Cracked skull,
Broken bones,
Dead man,
Gone home.

Died here,
Never cared,
Sinned for pleasure,
Somewhere.

Had no one,
Died alone,
Dead man,
No one home.

Not a clue,
Who he was,
No one cared,
He was on drugs.

Empty life,
Where did he go?
Left this place,
So he could roam.

Dug his grave,
At sunrise,
Beautiful day,
No one cried.

If I could have a day alone with you,
I know exactly what I'd want to do.
Take you to my dorm and show you my room.
Let you admire my half decent street view.
We'd talk for hours and laugh away the past,
Things would be new and we wouldn't really care if it would last.
We came here for the love and we'd try are best to not take it too fast.
Filling the void we'd stitch up the gap no matter how vast.
I'd put my arms around you again,
Hold you tight to me my old close friend.
Not really sure what kind of signals you'd want to send.
I'd smile that big smile, I knew we didn't break up it was just a bend.
Sit you down on my bed I swear you aren't being used.
Wouldn't believe that we've returned after being set loose.
Now though, we would be there home together in our roost.
A spark in the fire would erupt, "Want to listen to some Muse?"

Give me a reason,
To follow you to nowhere.
Find me an excuse,
To even begin to care.
You can right me off as problem,
But I'll always linger somewhere.
A discarded memory,
Life in absence of air.

Try to hold me close,
Know that I will have my escape.
Smile about it now,
Cause you know soon it'll be too late.
Avoiding the ordinary,
Seeming to follow your desolate fate.
Thinking of everything that relates to nothing,
Tiptoeing through cracked gates.

Running from you,
Seems to be all too real.
Breaking away,
From the golden deal.
Ruined your life and tainted your soul,
Still wanting to see how I make you feel.
Holding my collection of jars filled with air,
My newfound addiction is loving what I steal.

Here I vanish never to come back,
Waiting for the counterattack.

All I need,
In this world,
Is peace of mind.
Peace for,
My piece of mind.
Don't really need,
Anyone at all.
Unless that someone,
Is oxygen,
Some food,
Water,
All of the above.
Who needs,
More pieces,
To the puzzle?
This one,
Looks fine,
Doesn't it?
It's a weird shape,
The shape,
Only one,
Could fit in with.
But who needs it!?
Not me.
I have my,
Perfection.
Anything imperfect,
I can now say,
Is perfect,
In it's own way.
That's why,
I am perfect.
Simply because,
I am no where close.
All I need,
In this world,
Is peace of mind.
Peace for,
My piece of mind.
Don't worry,
I'm fine.

Had a plan,
But that turned to sand.
Everything was in order,
Then out of the blue you crossed the border.

The border to my heart,
Where you shot your own darts.
Said that you had feelings for me,
Mostly based on what you have seen.

Asked if I am talking to anyone,
The talk of getting together with someone.
I said no although,
I did want some other girl so.

But does she like me back,
That question I am scared to attack.
Asking could destroy us,
Or maybe it will remove our rust.

But this girl who likes me,
A sure thing it could be.
I must really like the other,
If my mind won't take my lover.

I want her.
She wants me.
Does her want I?
Will I hurt she?

I seek a place to stay,
Where my heart can play.
Escaping the deadly rays,
That shoot for me everyday.

Won't you come laugh with me?
For a little, or maybe an eternity?
Let's see what we can be,
Just open up my eyes so I may see.

I want someone new,
Or perhaps a re-new.
Of someone I can't say I knew,
From that eventful afternoon.

Maybe a new face,
Unknown to my disgrace,
Of running away from that place,
But better to escape then to die suffocating slowly trapped in space.

Someone,
Please,
Appease,
Me.

Must find her.

Why are you here,
Haunting my mind?
Leave me spinning like a tornado,
As you hum your rhymes.

Memories flash back,
Unlike the phone which we were captured in.
Smiling holding each other,
Two on the bed, two in the closet, we all could have been kin.

My mind and my heart,
They fight to tie.
Neither can hope to win,
But the loser is always I.

Surfacing to my thoughts,
Like a beast rises from water.
She taunts me with sweet dreams,
Deceives like a daughter.  

Dreams of the future,
Nightmares of the past.
Still don't crush my hopes,
That might have you at last.

Questions fall from the sky,
All I can do scream.
The sky, the sky, is falling!
Chicken Little, I now know what you mean!  

Why can't you face me woman?
Tell me to my face,
That I am the worst of people,
Inform me of my disgrace!

When I see you,
I pretend not to give a ****.
Why should I even bother,
To show you who I am.

Plague plague, go away,
My mind does not enjoy your stay.
Spreads like fire,
Burns at a high rates.
I need to stop loving those who I should hate.

There's an odd boy,
He stares into the glass.
You can see the longing in his eyes,
His whole body in a cast.
Marked up,
By all the ones he loved.
Saying get well,
"You won't be broke for long."

He knows he isn't broke,
But he still stares through the glass.
Trapped in his own cast,
Comforting him at last.

Love?
Thought I felt it yet it fled away.
I question it now.
What do I love?
I love my family,
I love my friends.
But what of that other love?
The fairy tale one which I believe I've never partaken in.
But when I hold you,
You say "love me".
I give you the biggest squeeze and agree.
All the love I need is in your arms,
Your laugh,
Your smile,
I may not be "in love" but I feel closer than ever before.
I love that kinda love.

I have her trust.
Shouldn't that be enough?
She has giving me what I want,
But it is a taunt.
If I take it I will break it,
And lose her heart.

I am in control.
I always seem to be.
That is why,
I allow,
Others to think,
They control me.

You make me your safety net,
As you cut me up.
Making me,
Feel so good,
But do more then smile,
I am forcing you to stop.

Trust me.

An easy bet to win,
Is to side with the decay of time.

I know you'll melt away,
But the clock is equally harsh to me.

For it makes me wait,
Day by weeks by months.

Till the day I collect my winnings,
The day you crumble beneath the clock.

Tick tock,
Decay away.
Sad to see it's right more than twice a day,
Cause we all fade away.

Waiting,
So patient,
Mind,
Complacent,
Wondering,
If I,
Should get,
The ball.

Threw it,
Down court,
For it,
Had burnt,
My hands.
They,
Held on,
Too long.

Where is,
The pass?
I,
Threw it last.
Why aren't you,
There,
Throwing back,
Our ball?

Can you,
Not share,
Or,
Don't you care?
Can we not,
Play,
This game,
For long?

I want,
The game to go,
So,
Don't say no.
Let's both be,
Happy,
Pass the ball back,
So we can have one.

Tasted blood again today,
Though today the taste was different,
Saw it before but this time was liquid.

Warm the blood was but to my delight,
It tasted like fruit punch.
Others stared in fright.

Cut on thin steel the blood came out,
Rushed from my finger,
Rose up like a spout.

But this High-C,
Will spread disease,
If anyone drinks it but me.

Ya it's twisted,
I know.
But I had to share this since you all missed it.

Dreams come and go as they please,
Poisoning my mind till I start to wheeze.
Placing thoughts into my head which were once naive,
These dreams scream words that bring me to my knees.

Words of love and pain,
Words of laughter and disdain.
All these words driving me insane,
Just to be woken up by the rain.

They appear and disappear,
Not wanting to stay near.
Shouting words that I fear,
My whole body begins to sear.

Then comes the one who lies,
Responded to me with a simple "Die".
This answer coupled with,
"Haha <3 I got to go now bye."

Can't believe that came from you,
Someone who I barley knew.
I question myself if I want it to be true,
But if I do,
Will my mind and heart have a coup?

When plants die,
They are stiff.

When we die,
We are loose.

They decay,
We age away.

But neither of us stay,
For the grand parade.

To see everyone else walk.

The challenge was issued,
You thought I would lose.
Well I tell you what babe,
This will make the news.

I had enough with the sadness,
And the madness too.
So pick up your phone!
Because I am leaving you.

Can't believe it came to this,
What have we become?
Why keep pushing me away,
Why are you so numb?

I didn't want to do this,
But you think that's a lie!
Why did I leave you?
SO I COULD BE ALIVE.

Two headed snake,
Different venoms.
One will bite the other and they will both die.

Who strikes first?
Whose fangs hurts more?
Why even wonder, they'll both expire.

Patterns on them,
Change and clash,
But I predict the older half is the wickeder of the two.

Strike down the young,
Shed away the dead weight.
A deserted bag of hollow skin awaits a new tenet.

What a story to be,
To return to an old husk,
Make myself home again and settle before dusk.

Standing still,
Somewhere in time,
When the urge comes over me,
To roll over and die.

Viewing the happenings,
Of all who are around,
Everyone looking so pleased,
Mind safe and sound.

A hollow coffin waits,
For it's first and last embrace,
Greet my new friend with open arms,
Can't wedge between our space.

I hold my friend close,
And it never lets go.
Now I am loved,
My new home.

A car passes by,
And a thought escapes my head,
I could die right now,
If I jumped out of my bed.

Look at me dad,
I can smile like all the others,
Nothing wrong here,
Even ask mother.

A hollow coffin waits,
For it's first and last embrace,
Greet my new friend with open arms,
Can't wedge between our space.

I hold my friend close,
And it never lets go.
Now I am loved,
My new home.

No, this friendship is complicated too,
While I am happy ten feet underground,
Friends and family cry above,
So I guess this is goodbye for now.

I'll miss you.

There's the idea,
Get up and leave.
Go on the path of your own choice.
God has got nothing to do with this,
But a hollowed voice always doubts.
I can run for miles,
Shards of glass for shoes,
Forcing me to walk my path,
Not with you but alone.
Run all I want I still need to hide.
Live with the spiders?
The monkeys?
Inside my own mind?
No much too cluttered in there.
Keep moving towards the realization,
That I will end up coming back.
A nature walk to find myself,
Only ended in my last act.

But that's okay,
The show must go on.

Racking my brains,
I lack all my past pain,
Which inspired me to write.
But I've won all my fights.
I've spent a year loving you,
With nothing in return.
Endless amounts of what ifs,
The embers you had left on me,
Began to burn.

You fed my fire with small twigs,
And I'd do anything for more.
The fire rose up but I contained it,
Didn't want it burning anyone.
But then you started throwing branches,
And then you threw logs.
You uprooted the trees,
That kept you alive,
And burned them to prolong your withdrawal.

My fire roared,
Your heart soared,
And we both knew what to do,
We uprooted you.
Diving into my fire,
We started our new little game,
Burn high, bright and forever,
Become an eternal flame.
And we burned.

We burned all people who had doubt,
We burned anything that got in our way.
We laughed at the thought of anyone else,
No one can douse our flame.
You've forged me with your intense yearning,
We showed to the world our burning.
Our flame isn't going out,
And for all I care let there be a drought.
You are the only thing I need.

Fire born from desire,
Love that broke the chains.
Lips that could drive a man mad,
An endless maze of a brain.
Yet she let me in,
And I'll never figure her out.
But I'm here laying with her,
Both of us covered in burns,
Still on fire with the flame that'll never go out.

I can't get what I want,
So I am stuck here with everything.
I have all a person needs,
I want you and me.

Trade away all I have,
So I can walk your path.

Stuck here,
In my own chains,
Rotting in loneliness,
Day by day.

While I miss all the good times,
I lay here with everything dieing inside.

Buried in everything,
Trapped in a chest.
Gold and precious things,
Only second best.

Believe or not I'd rather spend my days,
Up against you as we both lay.

It is a catch 22?

Than why do I always lose?
Not a 50/50,
I don't even know where I belong.

I understand what you are trying to say,
I know you can't move on.
At least now I know we aren't so equal,
I will never balance the scale.  

You blame him for being too noble?
No such thing.

I want there to be more cracks in the concrete wall.
So I can get in.
But he wins.
And I sin.
He is kin.
I want to begin.

The howling winds,
The coldest rain,
The smile on my face,
My black eyes full of pain.

Good for you two.

He wanders you know,
He doesn't know where to go.
Aimless fights gravity as he treads around,
Trying to get off the ground.

On day he found a staircase,
He fought it way to top.
Fighting the very force that protects him,
From leaving his Mother Earth.

Reached the top to find a rope,
The battle began again.
Fighting all he knew,
He pushed himself from the land.

Made it to the clouds,
And as he caught his breath,
His shadow grabbed his leg,
Brought him down with a rip.

Back in his place,
Back at his home.
The man cried uncontrollably,
And slowly died alone.

My silence,
A weapon,
Hurts,
Everyone.
People,
Always,
Ask me,
What is wrong.
But I,
Just,
Sit,
There.
My eyes,
Looking through,
My hair.
Into oblivion I stare.
My mind,
Is my company,
And I treat them,
Quite well.
All the others,
Question me,
Begging me,
To tell.
To tell what is wrong,
So that they might help me.
But what they don't know is,
In my mind I am as happy as can be.

How long do I have to wait?
How many paths do need to refuse to take?
To get to you.

When I have my destination in mind,
I always end up wasting my time.
When all in the end, I want you.

Doing too much or doing too little,
Not seeing the answers to my own riddle.
I cannot seem to scream my final answer, "you".

I am stuck going down a one way road,
Not knowing if where I am headed is actually home.
So that I may rest with you.

As I travel with thoughts rolling in my head,
I see on the side of the road all the dead.
Did they die there waiting for you?

It can't be the same but that doesn't make it worse,
If I never make it home will I ride in the hearse?
Laying there thinking of you.

Will I die on the road to you?

"I'm very happy with him, I really am."

Oh I've heard that one before,
Honestly you saying that is just foreshadowing,
The first knocks on the door.

Last time you told me that,
You left your mate in months.
Always slipping away you little rat.

Don't you find it odd,
That you don't consider him a true friend?
You and I were best ones remember, or you may have forgot.

I just think to the look in your eyes,
When we walked our separate ways.
Even if you sunk them deep your feelings can't hide.

I know you want to play.

It's done,
Over.
Everything we had,
Gone.
So how can I smile?

Maybe it's optimism,
"Faith",
That flies are always drawn to one thing,
Fire,
And my flame still burns bright enough.

Or perhaps I already have what I need,
Memories.  
You'll always be as perfect as you were then,
Changes,
Aren't so retroactive in there.

You're an interesting piece of this puzzle of,
People,
Longing to be fitted with a piece as visibly,
Colorful.
But love your next to me and I am part of the blue sky.

Our portion is what makes this puzzle,
Harmonious.
Don't force anything just let it,
Flow,
So we both have a reason to smile.

One on one,
Me and you,
Locked in a room,
Built for two.
One on one,
Let's have fun.
I crave the grave,
Where I can,
Rest my eyes.
You and me,
Trapped indifferently,
A room with no escape,
If no one hears you scream,
Is it still called ****?
The lust,
The pain,
The gain,
Innocent children,
Someone has to win.
Let us tie,
You and I.
Go crazy,
Not so lazy.
Unkempt unchained,
Our bodies stained.
Trapped in a room,
Till our doom.
One on one,
Never ending fun.

Placed into an awkward stance,
Can't see through that powerful glance.
The look in your eyes so all powering and sweet,
Yet I can not hold you till our feeling meet.

I want to spin you round and kiss you beneath the trees,
No one near by only you and me.
But I know how I feel but how do you do?
I feel so small and easy something that's new.

If I grab you will you comply,
Or would it result in an awkward goodbye?
Please grab and kiss me,
Let me know that you love me and you'll miss me.

I want to be yours and for you to be mine.
Forever? Maybe. How about a long time?
Laughing all day I can't help the thought,
We can love each other till we rot.

Ya, I do sound crazy but really I want one thing,
To spend many days with you darling and hear you sing.

No one knows anyone else.
We've barely met ourselves.
We're so young and undeveloped,
But we think we know enough.

Nobody can see the true struggle behind a smile.
And ******* if you think you got it worse.
We are have pain and little things,
That breed beneath our skin at the source.

He has been there, She had that
Guess what, you have no idea.
I bet everyone around you has felt that way.
They just don't brag about how they feel.

You can be happy and a mess all at the same time.
You can be sad but put together all your thoughts aligned.
But no one can really know how you feel,
Who can define fake, who assigns things as real?

Look at him smile, look at her laugh,
Can't you see the light in their eyes?
You don't have a ******* clue what's going on,
Alone in their separate beds they cry.

Always so confused,
Can't help to be amused.
Hope I'm not being used,
That this not all just a ruse.

I want us to go somewhere,
Where it is I don't care.
Just sit here and touch my hair,
I'll hold you close enough to wear.

Our plans are always changing,
But my mind is rearranging.
Set up the staging,
While my love is still raging.

Sleep in my arms,
Laugh at my charms,
I'll show you no harm,
Wasn't raised in a barn.

All and all I must say,
I can't wait for us to play.
To spend time with you in my day,
Would hit me with the brightest of sun rays.

Might sound cliche,
But I'd rather kiss.
Could ******* everyday,
Though it wouldn't make you not his.

We are animals,
Lusting after each other.
Can't resist the the touch of her skin,
So unlike any other.

You and me,
The idea such a tease.
Hidden with secrets,
The answers were too hard to not cheat.

A dream is where we can meet,
A garden where we can be together.
No where to go, or people to break us up,
I wish I was better...

I'm not fine,
I'm crying inside,
Lying outside,
Dieing inside.

No Dear,
I am not fine.

I have this drug that I'm on all the time.
An addiction so lethal but I feel just fine.
It's long and drawn out I know the signs.
Couldn't stop if I wanted to so I don't even try.

Doesn't matter if I'm alone or with friends.
When I inhale my thoughts seem to transcend.
All that is broken inside seems to mend.
A sigh and smile a day closer to the end.

When I feel low I walk out the back door.
Take a moment to adjust myself before I take any more.
I inhale with happiness that reaches my core.
How is everyone not on this live so sore?

My friends look at me oddly though they have vices too.
The kryptonite I take only slowly kills you.
They ask if I'm okay and offer me things that are new.
I always decline for there is only one thing I do.

Oxygen is it's name.
I breathe it every day  just the same.
I smile and laugh and enjoy life's love and pain.
If I breathe and smile a good day has been obtained.

Guess what,
You're reading this right now love.
You don't really care,
You're just curious.
Don't worry I get it.

But why are you here though,
What right do you have?
You left me broken and alone,
Yet you still hang on for my words.
Maybe I never actually left your head.

How does this make you feel?
You always liked to check on your exs.
I changed my name,
And you followed me here.
But since I have you, why not look around?

Will you dare to read a love poem,
The ones that proves that this last year was real.
All those words inspired by your promises.
Or are those thoughts amputated,
Trying to rid yourself of this disease.

What did they tell you?
That I was manipulating you do to what I want?
I did everything for you.
Let me take you back.
Think of the good times, they didn't have to end.  

Guess what I know?
I know your afraid of me.
I love that, it's so cute.
So why not play with fire some more?
After all we still have a world to burn.

I'm no good for you.
I'm not good for you.
Why keep me around,
When you know I'll **** you?

You can try to be good.
You can try to be better.
But I am in control,
Writing your death letter.

I know the lines
Lines can be erased.
You can try and try,
But you will only lick my face.

A kiss is too much,
But a blow is quite fine.
You make no sense,
Failing logic, rhythm, and rhyme.

Why be with me?
Why pretend I have a chance.
You motivate me off bridges,
Because you love the dance.  

I am your cancer,
Amputate at once.
Yes I'll hate you after,
But I think you had enough.

Let me die alone,
I think I'll be fine.
Why should I be sad to lose you,
When you were never mine?

At your side,
Rely on me.
Attack on your command,
Just tied to a tree.
Cut the rope,
Release me.
Allow myself to show you,
All that I can be.

At your side,
Lay there next to me.
Happiness reformed,
Molded from a dream.
A hope, a goal,
I shot I thought I missed.
Yet you stand there humming,
Thinking of what you did.

At your side,
Until you dismiss me with goodbye.
Telling me to leave while the adults talk,
I'll be there soon but not quick enough.
Calm shell so hollow with rage,
Screaming out my lungs in a plead to leave this cage.
My mind might think, my body might act,
But I'm relaxed at your side until you tell me to attack.

At your side,
Lied to myself to smile.
I'll leave at some point,
The door has been open for quite a while...

You know what?

I'm better because I'm crazy.
Isn't that simple to see?
You'll never get that same psychotic grin,
That you always get from me.
Remember the look in my eyes,
The blood and the tears?
All those ****** up times,
We've shared throughout the years?
Those violent encounters,
With our other sides.
Pinned you to the bed and sunk teeth in deep,
I hope you know that was never a lie.
It must be apparent that I'd love to rip you to shreds,
In that old loving way.
The fun we'd have again,
The things we'd do if I had you back for a day.
Guess I can't help myself,
I really need to get my fix.
Been to long without screams and pain,
Followed with a tender kiss.
My bed is never made,
I sleep different every night.
Guess I'll just look for someone new,
Until then I write.

Understand?
Great.

Saw you in a picture today,
And I realized,
I ******* love you.

You've walked away,
And I'll give you time,
Because I ******* love you.

Maybe you got bored,
Or you just can't commit,
But I ******* love you.

Never needed anyone,
And definitely not now,
Still though I ******* love you.

Got all these little thoughts,
Crowed in my mind,
Screaming "I ******* love you".

**** that.

You have no control,
But you're the only one to blame,
I ******* loved you.

Soon I'll get to see you,
Once or twice a week,
I ******* loved you.

Hope you learn to regret,
This mistake,
I ******* loved you.

I meant every,
Word I said,
Like, "I ******* love you".

How can I love,
Someone drenched in betrayal?
I ******* loved you.

****, I don't know,
I guess...
You...

****.

I want to cry for the beauty that hides.
Who trades down when they already have the prize?
I love the wonder in her eyes,
But I know that she will never be mine.

I want to walk away,
Amputate those feelings,
Let then stay with her,
And allow me to go on my way.
I know I can't though,
Something keeps me here,
Submersive to your touch .
I can't get enough.
I'll listen to your ideas,
I love to her you play.
Laughing and living life,
But I refuse to move what is in the way.

Should have just said no....

I was the one in control...

Why the **** did I not just say no...?

I want to scream yes...but no....

I should have just said no....

I can't bare to leave you alone...

You are my home...

Why didn 't I just say no...?

Three times the charm you know...

We could ruin it all right here....

If you beg I swear I'll stop...

Don't make me stop...

I'm going to make you scream no...

Should have just said no....

A stranger passed me by today,
Smile on his face and kindness in his eyes.
He looked directly at me with that familiar look,
I think I used to know that guy.

He waved to me and said hello as he walked by,
I gave him a slight nod and exhaled a "hi" in return.
Kept trying to avoid his eyes, but he just couldn't keep them to himself,
When will this guy ever learn?

Can't he see I've changed and I'm happy where I am?
None of what we had is there anymore.
You aren't anything to me so stop acknowledging me,
When will you leave me alone?

Your only purpose in my life was to be a mistake,
A road I took my time crossing but crossed none the less.
You've gone from everything to nothing in a matter of seconds,
When I see your face in the crowd I cringe, give it a rest.

I am so far away from you now,
Abandon our old hopes and dreams of us.
I've changed into something new and better, can't you see that?
I don't need you anymore, blow away with the dust.

So when I see you,
Be grateful for that nod.
You are a stranger now, you're nothing to me,
Don't call me love, you've been cut off.

Soft voices and sweet dreams,
A small bed for one team.
Hot nights on the skyline,
Holding on to each other for dear life.

She made us a family in her head,
Named the kids, found a house, and started paying the rent.
There is a fire in our eyes,
A desire to burn that no one can deny.

We have our rings, we have are vows,
We've never been better than we're now.
Two smiles and then one kiss,
"I found the love that I knew I'd miss."

Two beautiful hazels, locked with a pair of black holes,
An unlikely couple by the looks of it but what do any of them know?
We had it all and knew that to be true,
I just couldn't get enough of you.

We lay arm and arm together in ease,
Be it in the bed in the sky or under shaded tree.
I refuse to look down, we are headed straight forward, full steam ahead.  
All these thoughts relived looking back at all we said.

Take a piece of me,
I beg you please,
Rip it off,
And keep yourself close to me.

And what is left,
Will live on,
Maybe forgetting you,
Maybe it'll hold on.

As for the piece you have,
Please don't forget.
That I can be with you,
I'll always be there if you fall.

But maybe it is time for you to trip...