I'm waiting for the day you hold me in your arms
As I cry on your shoulder it was years to make you mine.
It took a glance to make me fly
I never been on airplane but I'll meet you when this thing lands.
Hope we believing in the same thing.
Your the reason for the reasons if I count them I only needed one.
I...came all this way just to say
Just to say ......
Hi.

I sit to wait for the sunset to lay down with me, chasing people for years I learned that if I say "Tag your it" and I run my hardest I look aback to see that  nobody is chasing me. So I was young now I'm old I see that this hurts the inmost of me, so I look up sit down and stair at the sun until the sunset comes so it can lay down with me.
Nothing really makes me smile no more,
Nothing brings me to tears either not even the sound of "please"?
I said that so long to those that stop looking for me... Heck I even stopped looking at the signs of where I'm going.
As I sit and look at another sunset I lay down and close my eyes a tear falls for the first time... Don't worry tear I saw someone building a place on the sun .....the worlds goodbye is slowly getting almost easy.

Funny if I  leave today I wonder if you will let me go!
I wanna stay and hold you like we use to but it's hard you know,
Cause once upon a time you was my everything
Far away from home I'm thinking should I stay..?
You left me now I question what did I do so wrong"!

If there's a way God if there's a way
If there a place God where me and him can talk fr can you take my soul ?

This is killing me
Suffocating

Content with the curtain that’s blocking the light
There’s no fear I’m numb at the end of the night
Hand full of money  dummies think that’s all that cares
How many times have I failed, tales of a good guy making the others prevail
Tipping the scale Loving is better then wealth
Cause I sit by myself waiting for someone to help
I profit Like coins and change like autumn to leaves
My mind is to think like blood in my veins is to deep
What I mean is ....I was broke when I was with you and you loved me
But when I had money you hated me and thought I changed.
I didn’t change and yet I’m stuck here alone in this bed
Putting curtains up but the light will prevail
So if you really love somebody then whatever they do you always will ...
I always have ...
Always will ..

Truth cries as I lie
I lay down with the fantasy taking control of my life
I don't stop to look up for you no I,
Keep going further in my head where the stinch of fairytales buzz in my bed
How I love when there dead.
Then I can go to sleep in my bed
Without the dreams and this mess,
I hope this sleep be the end and I wake up to your fence
White pearly gates as the open
I'm looking now in amazement

Not gunna think
Just gunna write
…right …or left
See how the government treat us
Kinda looks like man in the mirror..
Always saying you’re gunna do something about it but look how weak you are.
Have I gone to far
They don’t want God just  a charge
I need God and perfected spark
Light me
Help me
Save me
For they
Kept me
Broke me
***** me

And even now the sin that so easily besets me take it from me and I pray for America Lord.
Amen

All my life it's been a struggle,
Just to give up things that lead to destruction.

Been working on my brain,
Cause that night when I touched you
My lips became a flame but over the years i found the water.

I search by any means that means my life's corrupted not talking bout the fall I'm talking bout the Moutain...I walk when I can't speak I run when I can't hear I slow down for week just to feel my heart thumpin.
Sorry if I breath just making sure if I'm still alive.

Dug to deep in the world what I found is people fighting over pennies.
Demonic forces there plenty.
One God but religions oh there's many.
Forgiveness comes when you know your wrong.
Love is love, hate is known.
Pull the plug my heart is froze.
Zombie wars they made us though.
So when truth speaks all we do is choke.
Messing with lies leave your life feeling dead so..
The media walks right into the home
Take your time and steal your soul.
Most of them won't make it oh!
Cause they caught up in what other people think about them while the name Jesus is being said slow and the devil sits just to make him self known..

Don't believe every word that I write,
Just look at them carefully and think about life.

Am I wrong?

I will change for you,
Oh my God i just can't help it.
Staring at you.
Fireworks and mini rockets
burst when i touched your hand..
Oh My God i almost Lost it.
I looked up to the Great I AM..and Said.
My wife her smile someday My God am i her equal?
I'm a problem for myself,
Sometimes i think of you and melt and then i think man oh man i'ma mess.
i just wish
i just wish
for someone to come and knock me off my feet.
Easy to say when your women, but hard when your Man.
I wanna lay down play with her
Read and pray and maybe burst
into the tears make a hard day look simple when she touch.
and we ain't getting younger..
and I'm not getting younger..

They say God is on his way
Oh the big theory that's in the sky?

Who cares though but who's Adonai?
Still I get a check that I'm not doing fine..
If your really then show me now.
You know my pills are not working now.
I smoked 4 times and I liked the high
But I don't like to Hide ima blatant guy they can see that I'm all my writes.

But what right do I have to come and see you Christ?

I know Shivia and other Types
Greek Gods and Zeus wife
But why do this one stick to me?
Maybe cause all of them are blatant
And you don't Hide but there's radiant
And when you save a Man you died for him..
What other God that I know that did?
I needed that
When you come come I'll be waiting

Come on everybody sit down
People wanna act like they are in the know. Well I'm here to wipe off your smile and tell you what's the word around town
I know you don't wanna hear the truth
I know you hate the fact that I actually have the proof.. But I just need you to believe I'm talking ...the Good, the bad, the Ugly.

I've been gone but some how I'm still here
More something's that's worst then last year
Getting older and I got things to pay
Like that ticket for speeding ...sorry I got caught up in my ways racing feeling drunk and I lost a friend and somehow gain a date that don't even know what we are wait.. Is it me or you that's not thinking straight ? Being in Love is great says the guy that's alone and need that person to capture him from the pain, around town is a lot of secrets that I'm willing to change sweep up and burn away if only I can have you as my friend today.

Come on everybody sit down
People wanna act like they are in the know.

Once upon a time there was a Veteran spoke in paint lost his love threw the traces in his brain, memories of her flows threw the canvas stains as he ponders the weight of holding her my love sits beside me wanting the same flame as both of us go threw the fire it hanging on by a oxygen tank or by a wire we sit here like 2 drawings matched made.

Body shaking eyes focus
Blood pumping I don't think he knows it
Open legs my mind hasn't even notice.
He smiles how am I not frozen?
Looking  upon his lips Breaks my focus
The back of my head saves me with "don't even if he wants it".
A Careless "why"?  circles my circumference..
What's Guarding my hands from touching his conscience?!
A sweet Promise to never touch a shaft again.
Yes there I said it!
Years of being enslaved by a shattered heart.
Alone at night tossing and turning on old parts.
There I was **** by own thoughts...

Antifreeze in the middle of winter,
I keep running in all of my  pictures
Say they love me but my dreams are different
Getting dark!
Getting dark!
Getting darker then what I remember…
Sending threats and couple splinters
pick the cross instead of the finisher
Getting dark!
Getting dark!
Getting darker then what I remember
Oh my lord come save me from myself!
Plotting on me to fall down on myself!
And if I say the truth theirs no real help
If I  Say all the truth theres no real help
They loved me when I wasn’t my self !
Oh My Lord come save me from myself !
Oh my lord come save me from myself!
If I say say the truth here comes the belt …
If I say the truth here come no help
If I say truth your mother wept
Lord I spoke the truth and yet they step
Getting dark
Getting darker
Man it’s dark

Here I am dripping like Good rain or Fine wax
legs leak I can't stand tempting no car crash I wrecked and I seen cars pass videos and ambulance I'm still awake?
I felt my heart beat my heart speaks and bi pass it lack what spirits lack Bones and a body packs...I'm not talking about a car I'm not talking about a crash I'm just showing you I it feels to be in Love with what you that's bad.

I only have love for you anything else is my own destruction.
To tell you the truth but you never get it it's like I can't function
My souls hot cause I've touched ****** and licked more then I wanted..
I just want to be pure again where my Love was only hundred.
But I blew it literally and now I'm Duncan.
If you get that refrence I'm appalled by myself but I like it.

I love you more then life and I'm still breathin

Top won't leave me alone,
Needles and potron.

Top won't leave me alone,
Those girls blow up my phone.

Top won't leave me alone,
I'm thinking all day along

Up hear it's just to cold,
I need you oh my soul.

I row
I row
I row
I row upon these thoughts
I row
I row
I row
I pour another cup.

I don’t know any more I just don’t.
I sit in silence when I pray so is it praying..?
I look up with disgust like I know this is not what u wanted from me and even my best behavior is as a ***** cloth.

My misdeeds oh my grief everything I can’t hold physically weighs me down from my helplessness I keep doing...there not a pretty sight to see but like the mirror after a hot bath it seems as I open the door and remeber there’s another room the cold A/C comes and let’s me see the mess I made and the reflection is the same but I know where I’ve been. I hang my head , raise my hands and ask for forgiveness if you’re  real and you love how they say you do I need it abba and the strength to get threw this. Amen

I want you bad.

I want you bad
Naughty not nice.
Kissing your nose while you giggle inside.
I want you bad
**** Naked by my side
Waking up with your hands in places where it's very hard to think twice.
I want you bad deep intimate thoughts away
I wonder if you would ride,
Even though your a small piece It's still a handful when you wag that tale.
Lollipop .... The cheesecake kind..I wana see how much wip cream will come out this time.
I want you bad!
Grab a hold of mine,
Yank it pull it look at me when you hold me tight
...this ***** cause I'm so blatant..most won't ever talk about this but I'm the freak of nature.
Yeah point the fingers, I'll be the one on my knees praying to God that he will take all these

Demons are at the door
My secrets drips from the door of my cracks.
Even my words have slipped from the mess.
My thoughts are making me seasick and yet the Love you show me is still faithfully decent.
And so I lock my door and clean the mess I know it now I see what's best for me...
Sit here talking to you threw the  window. My eyes are not yet strong enough to behold such love I'm greatful you made a heart.
While my world is falling apart I sit here to watch the most greatest love of all

This day your either caught up in Baal, Baphomet or Bethel.

Since I was a kid they was trying to trip me in a fairytale..
Dragons are Good and alittle magic won't ****.
So far from the truth but some say who's gunna make these scars go away... Well tell me where did the scars come from?
Cause we know evil is bad and good is the truth!
If your caught in a lie dosent that mean that God told you?
Certainly not!
It came from baphomets mouth, so why are listening to liars mouth?
Dragons are real and so are unicorns
But dragons destroy and it takes a sword and one man to overcome him..
Maybe it's me?
Maybe it's you?
I just wanted to show you Baal is what we create for fantasies and selfish ways.
Baphomet is the Devil who lies right in your face.
Bethel is a holy place that keeps truth as it's king and good as it's God.

Wake up!!! For one day we will be on one side or the other...

It's hard to tell the truth and love someone who dosent know Good, but it's easy to fall and give up for a lie and at the end never notice that lies were getting life from you.

Forgive me.

We was good on the weekend...right?
You said you love me when I hugged you tight..
Still I don't get what's eating you tonight, you're not texting like you texted me
Man I wish I was your thoughts I think of things that just be wondering about me like..
We was good on the weekend...right?
Maybe I should of never said that speech that night,
I kissed you on your cheek and that was the second day we probably hanged out tonight
Back on earth for right now your the only one that's in my world I'm think of...are you alright?

Lock myself in the music.
Hope my fears can't see this.
Man my mind so clueless!
When It comes to this I'm Dangerous...

...is it Bad that...
I lost the key,
I love this  place,
I eat my dreams.

I know the top is the bottom
And the bottom is the top.

To stop my legs from wondering,
I cut some old routs off my block.

Just to get threw the thundering,
I played with twinks in woodstock.

But now  is it Bad that this is why i keep the door locked?

Oh my bad I just can't help it.

Loving you is a bad habit.

Dangle in lust
Your hands are touching my trust
Da'vince and Mona Lisa couldn't trace out or love
It's too big to fit in like a ****** with him.
Nakedly finding out the Coast to your waist
When it  pours then it rain.
I'm soaked in vain
We both switch lanes
I don't know if I'm winning this race
Hate to be away from you but I'm loving this pain.
If you were me would you tell your mom I just had *** with a man who was older then me?

Run Like it's Coming
Run Cause it's Coming ya..
Run For the Purpose
Run to the purpose Ya..

Shy shy shy shy shy
But it’s all mine all mine
Why oh Why oh why

This such foolery
You give me what I need
Time and attention please
Babe you please
But you right
Just for the night
Just when you’re down
I know I’m not your type

Okay my bad
Can we move ahead?
I wanna know where are you going..?
Don't take what's left
Lay on my chest
You took my breath but how did you notice..?

Smile like glass
Eyes so deep
I fall in love what reflects me
Pride is bad
I run for safety
Humble myself I finally found my calling.

Is that best friend place still vacant?
I understand your connection, are we standing still or runnin?
Don't get me... Your question just flirts with me
And my answer is my past giggling.

You can't sob over spilled milk,
I guess I'm just in the process of cleaning things up... Forgive me

I heard Bethany spreading rumors...
That i was a FBI undercover person.
Bethany use to sneak in the moments
When I was in the moment.
Before the secrets walked
And my heart became frozen...
The head hancho the skeleton of inhumanism
Perception of Bethany was never impersonation
It was closed caption and keep walking
The plan was never to engage a full conversation..never to get lost in your eyes and see what was under your these loose buttons..

Kisses like fragrance they leave a scent on my cheek
For hours and Hours our words expires until our hearts intimately speak
It's a Good Night when I know your Falling back in love with me.

My eyes have seen wonders
Walk threw my room.

I wake up with the cruss in my eye
And a *****...I'm just telling the truth.

Born in sin and I've seen the demons behind it!

White man,  oral, I was sixteen....after that we had ice-cream the flavor...chocolate.

Born again and I've seen the angel infront of me!

Gay, bi, straight don't even wanna talk to me, cause I tryed to be in there little cliques, party's, lifestyles and just to find out!

...to freaking find out!

I'm stuck in a place where I'm waiting for eternity and I'm to high for grass and I'm to low for clouds.

I'm not just existing like the rest of men,
I'm transcending to a eternity REALM!!









And the greatest thing about is I love it

Creating a world that haven’t Been made
Perhaps nothing is made
Made...what Is?
What is this feeling
What are these tears for?
Why do I smile?
Maybe I’m asking the wrong questions
How?
How do you make me sad
How do you make me smile?
How did you slip threw the corners of mind?
Just how !
And you do it over and over again
Now ...I can’t stop myself from thinking of your smile
Again and again !

I am your peace of mind
Fight for what you made yourself
Believe
Tell me what you find ?
Will you cross the line to
Sabotage me?

Didn’t you know I was waiting on you
Waiting on a dream that will never come true
Didn’t you know I was waiting on you
My face turn to stone when I heard the news
When you decide to break the rules
Cause I just heard some real bad news

Told me you will come back for me
But you came back with you know who
And now I’m falling with a thump on the ground he constantly kicks me while I’m down
Saying things like “look at you now”
How could you let him text me like he’s been around
Like he knows how I held you down
Like he knows how I lifted you up
Like he knows how you let me down
And with a thump on the ground
And a kick in the face I bleed out my religion now
Our traditions ...
Our love...
I can’t ...
I can’t feel nothing now...

Do you see elephants?
Whatever you do don't think about elephants!
Sense were talking about them, can I speak to the ones that's in the room?
Don't talk about this cause it might become true..
What's new under the sun but mens faces to society?
Where am I going with this?
Your asking to many questions...
Stop looking out of the curtains
Stay inside the prescriptions
For if you pop Molly you will never have to think about life lessons.
Wait...did you see the elephants?
No...
I'm finding out there in my head again

Can we last threw the winter?
My heart is starting to freeze
Will I last threw the winter?
My hands are starting to shake.
I'm hungry for your laughter,
My mind is trying to think
The thoughts of you are rotting
It's so old it stinks.
I crack a smile for assumptions
The years I know there like blinks..
But will we last for the winter?
Are you here to ..thinking of who we use to be?

Can we last threw the winter?

I guess I'm just better off alone,
Let's just let's just act like you know what hurts me what hurts me?
I don't know cause my hands cold when I do that that thing you hate
Am I stupid foolish and ignorant
Taste and see what makes you great
Is better then a life worth living.
And so I sit here in my room feeling Lonley for no reason I know what I need to do I know what I need to give.

Man things been changing like the seasons, one minute I'm watching to see next minute I'm stuck thinking who do you want me to be. Like blood the window is covered with red sheets up at night the light escapes the sides of this mysterious beast the window shows me a lot my eyes are glued like my feet sweeping all the thoughts on the floor so I have room for my dreams to one day escape where I am or maybe leave who I am...minutes go by and I'm watchful of the day where I can stand out of my pride.

I'm in my deepest parts of my mind,
For 20 years I have seen foot prints broken thoughts that die.
Follow your dreams they say but if we were doing that what about the nightmares of the brain?
See A thought just broke again..
Picking up the pieces in a day-dream
I look for lust like a smokers offspring.
I know it's bad for me to "smoke" but when I put it down the world stresses me out and I go back to the relaxation of coughing.
If that makes sense
I'm addicted to having a bad habit to love,
And your heart gets broken all you want is to light up a good ol "lusting"
Knowing that it's temporary so is *******,
But I won't stop I need to love for I need loving!
Rehab is the only choice I'm breaking thoughts if I'm not I'm "smoking".
God ..
Help..
Me..

Out in a bout picking up my mom some sweets.
As I walked by I saw you before I'm just glad you notice me.
My smile was bigger then the  butterflies in my stomach.
My desires are changing
My mind is flipping
I just want someone to hold me
I just want you to talk to me
You came to the front just to see me
I came to the store just to follow you
Why are we playing tag in a place where...dame! your so funny..
When you looked at me I almost dripped on the floor.

Next time we talk I don't wanna just talk, I wanna Trust.
Next time I come I wanna come getting you...and next time you smile I want it to be because you saw me come threw.

Blues eyes!
With your blue eyes..
Oh blue eyes I think I have a crush on you.

We laughed
We ate
Never seen the Hate that you made.

You cryed
I stayed
Never thought your bullet would come so close to face.

You are the only one to pass so easily threw my Armour, the man in the  mirror is the worst to be my parnter

Time my time for you...
I’ll stop the world just for the seconds with you.
Oh my bad  I just can’t help it
Your love got me so selfish.
I just want you not second guessin.
Man this going to hurt but Dont regret it.
It’s not me it’s you,  you said it!
Okay I love you But let’s not sweat it

I might break the bank
I might open the safe
Just to show you weight
Just to let you know
Just to let you see
You’re more then a paycheck to me
Funny how you go and get your nails done
Smiling but it’s odd how you do the most
No I’m not mad but it’s weird how your insecurity like to boast

I'm playing a part in a new body,
Not saying I dont need somebody.
I'm saying it's getting easier to trust into nobody.
Prove me wrong..I'm waiting for someone to not treat me like anybody.
But that special body..

Have you ever stared at something but was thinking another thing and whatever you were thinking didn’t match up to what you were starring at ?

Have you ever played with your thumb and your smartest thought became dumb cause you asked “ why do I need thumbs then picked up your drink and was like ...huh...oh hmm

Have you ever looked in the mirror and wanted to be a better  but you heard that you were a masterpiece cause you’re the only species that can speak.

My point is ...I’m not pointing
Well ... now I am cause I was thinking of something....
**looks at thumbs ..drinks and walks off stage

Roses are red violets are blue
Daisies are yellow but if I pick them I’m a fool
You will die and wither, like fades to clippers
Cut me deep now I wear scars like slippers.

I beg to differ blow my head like some swishers
Took a bar like snickers, I’m sorry for metaphors and these fake *** *******!
I’m not racist but I dive deep like fishers when it comes to the hook of my heart ...so **** being always apart.
Can we fight like a married couple and make up like maybaline.

...

I am nothing but sand in the wind,
people talk but I forget what they said someone once said ...
**** I forgot ...
****...
what were we talking about

Taste and see the wonders of my brain,
Sip the knowledge of another
You rather make love on a full moon I rather make love threw the thunder.

Where the rain have a sound and your body drips of Mother Nature.
Can we make love like lovers?
Where every inch touches your canvas of wonders..
Paint every inch erected like spring in me But drips like the heated summer.
I know you want me to be dripping Iike rain
You know I can bring the thunder.
Tell me....we’re lovers
Tell me....your pleasures
Tell me ... you will never leave and want me to hold u close like filthy endeavors

Even tho we’re in the shower I look deep in your eyes and can’t help but to smile..
Cause I pictured us kissing in the rain right under the thunder for awhile.

Leafs are borrowed and branches are cut down the roots is deep but every rain drop finds it's ground