Ink = blood
Liquor = courage
Coward = bravery
Honor = lies
Cruelty = serenity

I’ve been lookin’
I’ve been searching
I cannot find my senses
All I feel is emptiness
Corruption is here I guess
Though I will never admit it
I should have loved you
Instead of them
Thoughtless and loneliness
Can I get an amen?

how does he walk away blame free
with no cares and worries
a being in world of dystopian rule
a destroyer
a narcissist
a human
a father

Botching people is a girl’s daily life
Cutting open friendship and the lying
Don’t trust a person who’s kissing a**
They’re  just lying till you pass
Then they go and normal
Until they spread the lies you told

Ain’t it fun, to pull each other’s strings
Ain’t it fun, to pull each other’s buttons
But what effects happen to the person,
Anxiety, depression, and despair
ADD
Add all the effects and what do you get
A angry, deceptive, defensive
Person who has problems
ADD
Addictive but fun, no problems right?
Wrong, your false pretenses
Affecting lives of the young
ADD

Morning’s light
Night’s dark
Bird’s call
And wolf’s howl
Predator’s bite
Prey’s cry
Sun’s might
Moon’s glare
Flower’s bloom
And tree’s sway

Why did you leave me
Your the one who got away

Would i jump off the edge,
if you told me to?
You know i'll do anything for you
I''l climb the mountain, to reach you
I'll **** your demons, if i have to
I'll hold you close and will never let you go
cause if i do, dear, i'll probably lose control
It doesn't matter what you wear, i'll love you always
Cause if you knew, dear, i think you wouldn't feel the same
Whatever you need me to do, i'll do for you
I'll do anything for you
I'll stay inside and hug you, if you need me to
I'll keep you close and protect you, if i have to
Whether or not, dear, you love me back
I'll trust you

A short story, of hate and love,
A story of despair and justice,
A story of untold fury and hope,
A story of life and death
A story we all have.

No one wants damaged goods,
No one wants broken love,
No one wants you if you cry.

Barbie doll,
Why are your eyes swollen?
Your cheeks are stained dear
Mascara can’t mask your sadness
People only play with you
Then break you

Barbie doll,
Why are you crying?
Your boy is calling
Answer him you’re clearly dying,
Girly girl live your purpose
Or is that just your coverup?

Barbie girl,
You’re in your plastic world,
Why do you cry
If you’re so perfect?

Perfect people are the same as us
Bones of beauty
Don’t change us,
Prejudice is the same as lying
Barbie girl is just being
True

I thought my words were something to them
My wit ends and my soul dies
my emotions are enclosed in brackets
bent and inward, bottling up till i overflow
i have found that keep emotions in helps for awhile
but i always get hurt at the end
still i continue doing it
to never let anyone in
i have broken my wall before
and i have just broken again

My seat is by the window
I get to look out into a parking lot
Many cars are parked out there
I can't seem to want to be here
I relate to the red one in the back
It's cracked and has no plate
It's lights are shattered
and its bumper is bruised
I wonder who drives it

I know the girl in front of me
She's nice as can be
She sits by the window too
And i see her also writing poetry
I wonder if she would share hers,
if i shared mine, but i can't
Mine are too sad, and hers look light
I don't want to ruin another's life

I'm questioning my sanity
questioning me,
questioning why i like this person
I like them for hopes and personality,
not for their looks and beauty,
she likes to dress up as other people,
and go party with her friends,
but i'm always here when she comes back,
and the cycle starts again

Blooming flowers painted red
Knife blooded with poetry
Mind your own head
You’re heading south
Deals with the devil
Never end well

no bounds on humanity
and i can cry
"don't hurt them"
as loud as i want
but no one will respond

I’m drowning in a small room
Walls closing in on me
I used to love this place
Now it’s a prison
Of love and hate
You’re the poison in my bones
You’re the glue holding me together
But you left me alone
And I fell apart
No solutions
I feel so
Empty

Every day is the same,
Flourish, burn, and hide away
Dancing in the pale light
No I won’t sleep tonight

I can't hold it together
any longer and i'll break again
i'm gonna fail, we all know
that i'm just a mistake
i'm falling down
into the unknown
as i fall, i see your face
and know its going to be ok
but the stone walls, cave in
and tumble over
down on my knees,
all i can say is
"don't leave me please"

The girl by the window,
You remember her,
I thought she was kind and good
But I guess that was a lie
I didn’t know I told
She used my faults against me
And turned me inside out
My pride, still unbroken
My trust, smashed down
If this is what she wanted
Guess what?
You succeeded
Guess what girl by the window?
I’m still sour; I’m so sour
Wanna use my disease against me?
And then apology like it was nothing?
Complain to one of our mutual friends?
About how “you don’t understand”
Clearly you don’t,
You underestimated me
I may be over dramatic,
I may be careless,
I may be senseless,
I am faulty
I am diseased
I am broken
Yet I am me

I don’t wanna back down,
but I have too
You broke my trust in you
And my love and like in you
I didn’t dislike you,
I didn’t shame you,
I didn’t do anything,
I was playing around, joking
And yet you think I was serious.
I understand it was fine,
But for now I want to be alone,
I want to think
I want to feel again
I want to be able to trust again
Thank you,
Girl by the window
For making me think again
For making me feel again
I feel myself grow
I feel myself again
I feel whole and broken again
I feel free again.

my glass is clear
i want to fill my bottle
my life is half full
half full or half empty
whether or not
is does i'll decide
if i want to live
and die inside
or fall alone
and feel alive

Bumblebee on the wind,
Flying away to places
I’ve never been
Flourish in life,
Flourish in love,
You’ll have more chances
Than I’ll ever dream of

Flustered I am when I talk to you
You don’t love me, but I love you

I want to fly away, farther than anyone,
quicker than a bullet, in the bright summer sun,
but they keep me down to Earth,
hidden by the atmosphere,
why i can't i fly away with them,
away with my dear,
I keep holding on to a person who is gone,
i keep trying to rekindle what is forever gone,
but if i try then maybe they will come back to me
possibly, only maybe, they will love me

Time has forever,
I don’t agree with that
And if then I do have forever
I will clearly love it
For you will be with me