Perfection doesn't exist
It never has, never did
Connection is a gift, a shift
In the split-ting headache
That dings. Rings in your ears
Achin' sharp, steely, screamy
Shakin' feverish. Mind reeling

These devil's devour dealings
In the hours of their screaming
Lost in the Haunted dreaming
Empty spaces, devoid feelings

Grown up, upside down
Never knowing what's right
Always glowing, at night,
Over-flowing, with fright
These fears, demonic ears
Never hearing the tears
Just the cheers, when their jeers
Taunt...

Empty, vapid, insipid, ruined
prose ache, deep where you truant
Lucid dreams, where Lucifer leans
Into these in betweens.
My soul doesn't know what it means
Ice screams, to not go ahead
Go back to your pride and death
Let it end. Play pretend
That you dont need a friend
In the end, everything ends
So why not let this one suspend
Over a cliff face, like the rest?
What's wrong with your head
Let it go, frozen icey blends

....
You're taking up all my quiet
The lies you told, I'm trying
Not to fold and reach out
Because each shout, bleeds now
Your seeds of doubt, scream out
So wrong, you don't real-eyes
I was telling the truth, despite
All your assumptions. Its like
Pressing red buttons, on purpose
Each word you ejected, worthless
Your in my mind in surplus
But creating a circuit that leads
To a circus. Just to hurt us...

Unchained, base
meant to claim
Haste. Pasted your name
In cemetery gates
Where trauma ties lie
Right to your face
Retrace, the steps
Back to unsafe.

A warm embrace
Is needed some days
I wish, I could
Hold you and tell you it'll be okay
Come by your place
Lay waste, to the taste
Of the deciet that's depression
Telling us defeat is a better weapon

Yeah, forget it. I'll whip it
into a submissive
Torture upon and inflict it
With rejection,
So when you look at your
Reflection.
You'll see the exceptions
That i see
Review your true  expression

I'll lessen the burdens, no question
Listen, and just be by your side
As you spill the deception  
Chant "I cares" to its possession
I wasn't stolen, my confession
I want to leap into your arms
Laugh, run, hunt, but all in fun
So, get over your projections
And be my best friend again.

You blame me for this but we both know the truth
You can't handle that I'm not solely interested in you
You want me to idolise you, while never moving forward
You want me to despite you, can't handle what's important
Always right? Yeah, I'm so tired and spent, we would be a train wreck
And now I'm sitting here doubting, every single thing you've ever said
Your projection is palpable, it has its own pulse, do you actually believe it?
Do you gaslight yourself too? In your bubble of delusional deciet when
I'd have helped you leave it. Nevermind then, I hope you learn from this
I hope you don't dismiss the pain, I hope you understand all I ever did
Was too soothe your ache. I miss you, but you said this is for the best
Not for the reasons you stated though, we both know that's the test
We both know, you'll lie to yourself, but your heart will confess
However, you'll "bury that mess" on my day no less. I guess,
I always knew, this would have it's end. I hope someday when
You've reflected, when I've collected my self respect
You'll actually be able to be that "friend"
Without blurring boundaries like they don't exist for a reason,
I'll just keep this car wreck active, so my veins keep bleedin'

All the best in love and life ❤️

Waves wade
Washing our woes
You promised purposely
Pin pointed fingers
Nail in. Prise pride,
Apply pressure,

The weather of your storm
In the eye of your scorn
Forlorn dawn, dawned upon us
Swarmed by your tidal waves
Whipping us around the place
Sea bound, drowning in your gaze

Breathless beneath the taste
Of salted water ways...

Then the slaughter sways
Lonely daughter displayed

Doing my best, not to drown
In all the ways I was kept down
The theft of life, by your hands
A deathly price, a deadly stance
In this reverie, remember me
Because I'm bound, to forget everything
Switch off the depth of me...
Sick in this sea, lungs watered like a plant
Drink it in, let the ocean, have its demands
Sink in quicksand, while hauntings press
Into your soul and taunt the adept...
Inherited death by your hands
Destined to breathe out of breath.