scars of tension.

I never thrown away there love even in my early teen dispensation,
Well once cause it felt like the love was religious but now I get it or do I?

I'm scared to get it and not understand why people walk out my life! When is this thing called life gunna end? But am I worthy to step in that realm yet?
No cause I still want to live and figure out what love really is ....
Is rejection a face of it?
Compassion on your enemy the speech of it?
Your best friend leaving you in the street to die now becareful of him?!
Or what about the time where the world turned there back on you because of your own actions and you can't say nothing else about it..?

Ladies and gentlemen these are the faces of love Cause I'm still here and as the rain on my window shade drips on the grass in the dirt, I grow from my mistakes, this love,  my hurt.

I took the pain that I flick on myself,
When you take the pain of your enemy then that's another something else...
And that I worship and praise who knows maybe all these things will bring me to that place.

I’ve been sinking in my thoughts for days now
There in the movies feeling I should break down
It’s like I have to choose from being rich or being poor with a lover now.
Why can’t you just come home as I’m home to my heart an let’s forget about who is on your phone now...
I’m trying to rhyme and be less dramatic
But **** man this hurts and i don’t know if I wanna just call you mine or just lay here til you notice that you need me to
These hands text these words but it’s the most I can do
All these Dating apps an I just want you
All these guys and I’m so tired of scrolling threw
All these **** videos but they don’t do what you do
I know thats nasty to some but to me that’s a piece of why I thought you were beautiful.
In a mans eyes all we think about is how we can fix
While girls  think  we think about is ***
But what if you were missing a man
Who told you he wants to be happy with someone close his age and wanted to show his mom a reasonable color to come home to ?
Most black guys would of moved on and here I am stuck on the fact I don’t care if she’s  racist all I want to know is are you coming home.
Cause I’m missing you like crazy and to be honest I don’t think I have done any wrong
When I can’t go back threw time and I can’t wash my skin off
I don’t know I m just writing this one to write wrongs and show you I would wait for you ...
Ima leave this here let me know when you get off.

I can't deny it
But I can be honest.

It's a riot
But how can you riot in silence.

It's my escape,
But my freedom & promise..do I give it up?

I can't...
I can't let this go.

I gave many years to you,
But this gives me forgiveness.

I don't i  can solve this,
But only you can help me out of my problem....

Fact is I messed up
Truth is I don't know why we run from truth when he's the only thing that help us.

Try to not think about you but they slip threw
Like a needle threw cotton, stitching me back up with sadness, regret, and happiness.
So far yet so close
So close and yet my reach is in the dark
And even now I still can’t see ... I can’t put my finger on it but,
You look familiar
As I wake up I’m the same person that I was yesterday
Searching for nothing in nothing there’s always someone that loves you.
Do you love me ?

Boy with a coin he plant in the dirt
And watched as the faces turned To the earth.
Bought him a Ring and wings just to glow and watch how they praised him and that’s how he knows

Boy with a coin fell for a man
Chasing his heart like paper in the wind
Left him his ring just to dance on cloud
The man stole his heart and the boy fell straight to the ground.

Boy with a coin found in the dirt
He walked a few miles and found a ******
With eyes that were dark  and pocket full of tears
He took off his wings and covered his fears.
Emptied his pockets made it a river
So the ****** would know that even when he cried that it would get better.

****** of rivers he took off his clothes
And laid on the wings for the boy that you know
Boy with a coin  sat on a cloud
heard a sweet melody and guess who he found..?
Took his wings and the ****** around
Told him to “hold on to me” and jumped on a cloud and I heard that’s where there living right now

You lose what you try to gain,
You gain what is nothing
When you find what is meaningful.
You take it and brainwashing your self into thinking it's in your membrane.
But who you are and what you made can never be together, unless your a God and there you go again claiming what you can't be.

..wretched! Filthy! Men who decieves will be DECIEVED.

You can tell them I said it!
You poor and wretched man until you see you need him more then you want to be God, YOU CANNOT EVER BECOME REAL TO ME ...

This story we call life is full of lovers and daggers,
It ends quickly but it feels for a life time
What did we do to stumble so far away
Will there ever be order ?
To be honest ...

I don’t care about it but I do lowkey
I move with a certain step of expectancy,
Lacking worthiness and consistency
Loyal as hell to fire
But ... this world is creating me to be cold hearted
Post luggage and the sad things
When all I wanted in the first place was Love to clean me cause I’ve been threw this mud some call home.

Today I can see a fallen world, and I can only imagine them falling in love with you...

Falling in love with you.

-Christion Grey

F.A.M.E.

How I turn a 10 into 6?
I just gave her a 18 karote kiss
I just put my heart up on my wrist
Everywhere I turn they smile at me
Everytime I walk there like the sea
rushing, touching until I can’t even breath.
My hands won’t stop shaking it’s been doing this for a week
I got some meds from the doc
I got some meds from me
I pop a xan just for the thrill
I pop xan just to sleep
When I wake I’m in a city where I’m not even Gunna be...
So much things I need to do
So much things I need to see
So much demons in the room
All they want is to be in me.
Sold my soul so I can see
Sold my dog cause it started to hate me
Jacket full of hearts I’m in a everlasting fall
Went from crying for my dreams now I evoled ... I’m ballin picture me rolling the body that I’m with know that her heart I stole it ..cause I’m frozen.

I gave them my last
I gave them my cup
I gave him my virginity
And I gave her my trust
My dad toook my sanity and my mom drug my wants
Needing someone just to tell me I won’t leave
You left …
You left me
You lied
Your lied to me Nathan
My sky is falling and you said you wouldn’t
My own family hates me
And you said you told me to leave
And now that I left
Where are you
Where are you
Where
I’m …… tired
Of giving something that I don’t have
Laying on a couch that’s not mine
Drinking from a bottle that I didn’t buy
I’m tired
Of not having my own
I will change that
And it hurts cause now ….
I have to sit here and act like I don’t even see y’all
I’m done being the bad guy to your story
I’m ready to start my story
I should of been …. I’m just tired

Slipping threw the clouds drowning the grace falling so fast saw a glimpse of your face I miss you Pops I miss my Dad I miss my father the one I had I trip on me so hard I laugh and the tears come falling ...
sinking threw the ground the empire I made the Years I see isn't what I imagined what I thought we had I miss my dad..
Father in heaven father of love show me something no oops I fell my bad  I laughed my bad this love I hold is bleeding threw these wretched hands

Cause when I'm freaking down I be down the road.
But when I say I'm done Do  I really go?
I don't really have a friend I can depend on..
Cause when I say come do you even come?

Sticks in the fire I don't think you understand me,
See I've been burned so tell me something new or why I shouldn't feel this way?

Cause when they wasn't down I was by your home.
But when I don't speak you should be Affraid.
It's not because I'm mad it's because when I'm on the road I be down the road!
"Do you wanna chill"? Oh my bad I got church though...
Hate to see forget me but it hurts to go all that way to hear the lie though.

You don't understand? Your gunna fall when the one you was climbing is not even supporting you.

Forgive me for hurting the one that was supporting me.

Fictional people want to be equaled
Practice there happiness but I know what I'm in need of.
Do I gain the world and lose my soul?
Do I let let them in on a heaven note?
Angels sing and horns they blow
I'm to far out God bring me close!!
I'm fear God like wouldn't know still I have days where it dosent look like though..
All my silver and platnuim and Gold my idols my thoughts my actions I throw down if I can step back in to reality.
Step back in where you need me to be
I'm so alone when it comes to me.

He say he want to be my fictional boyfriend,
The other makes me feel like I'm poison
No joke but I'm steadily Joking
I tried I tried to tell him
I lied I lied and said it
This is soon to ended I should just walk away and forget it forget it there i go again!

Fiction words to get a pic
Real words I think your dead ...
I like your smile now ******* kiss
I don't think I'll be here again..
Cause miss love not happiness
When you get mad then don't talk to him I think it's for the best.
But I won't leave without you been giving a chance to come to reality..

I just wanna run to a place where I'm back where reality sets in.

Lately
I've been eating lies
Can you help me.

Fighting all my rights
I don't know why run from the light
I can't! I can't! I can't!
Watching all of this darkness got me hiding my lamp.
So I ran and I ran
But there just gunna **** me so what am I afraid of.

Lately
I've been holding tight
To the right things
Before he touch the sky
I'll get it
We will get it right

I caught the rain before I came

My jacket was soaked my heart felt the same.

Had to dry off before I came.

Lost my job and one of my friends on the way.

Before that me and my brother talked about God and it was great.

But I'm scared but not scared that he might take off or give me a break.

That house was a refuge to me and my days.

Before that she's mad at me again..

It all started with a crack of disobey,
It's hard to not scream when it's someone i love giving up on me.

Finally back and I layed down cause for weeks I haven't got no sleep.

To be honest I don't know what was better to walk and be soaked by the rain or walk for hours in the pouring rain.

This
Can’t
Not

I
Tried
To

He
Can’t
Know
(Finesse)

It
Takes
So
Finesse

.....you stay on my mind.

I have lost the feeling
I have lost the focus
Everything I do for love gets Toss in the ocean
Why walk why keep running
When you don’t even see my steps in the sand
Why do I have to be open?
For another take to steal my time
Fir another to say I’m broken
When it’s clear that I have kept the walls from talking
The room from floodin
The door from strangers
And your jead from spinnin
I’m done
I have lost th thrill
All I want now is a cloth and a drill
I’ll make a safe haven
I’ll prepare the meals of a lost man even irs only fish and broccoli steamed in my kitchen
I know I’m good lover
I know what I can do
Abs if you can’t see that
Then I’m Jamie foxx auditioning for Ray Charles dude…

I never meant to be too much
But then again if I wasn’t then it wasn’t love
Was it stupid to fall in love?
I don’t think I was I just think it was your company that I love.
See, I never meant to
Nvm

When the world calls you crazy
When your feet is walking to amazing
When your heart stops just breath
When your hands are in heat
And you write more then you what you think
When your pen cant seem to sleep
When the pages embrace your thumb
And your life becomes good things...

Whatever floats your boat,
No I sinked a lot of times and notice
I was meant to breath in the deep.
This time I will float up and see greatness one of theses days

Wanna- bes are wanna-bes never be that.
Cause there the ones that go to sleep but wake up different.

Patience is patient so it waits, forgiveness is light while in the dark unforgiveness holds weight.

Who you are is Great that makes Greatness,
Not knowing that is like a misconception.

We can make a moment forever
I can make a crack rock into a mountain,
Feenin' for forever and ever it will be..

What has haunted me has became my friend but now I'm in a time in my life where that friend has left and I moved into another  " ERA".

I see the white hair road around the corner,
But I don't wanna be in the same state I'm in when I reach it.
I wanna be a pharmacist I wanna be a electrical technian whatever happen to college ?
Right there I don't know what to say
Whatever happen to wait?
I can't no more I really wanna be in a good place in my life before I leave this's  place .
Not that anything is wrong with my mom & dad's place but it's my mom & daddy place.
Getting so des pressed I love that I don't really wanna call me lust in.
But I will figure out for Good time sake

Have you ever seen the fall before somebody fell
Or knew the answer before somebody told the Question?
My heart is hurting before they know the pain,
And what you do you smile because there smiling and swallow the truth...
Above all you love them not because you know what's coming soon but after to be there when they say "I never needed you"!

Trying to hide the things in my mind
So quiet but I'm screaming inside.

Hiding behind the laughter
My world just shattered
I would give you anything just don't leave this matter.
You didn't want to live I'll make this world worth living.
White flakes of ***** or thick bond agreement.
Whatever you want I'll be here on my knees,
Eat my heart like lunch my love for you I can eat.
We feed upon each other in him we move and have our being.. Is that how you really feel about me? Is this the real deal? Is he really for you? How can I show you I am? How can hold your understanding ? I'm here for you take my hand.

I stare at a wall for a good minute
The silence of it makes me happy
They could be closing in on me
I can be outside of them without a key.
I believe it's good for something's to hate me,
I stare at the picture that talks to me how exciting
You hang to let me see.
Thank you

Among the men that have fallen
Among the angels that have lost there way
Before the beginning and before the sin that made you cast me away
Who was I to you ?
I use to love writing songs about what I thought I knew
Now living in a world of fallen men and angels that have let go
Again I am on my knees again my stomach feels the weight of  my doings
I haven’t went to church in over a year
and yet I hear you calling
And yet I feel you’re peace
But the night it draws me
Saying he’s real but you’re too drunk to go to the alter tonight ...so I sing

Holy holy holy is the Lord God almighty who was and is to come !
They laugh at me as they call me drunk..
I need saving
I need you
I need bathroom ...I feel like I’m bout to ...PUKE!

Oops I have done it I did it again
Fell in a moment in my head.
You were the anchor and I was the ship
Sense you have let go I’ve been wondering threw this.
Taste what I already know
Oh just drink a sip
I drink it all down though
That feeling of being alone and ****.

Yea, tried to let that go
Some how it comes back to kiss
So... oops I have done it I did it again...
I’m thinking of you again
Like a ship to anchor that has broke off
I wonder while I’m wondering ...
Do you think of me friend

I notice you did you notice me?
I saw you did you see me?

Maybe it was the crowd that's probably why you couldn't see me...it's ok

I notice you did you notice me?

Ohh nooo!!
If they don't wanna stay they can goo!!
It seems love don't live here anymore
I find my self walking alone
Singing "I love you".


For me
For you
Pray about the same ol' soul
Til my knees are bleeding cold
I do
Love you
..it's true.

Lyre
calls me
I thought you was gunna show!
But I waited just to long.
Is it cool
If I just don't move..?
My love I tried like..


Ohh nooo!!
If they don't wanna stay they can goo!!
It seems love don't live here anymore
I find my self walking alone
Singing "I love you"

Waking up to the sun got me looking for the shade,
But looking up to your son got me hiding in my shame.
I was ***** before I ever knew my name
And yet you gave me time to learn yours...
At age 24 I still have my ways and sometimes reach for my pillow for some shade,  but to know your name and know you’re  somewhere around this horrible place let’s me know I can put my pride and shame away and just wake up to a brighter day

No matter how much I tell them no matter how much I do, most will be numb to the fact that  we live after we die.

But that's not why I come to live this life to tell the world about truth and hope that's coming for his very own life.

Jesus is the answer to all dead questions
If religion is your question it will be unanswered..
No matter how much you tell me no matter how much you do.
This world is full of evil just look at the money beside you, giving you clues on how to die for a dead man is unsearchable but to die for the living...who?
Well it's supernatural  and the worst thing about this is he is right in front of you.
breath that's his way of loving you. Have u felt like there's more to life ? Then I'm talking to you.

But no matter how much I say no matter how much I do.. There u are thinking this is another poem.

Friends with benefits is dumb
But what man you know would drop that
Me?!
You call me like a boyfriend but we’re not together so I have to pick your brain to see who I am today
I came to pick you up to see my friend but my friend wants to **** me
trust me when I saw the pattern and my head clicked I was like in slow motion “ oh ****” then drop the lunch meat.
and stared at the wrapper with the price saying 1.29
And was like “Is that what you value me?”

You could of got The premium pack where it comes in all three...
Love, *** and everything
I believe friends with benefits is Like a guy or girl going into the store with a basket full of the expensive stuff and looks at you the premium stuff and say nahh I want the great value in you

The little leaves !
The blossom pushing life thru the wind!
You know how flowers bleed?
The Little steppers dance on your hea-eeeey-eeaaad!

So sweet
Better than a cotton candy ornament.
Honey !
Yellow jackets with transparent wings  on them
every Flower opens up for them
Every branch is holding pain for them
Why wouldn’t you taste and see that The Lord made it just for them.
I mean just for them !
(So what’s here for you ? )
(Bone of my bone flesh of my flesh what’s here for you?)
(What is sweeter then man that loves life? )
What is tasteful then a woman that takes times ?
Well…
The Lord isn’t he ?
(So what’s here for you )

you can taste the dishonesty it's all over your breath from the time drips threw the sun into my bedroom my eyes dont remember your scent not even a stinch... for my heart is to sold for questions and my mind is shattered into little pieces I eat at night and I'm back waiting on the sun to drop so I might get up from this spot I've been in for 3 months.. geezzz just live zeal just

Don’t wait up
I’m staying
I wish all these nights We were laying
Side by side
Eye to eye
Life to Life
Why oh why is hard!
Why oh why is hard for you to love me
Why oh why is it easy for you to let me *******
Please
Answers..I need answers please

These people are weird
They eat raw and they sip blood
The Nephilims from around the flood
These people sleep like wolves
The kids from old the sons of Wood
The Nephilims from around the flood.
Flesh ripped open smelling like a pack dogs,
You wouldn't believe me if you knew what there trying make a "God".
You read like I'm writing something that you can like and just go on.
Please believe the heartless are on top.
We have faith in Noah to free what is left of us.
THE ZOMBIES THERE TALKING ABOUT is the Nephilim generation but...
You won't believe me if I said "Here They Come".
Pray for I will be a David to my Goliath.
If they **** me it's only because I wasn't Quiet.