Lost long love, where did you go,
are you out in the winter cold,
the fire can't keep me warm, no more
Can you just come back to me,
I promise, honey, i'll set you free
I'm just lonely without you here with me
Back to the fire, I trying to warm up,
I miss you, lover, why can't you be here with me
I know that you, are fighting for me,
But please come home, i'll be here waiting
Lost long love, i know where you went,
You crawled inside my heart, and won't get out

Never been a fan of this holiday,
always lookin at the lies and troubles
I'm suppose to be happy this time of year
so why do i feel this empty?
where is all my cheer?
The cold hits like flash,
last leaf falling from the tree
It's that time of year

Would i jump off the edge,
if you told me to?
You know i'll do anything for you
I''l climb the mountain, to reach you
I'll **** your demons, if i have to
I'll hold you close and will never let you go
cause if i do, dear, i'll probably lose control
It doesn't matter what you wear, i'll love you always
Cause if you knew, dear, i think you wouldn't feel the same
Whatever you need me to do, i'll do for you
I'll do anything for you
I'll stay inside and hug you, if you need me to
I'll keep you close and protect you, if i have to
Whether or not, dear, you love me back
I'll trust you

Soft pastel skies, shining through my window
Gently blowing through life like it's nothing
Can i just please stop this train i'm on
The whistle has just blown again
and here we go again, round and round
on this track, circles and circles
there is no letting go
gotta hold on till the end

I feel like Peter Pan,
like i'm on a drug trip
If your my Wendy,
i'll do it again
Let's go to Neverland
Fly into the stars
forget everything else
Captain Hook can't even bring me down now
I want to run with the lost boys,
running wild and free
what i would give
to go to Neverland
with just you and me

there's a reason why i don't like to smile
it's because i'm scared
i'm scared of the results
i hate the idea of being disliked
so i'm guessing it's better to be still
i'll stay in the back of class
i'll be quiet and strong
maybe unseen, but who cares?
one day i'll get past this
itching fear of mine
but for now
i guess it's ok

i wear a mask
sometimes smiling,
sometimes frowning,
but i always wear a mask
pale and refined
straight and even
i play a role
of unimportance
to some im special
to others not
but at least i mean something
even if its fake

my mouth seems sewn shut
im becoming quiet through the noise
the world is loud and obsessive
i cant look now
for my wings are already out
spread out, shadowing others
my mouth is quiet
but my actions are loud

I thought my words were something to them
My wit ends and my soul dies
my emotions are enclosed in brackets
bent and inward, bottling up till i overflow
i have found that keep emotions in helps for awhile
but i always get hurt at the end
still i continue doing it
to never let anyone in
i have broken my wall before
and i have just broken again

Right in the mirror, i see definitions
My jawline, my hair, my eyes
The carved up sides of my exposed cheeks

To the stretch marks on my body,
i love and hate you
You are my progress and my downfalls
The purples and blue forever turning into pale fair skin

To my eye bags,
you keep me up at night,
but remind me what i'm studying
I'm trying to succeed, to be happy

To the lead stuck in my leg,
you will remind me of my childhood
you will remind me of the days that i worked and played
Tussling on both marble and grass

To the shaking in my palms,
you keep me steady and yet make me fear
You keep me modest and simple
The only thing i wanted

To my chapped lips,
you remind me that i am not taking care of myself
and how i need to improve on my being
You remind me of the words coming out
and the smiles that grow on you

To the speckles on my stomach,
you make me happy
you remind me of the stars
and how one day i may reach them

To my whole body and self,
I love everything about you.

I'd like to think that i wasn't blocked out
Whatever i do someone will disagree
and i understand that completely
but the only thing i don't understand
is how someone can injure another so easily?

I wish i was Icarus, brave and bold
Flying towards the sun with no worries

I wish i was Psyche, soulful and proud
With butterflies and her silver crown

I wish i was Pan, wild and free
with animals and nowhere to be

I wish i was a Muse, talented and seen
with a voice of careless beauty

I wish i was a legend, old and wise
with stories to tell and no binds

But i am myself, loud and spoken
I'm taught by stories, and i want to be one too

I feel so stable
but i know it won't last
I keep my arms out
for balance alone
I'm trying to grab on
to keep myself still
I'm on this rope
above everyone else
and if i fall
ill be alone

I guess starlight doesn’t work
The moon is shattered
And the stars die out
Forty-five minutes of sleep
Is how much I get each night
Never a minute more or minute less

The girl by the window,
You remember her,
I thought she was kind and good
But I guess that was a lie
I didn’t know I told
She used my faults against me
And turned me inside out
My pride, still unbroken
My trust, smashed down
If this is what she wanted
Guess what?
You succeeded
Guess what girl by the window?
I’m still sour; I’m so sour
Wanna use my disease against me?
And then apology like it was nothing?
Complain to one of our mutual friends?
About how “you don’t understand”
Clearly you don’t,
You underestimated me
I may be over dramatic,
I may be careless,
I may be senseless,
I am faulty
I am diseased
I am broken
Yet I am me

I don’t wanna back down,
but I have too
You broke my trust in you
And my love and like in you
I didn’t dislike you,
I didn’t shame you,
I didn’t do anything,
I was playing around, joking
And yet you think I was serious.
I understand it was fine,
But for now I want to be alone,
I want to think
I want to feel again
I want to be able to trust again
Thank you,
Girl by the window
For making me think again
For making me feel again
I feel myself grow
I feel myself again
I feel whole and broken again
I feel free again.

I'm cold in this loose jacket
sour when eating butterscotch
scared when I smile
but i'm hopeful
with my poetry
I want to help people in words
I can't do it all in person
It's better when i stay anonymous
I'd rather stay inside and chat online
As people in real life seem to dislike me
therefore other i can help others like me
and we can grow together, peacefully.

My seat is by the window
I get to look out into a parking lot
Many cars are parked out there
I can't seem to want to be here
I relate to the red one in the back
It's cracked and has no plate
It's lights are shattered
and its bumper is bruised
I wonder who drives it

I know the girl in front of me
She's nice as can be
She sits by the window too
And i see her also writing poetry
I wonder if she would share hers,
if i shared mine, but i can't
Mine are too sad, and hers look light
I don't want to ruin another's life

I'm trying to hold onto a rusty bar,
hanging off the edge, over a sea of hands,
they grab onto my legs and try to drag me down
my rusty bar breaks, and as i fall
a single tear slips

I don't fear death, but i don't want to die
I don't care about how they judge me
And i won't even try to change for them
I would rather die

I hold onto a broken bridge,
one that was once white with splendor
but bricks get mossy, and i slipped
into a rushing river in tar

Time stands still, as i sink
I hear nothing now
And i'm glad
Because they can't judge me now

It's been two months since i have written back,
looking at my past promises
and broken hopes,
i wonder what younger me was thinking at this moment
This moment
This second
This year
What's different, as i seem to near
my last ****** day on this forbidden earth
There's nothing here anymore for me,
Not one word, nor a sound
That's pleasing to me
The ground is barren, cold and wet
the skies are empty, is that it?
I have written back,
still insincere and still silent
I wonder if i never wrote the first letter,
Would it be just a normal year?

Every day is the same,
Flourish, burn, and hide away
Dancing in the pale light
No I won’t sleep tonight

I’ve been lookin’
I’ve been searching
I cannot find my senses
All I feel is emptiness
Corruption is here I guess
Though I will never admit it
I should have loved you
Instead of them
Thoughtless and loneliness
Can I get an amen?

“It was only one night”
One night of what?
Pain, suffering and hate combined?
“Just a bit more”
A bit more of what?
My blood, tears, and sweat together?

I choked on my fear
I fell to my knees
****** and bruised
But don’t make my mistakes
Seem like flaws
For my mistakes
Are what I love
About myself

The waters I live in
Drown me
The land I grow in
Buried me
The fire I was made in
Burned all my sanity away

Life is as long as it is short

Oof im getting a snake any name suggestions?

Bumblebee on the wind,
Flying away to places
I’ve never been
Flourish in life,
Flourish in love,
You’ll have more chances
Than I’ll ever dream of

I didn’t wanna tell
I didn’t want to break it
But my love went down the well
And I can’t ever recover it

I’m drowning in a small room
Walls closing in on me
I used to love this place
Now it’s a prison
Of love and hate
You’re the poison in my bones
You’re the glue holding me together
But you left me alone
And I fell apart
No solutions
I feel so
Empty

Every day is pointless
Unless someone wants me there

I fell in the mud today
I wish I would have just sunk into it

Thus I lie down in the ocean
Waves of cool roaring almightly
Caressing me is the sea

Within a container
I poured my hate
Within a container
I poured you away

Flustered I am when I talk to you
You don’t love me, but I love you