Genuine the crafty but his faith for real
Square to society a dog with a tail
Running from life means I'm killing myself.
Suicide thoughts come to think of my health.
Darkness decade the slightest of hell will give a good atheist a kiss that God is real,
more of moscato makes my feelings come out
Pour me some more I'll be spilling myself.
Laughing at nothing the walls are to chill
He's looking like honey his brother is milk
Might wanna taste or I'll just take sip
See this is what happens if I took a pill
Can I be honest ?
I wrestle *****
my mind when it's sober wonders but push
Drunk the wonders are pulling me in

That's why I stay with a belt
I can smell blood then I go for the ****
Something takes over then it's over for them
You wonder why I don't like to comeover.
You know full well.

I'm genuine here's the details

If it was up to me
I would of never broke down
Before the tears roll down...

My love is waiting.

im Mad, sad and can’t figure out  why I keep thinking bout you ...
Is  it the regret that’s eating me alive?
Or the silence of your solitude.
Is it the stinch of a relationship the died like 2 to 3 years ago?
Or this peanut butter sandwich that’s really not fulfilling me
It feels like I’ve been hit in the “testies”

They will never be royal
And we won't ever be normal.

Cause they look for a title,
And we break all our idols.

Oh the pain of there succes,
Oh the healing of our downs.

Love is a battlefield for them,
Love is our gravity that keeps our feet on the ground.

Keep thy rod and they loose there place,

In this life you see shadows and demons and darkness.
Angels come by speaking the word the light the glorious treatment.

But most friends leave you and your family sometimes treat you like Garbage.
Until they realize there's a light reflecting from your room at night.

You prayers that you don't even fathom like....
Speaking in different tones and crying threw the night just to wake up with a angel by your side.
Looking and you wonder are still tired or just literally walking another realm in this life.
I've notice that my situation comes but it's only here for me to prepare what's to come in this fight.
I see demons and angels everyday all night, use to be scared now I speak and the angels surround me to fight.
This is the Glorious side.

Touch from  the angels
Gripped by God
Devil always talking
"You'll never have Enough".
Demons they spit
The angels silent tonight
God whispers and say
"Trust in me threw the Fight".
I ******* own blood
It flows from the bite
Death just looks like
" I'll be back alright?"
Fainting...
One blink gone
Breath in...
I can see my bones.
Get up!
I find the strength to roll.
My heart sings a sweet Hyme for my soul..!

From glory to glory they will go...

**Chuckles

I don't no anymore if I'm coming or going.
My sorry is warned out and my heart has been so thirsty.
Everytime I look I sigh more then I thank thee.
I know that's not right but I'm wrong cause I know it's something.
Something I've been doing.
I ask you to Guide me and you lead me home

Lord I ask you do the same after this life is done.

I count to ten a million times,
The end is near, you see the signs
They don’t know
They don’t know me
They don’t know
They don’t know we
Been here sense the beginning of time

Some call on me, some call on you
Their maybe Greek there maybe Jew
Some skies like green some skies are blue
But sins are dark let God be true
They don’t know
They don’t know me
Oh you know?
Oh you know me..?

So why you smile at Calvary?
It’s just a joke until you bleed..
Satan dragon Zeus and These
Hate what’s good but it’s all myth you see...
So who will tell the truth of these
But don’t you know?
Yes you know me..
I watch close and yet you don’t see me
Can you hear me ?

Crumbs are good when you don't have nothing, what's wrong with wanting the whole Loaf though? Not being greedy I'm just hungry for something to be honest I just wanna see if I can have it on the table though. Last year was last year can you tell me what you ate? Better yet what was your Actions last week..? Yesterday walks around lookin for a new day, being about your buisiness and seeing what it make is greater then wish you can do something great.

Color is a crime
Math is too
Still we teach what we create
Entrepreneurs are keeping quite like subtitles,
Poor life bought a shiny bezel couldn't find his soul so he banged a couple picking wings from angels Italy might be heavens payroll to him it's Benjamin and Aholes bank rolls flight comes he's gone mentally mind froze . Who am I to a billionaires mind though?
Oh sorry my mind froze I was writing something thinking bout all those who would like this luxury. Multiplying and dividing Benjamin's I might just create a symphony and sale it to the melodies below me so they can get a look at the sky I see...

phone rings**

Oh hey ...

Where the sun goes down
And the sea starts to  dance
the crowd becomes blank faces
And I’m trying to keep my stance
There you will find me
With a cherry on top and ***** at the bottom
3 cups away from giving into *****
2 cups away from living in the phantom
1 cup away from persuading the music to give up its possessions.
I’m drunk and becomes to reckless
I drink the thoughts down cause all I want is for someone to find him.
Talk to him..
Bump him..
But as I look over my shoulder there all fake
There all people that are forgotten
And the lights make them move and music becomes there *****..
A city of ruin
A man of loses
We look good together but lot says i can’t stay
For the pillar of salts become a void nothing.
How wish you would speak to me
How I wish you could listen
Can you just hold me ?
Well can you just .....uh forget them

When the band starts pack up
And the old ladies have made it the car
My friends text me “Where are you”
And my heart is silent sitting in the wind of my stomach…
And smear the make-up and I take the red nose off.
I text them like nothing ever happen
“I’m on my way”.
I lock the doors and drive next to the bk
Just to let the real play happen
My tears play the symphony
abs the music becomes the background
I shrink in the driver seat clutching my knees…
I’m not enough for you is written in cursive on my sleeve
Vivid old memories starts to bleed
I never meant for you to leave
I just wanted you to notice everything we did and now finding out the truth
I can’t even speak
I lost another from the intuitive voice that conquers the greed
I can do a million things for you but you can’t even acknowledge our anniversary
Who am I to you?
….nothing but wind that blow the trees

I tend to gaze at his look
I tend to gaze at his face
Like a song with a hook
He asked “are you ready to play?”
We were playing basketball but I was playing another game
His sweat was like scent
And his walk was like a trace
I know I shouldn’t look
But I watched him feeling so gay
I wonder if he ever realized that I was envious of The simplest things
Like how he dribbled the ball
And how he wanted to touch my chest and walked away saying
“ good game”

Have you ever felt like the world you been living in was to small?
Like boredom was your friend
And nothing surprised you anymore..
Like your best friend died
And trying to make new friends just felt weird.
Or what if you felt like The bad guy
So you smile because the silence is better then the fake smiles that use to like you.
And WHATS WITH THAT GUY YOU WAS GUNNA MARRY ??
Whatever happen to that guy….
Oh well nobody will hear you cry when the clouds are raining.
Such good weather

The sky is grey and the light is far,
the sea is a rage within my heart.

Cause i need eyes to be my guide
i need voice thats louder then mine
I need hope
and i Need you.


I pray for dawn a new day to live,
I pray mercy only jesus gives..
i believe overall there is a greater light.

I  need hope and I need you,
Cause i can't do this alone.

Grace i call your name
oh want your smile fall over me.

COME DOWN AND SAVE ME!

Cause I despise who i've been...right,
I'm in a fight that i can't Fight alone.

Wishing I'm hoping I'm praying for something but who isn't?

Tell them I get it I did it I knew it.

This was gunna happen, but I wonder if I was hoping and praying and wishing that I didn't...

Here I am looking threw the distant,
In real life I've been looking at this green glove for a minute.

Blow the candles all out,
Fashionably late
Your the one with the tie,
Oh your hair looks great.

Guess who's birthday
Guess who's birthday

Have you seen the birthday boy?
In the basement why is that?
Oh well  present time guys let's go surprise
Come on dear you will hold the cake

Guess who's birthday
Guess who's birthday

Oh my God get him down!
Move the chair and cut the strings!
I can't feel a pulse, check his heart if he's still breathing...

Guess who's birthday
Guess who's birthday

I saw the place where I was bound
I closed my eyes in regret..
Oh those words that I said
I swear I didn't mean it!

"Guess who's perfect"
"Guess who's perfect"

Those three words became my madness.

I'm your peace of mind fight for what you made yourself believe,
Time is mighty fine when you're not thinking of the minutes they gave.
I'm wide awake
I'm wide awake
If u can save me now would I want you to?
Can't even help but cry
And break away!
Just take away!
Everything, plz just can't hold on to you anymore...

I'm stuck in a lady gaga song and never heard it.

He sits beside me and I never notice.

Nice eyes and man the chest and stomach on this guy....

Wait, am I checking him out?
Look away....shhh .....no ...stop it!

He's walking this way as I get a text from my girlfriend.

She says she's leaving me for another man.

Dame!

Suddenly he sits infront of me, for someone reason his smile takes me too a song I use to listen too.

Ever the same.... rob Thomas.

Oh crap he's talking....what I do?
What I say? I know he's gay....

But he's so peaceful and my heart is crushed right now....

Do I hold my tears or speak and let go??

It latches itself like venom from the spider man movie is this real?
Or Are you me...cause I've been feeling these habits and I don't know if it's good or bad for me.

Between you and me
There’s something in the way
We speak like lovers but glorify this  hollow state.
This hollow place
With these hollow things we cherish.

Put it in my archive
Don't get no tissues
Stack it up until I see missles
Praising the Lord has never been simple
I just went back like a dummy
If love was a drug I feel funny
I can barely get by
I still believe in him

Good boy ! Get back to the ceil
Get back from the pills
Keep tunnel vision like your heart was thrilled.

I'm a Fool
I'm Dripping like Gold........you know
It's Getting harder to love me...again
cause when you move like that,
away from me.
My mind plays tricks on me,
and I drip like Gold....you know.
Now why I told you the truth,
cause i thought it would make us closer
when it only made you hate me..

...Happy Valentine's Day

It's like a vampire ******* you,
Draining your ideas
Draining the Dreams your mind gives you.
It's like a dog sniffing you.
Don't know if it bites
Don't know if it likes you.
It's like a *******
I was here to excite you
But I was never here to comfort you.
It's like a old magician.
The smile and they say "Ta-Da"!
But walks away and say fools..

So much example not enough words,
A cancer dying of cancer that's worse on worse dirt on a rat or guy looking up skirts with his mom and wife saying please stop doing that.

I needed healing from that
I needed kick to the "perks"
Couple of bruise will show you
Dang lust kills when love only hurts

Have you ever felt like you wanted to hold somebody dear cause your arms have all this space?

Your head keeps running in place as you think about who will stay?

They all leave eventually and you stuck looking up in space the stars and all that's made just feel like everything is leaving you once again?

No...?
Just me...

Knock on me as I open up I can see your skin and it's changing cause your Affraid I won't take you but I took you in see I waited my whole life to have a friend,
You kiss on me like a lovers ascend
The pleasures hot like hells in it.
Feels soo Good
Feels soo Good
Know you would
That's I'm here tonight.
That's why we're friends I lied

I've built a Bridge
All of my strength  can not cross over.
I stand at the edge
The end of a road I have followed
Sinking!
From the weight of my own world
Wanting!
The waves of your ways to wash  my feet.

Healing water
Healing water
Solace flows
Through the river of forgiveness to my soul
Oh, I need you
Healing Water


Pour over me
Water to clean all my intentions.
Baptizing stream
I swim in the freedom of redemption.
Floating on the sea of purity.
Knowing i can dive in the love that rescues me.

I’m not afraid to go down the road …where we go I don’t know..
Walk this empty soul until I’m cold ….I don’t know.

Let's be honest
I'll be honest..can I be?
My life *****...literally.
If it wasn't for A Son of God I couldn't be..one
It took something to make something
But I feel like I'm nothing and you still say I'll go for nothing?
Wow why am I sounding like one if those crazy Christian type people ?
Maybe because I'm ready to lay this sin of mine down
Cause I'm down
But you say to lift this nothing selfish man up?
Oh God help me guide me to be the man you wanna see one day face to face ..
Cause honestly I believe that's heaven to me.

Tonight I had to make two coffins
Okie so listen to this ...
Mathew left ... The Virgo ...yea but he blames me for all the problems we made.
And Nathan came back ... The Capricorn .... Yea I know and he only wanna be firends.
But Mr. Cap called Mr. Virgo and Mr. Cancer is in the middle looking on the outside like...
How do they both not like me ?
Then I thought and I was being honest dude like ... Yeah I did do that yeah I did make those mistakes but I stayed loyal to both ... Wait huh ? Ohhh.. yeah I get you hold on im  getting ahead of  my self .

I was with mr.virgo I been knowing him since he was 16 but we went out when he was 20 because he called me saying am I okay? And I was like why is he calling and yada yada yada now this is where Mr. Cap comes in.
I was with him *** Virgo never told me we were together until I lived with him ..... Yea! Right .... Oki Oki but here is the kicker.
Me and Virgo haven't been together for 3 months cause we fought alot.... But out of no where we are done . But he text me saying **** u and **** him I'm like WHOOOOO???
AND GUESS WHO IT IS ?
**** ASSS MR.CAPRICORN
SOOOO I text Virgo like I'm not him idk why he tryin to find me... Noooooooo that made him more mad at me and anything that we had was now shattered beyond prepare
And Im not going to lie I loved Mr Capricorn *** he kept coming back in the relationship being a gnetlemen but it was toxic .... FAST FORWARD TO FINISH THIS.
NOW
both are mad at me Virgo said I don't care what u say u want him and u ****** me over. But my poem brothers & sisters Im telling I loved him with the last of everything i told cap to move back I'm in something.

Now that I'm out cap wants to be firends but wait wait wait ....you were just trying to get back together and now that I'm like okay what are we doing he hugs me u comes a hour away for me and now he says I just wnana be firends !!?¿?????? *** IS HAPPENING TO MY LIFE .
Soooo I had to block both and truth be told I want mr Virgo back but i don't break him more and wen I loook at the Capricorn I want him to just pick a side if u gunna love me love me only but ....now .... U think I'm over them I'm just now gstting over it yet who got tears in there eyes ? Not me I just wish I was a better lover .... You know ....I .... Need help someoem to talk me .... Someone... Idk who to talk to but why did I have to block them like ....

What If we don’t
What if we did
I’m tired of overthinking such inconvenience…
I want you by my side with a couple of kids
Show me that I’m not the world while we fly across the grid
You are on the other side of the world and yet you have found a place in my heart
Mr.Capricorn found the warmest hands to lay upon
Not telling you you’re perfect but if I don’t I wouldn’t understand your confidence
And making you mad wouldn’t feel so good without telling you in the same breath you come first.
Why do you have a hold of me so much like I’m thinking about you crazy
If there was someone in this world that was trying to love yo for real….
You found me

Here i am..
Knees weak,
Eyes steady..
Drifting thoughts my my mind let's me.
Heart consumed..
Soul heavy..
While my spirit keeps praying I'm still connected to the unseen world as it's voice leaks like music playing gently.

Feels like I lost a lot but I'm found all of what's worthy.

The sinful things  from the sweet and ugly
IM ASHAMED OF ALL MY SOMETHINGS.

He still glad cause he wakes up in the morning ...to be honest that's the reason I smile in the morning.

Take me back and place me as your sibling, for there I was someone something even a memory

Here i am.. Forgive me for what my human doing, create in me a pure heart for with you God you know I am your human being.

Waking up to the hero and the villian.
I went to sleep with the hero and the villian.
The spirit I got the healin,
My mind reminds me I'm not different
Cause I was born with the same sickness.
Heros never die only for a good cause,
But it hurts to know I'm the one that's gunna set his trap up....I'm tripping.
But the Good in me is gunna be the one that's going to Win...losers ain't winners and heros always win.

Do great things like greater
So thin like a paper
Cut in like a line
And stick to me like a staple
No one seen your ankles
No one knows you like me
Boys don’t suppose to cuddle
And yet our eyes are cables
Channeling things that are enabled
i knew she was for a show to the world when you told me you were with her ...
Her first name should be fable

Thinking about the flight I can let it go reaching to the top and every step is gonna be the worst fall.

Take me high
Take me higher
Yes I know
The higher you go
The people worship you
And God is brighter
You talk to him who is not
And you see what you are
Higher then who I been
Higher then where I've been
High that I can't feel it
The agony of not having this
Just to let them know **** couldn't do this and *** is in another position
Birds can't breath up here
As I think about my life
I wanna go higher then who I been.

My mind goes back and forth with "oh and okay I get it".

Your smile punches the inmost until your jokes come pleasant.

It's not a lot of joy but in these days it only takes a second.

To sit and  wait for persons story or his obligation.

I step easy
my hearts sits
Just to hear you breathing,
I lay down
By your side
My  thoughts are so decieveing.
I saw your smile
You turned around
..dang you caught me dreaming.

it’s Voodoo I tell ya it’s the Illuminati it’s supernatural it’s vivid how the way I am Human...
And if I have something diffferent then somebody then I’m demonic  he’s in the matrix.society these days

Ocean full of thoughts
There’s Mountain full of mistakes in my heart
But loving you I was doing my job
Right threw wrong I was there from the start
But who’s with me threw the end?
My dad told me you watch and care for those but what about him?
The man in the mirror and once again he lower his glory for imperfect man
Never...
Never... again we can’t say never so I will say I’m feeding him healing just to know not all have you’re good intentions
I miss you yes but you missed him
I’m gone

Oh For Goodness Sake !
He wants your body taped and placed in magazines..
He likes your wink and wants your hands all in his Jeans...
He watched you **** you can't say sh* cause you know it will be a scene..!

I'm not going to let him do it !
I won't let him do it!
I can lock him up in a dungeon
I can chain him with himself
But don't  worry I'll **** him With
"I love you, I'm not the same person he wanted me to be to you.

When I love to love it seems like people stay back,
Mind been tripping over silly wishes I think I broke my back.
That's why things are to hard to carry in these hours that we suffered threw the past.
It's not that better when desires drown in lustful damped rags.
I need help oh I need help even my hobby dripping like wax..
..bored of shooting bored of moving to a place that faces don't stay to laugh,
Brother where are you?
Still my new friends is my mom and dad,
Nothing wrong nothing wrong  my love I thank you for all of that.
Someone need me someone loves me enough so my love I'll hold fast.
For those that come and for those who will come back.

Pressing in closer the ones that are farther is getting harder to Save my Father.
Oh I tried and tried if I said I'm right I lied
Suffering from obedience is hard and I don't understand it,
Suffering from obedience is so easy but for some reason I don't want it.
Relentlessly giving embracing Forgiveness like it is Me.

Talks with my dad are still frozen,
Walked in the house like I’m nothing.
He thought this faze was a faze
Until someone’s son showed his face.

Losing my time from all this working,
Even my friends say you got to be joking..
Popping when nobody sees
Avoiding my house just to keep the peace
And yet I’m being tossed to the dawgs
Torn by piece by piece
But when I’m with you

With just your smile I feel at ease
By your side I stop to breath
And you hiding your phone is not scarying me
To be honest I’m use to being played like I’m dumb
But for you I will play stupid even when I can see
Cause soon enough someone will notice
I’m trying.

In the city of Beautiful faces
They’re cry is hallow at night
Crying for nothing but love but never giving it time
Switch body parts except the heart of life
Getting drunk but not drinks on there on likes
I’m not going to fight the next man that you like for you just to record someone I’m not.
i rather talk to the mirror and Yell at the night....
Oh no who have I become
Not giving the lovers a chance in my life
This day I will declare I’ll go to war for the one who will save me from my own knife

I can feel the water all around my head
Around my head
I can feel the waves all around my neck.
And as I hold my hand out
As I try my last now
I can feel my heart now
In the land of opportunity and cute faces
They watch as I float down
I have made this sadness my home
I have made this tragedy my own
This new place where I can’t breath I have turned it into song
Let the waves crash over me and the loneliness take control
For I know I tried here and now I’m gone.

Laying here trying to rewrite my wrongs..
A ticket from the police no job and no schooling at all.
Life happens when you try to reach your goal.
I'm broken and I've fallen my Love.
Yet I find the strength to come and weep by your words of God.
Don't know how I supose to pay something that I don't even have a job yet though..
**** pics still come and I close them cause I want something better though..
Resurrection is my favorite song,
Who would of known it would be the outcome of every part of my unworthy life to.
I don't know how and I don't know when but I sense the strength to get up and take there cruel words there beatings just love The Most.

Forgive me for wondering so far and falling so close, all of my getting I'm getting a understanding that you can be a better person today for tomorrow.

I was looking for a Superman until I found out I’m him.
But all this flying is nothing when you can’t save those from hells den.
Where I’m at is where I’ve been.
Stuck under the covers and entangled in a bliss

Have I created my Fate?
A destiny without  you is truly nothing...
Is there a war Without pain?
No, So I truly believe In Loving..
What is the Weight Of Glory?
Is There a Man who can bench the ways of his Life in the Deeds he has done Good, Bad and the Ugly?

Every night I feel the weight of What I done cause i search my heart.
Every  morning Seems Like a New beginning even though I'm Undeserving to my thoughts.
What is Hell to The holy nothing but a place that you warn people about so they can know it's another place to go.
What is Heaven to a atheist  nothing but Mere Image of a state of mind or somewhere I really don't know.

I was that atheist and I was the Holy it's just better to know that I didn't make the sky and under it I'm not the only...

There eyes piece me, and there words are swords.
There Fingers still tease me..
As i hold my mind, tears just won't come.
No..No I'm stronger then that,
but all the time i look back
I got ***** by my tries,
My second guess was sodimized.