what arouses you
she asked-
coffee and poetry,
i replied.
she looked away

with a smile
I whispered
"and YOU"
naked next to me

i wanted the sea
she wanted the skies

we just smile
for each other
with teary eyes

Beyond wonders
and some more
galactic events,
I believed you exist
to fall with me--

to an awful beauty
called love

you somehow
kissed my soul;
troubled and broken
beneath a storm-
saved and nurtured
by saying,
I love you

You stole
my heart away
and to
the whispers
of the wind
I can hear
its beats
fading
slowly...

Some dreams,
should remain just dreams
she once told me
and the fire
within me, fluttered;
I remember
how she said
that I'm her dream
I remember how heat
caress my cheeks
that cold night
suddenly, I felt tears
wet my eyes
and my throat felt sore
to the thought
I fear-
some dreams
should remain just dreams

How much I love you

Destiny, so would some say
that we met, in a planned way
we didn't expected to happen
yet, here we are
charmed at each other's smiles
our souls hum at each other's voices
blissed at each other's warmth;

I still remember how we met
and never thought
I'd have you as my partner instead
you are sweet, and every taste
I never thought
I could fall in love with
and each day that passes,
I got addicted-
with your voice, my favorite music
with your smile, my loveliest portrait
with your eyes, my infinite universe
with your heart, my strength and courage

Darling, I'm in debt
though you may not see it
you are every bit
of the happiness
I am living with
and I'm the luckiest man
to ever witness
such greatness-

When I'm with you
when I'm with you
it feels like my eyes
are surrounded with a million stars
so darling, don't be ashamed with your own scars
yes, you may not be perfect
but your imperfections has made me feel
cloud nine on my cerulean sky;
and love, it is not enough
to just marvel at your beauty,
I must tell the world as well
that there is an incomparable beauty
and she's with me

How much I love you,
you might've asked
Darling, in these phrases
I hope you'll see
that I would cross seas
just to feel your embrace
that I could fly you to Jupiter
or anywhere you dear
Oh! How I long for you
my arms aches for yours
my lips dreamt of yours

Darling, all these time
you made me poetic
that even my soul
loves the rhythmic
my kind of upbeat music
my eyes giggles
at each moment
I stare at your pictures

and you should know
that I'm beyond proudest
with all of your fulfillment
in every dream
you'd want to take
please do not fret
for I am with you
when you needed help

How much I love you,
I hope you're seeing it now
that in my eyes
are paintings of you
and I pray, soon too
that I'll wake up next to you
that your lips
are only breath away
with mine
having both our hands, entwined
and my skin,
rubbing against your
gentle ones

How much I love you,
I hope I expressed it well
for Darling,
you're the only love
I would dream
to grow old with

Let's be muted together-
let touch, hugs, and kisses
the only languages
We knew for centuries
and a thousand years more.
Given immortality
could be granted
if you let your;
Heart, mind, soul and body-
Collide with mine.

then they begin
to take
everything from her
and all
that is left
are traces
of her
dried tears

They say,
every person
is a different world
but why is it
you're like
the sun

Your warmth
is what
I needed.

Galaxies apart,
I believed
that's what
we are-
but whenever
I see your smiles,
it feels like
both of your hands
are holding mine

I have always been lost for words
whenever my thoughts,
captures memories of you;
the smiles you used to wear,
those eyes that holds the galaxy
and the soul,
so passionate
that I mistake you as an angel-

astounded,
I am to you-

I hope you see
how I still write for you
those lines,
built with too much
unwanted emotions
sleepless thoughts
and longing goodbyes-

I hope you could
read them
the way you wondered
how the stars
glows at night
how the moon is still loved
despite of the surrounding darkness
and its changing shapes

I hope, that with all these lines
I have written filled with all those
none-rhythmic feelings
you'll see that you appeared to be
the galaxy for me


Triggered Letters

I always dream
of waking up
next to you--

but everyday,
it snows

hover over love
not under
neither between
take risk
suffer
feel broken
and fall
in love again

all these things
we try
to cry
and feel caught
within a sweet prison

WHY?

We've started the year with nicknames and endearments- stuffs that makes us look stupid but sweet. Started affection and all other addiction- your voice, your looks, your smell and everything about you. But we- you start to end it with sorry's and reasons and insecurities and-stopped. Ended the year with nothing but memories that carves pain within. We- we just stopped.

You dreamed of things
your head played
but neglected them
a thousand times
because of the voices
saying;
you won't be able
to achieve them
and listened

You've somehow
imprisoned yourself
to thoughts that don't matter
to words, only made
to drag you down
to eyes, made to judge
to hearts, only made
to discourage

Your dreams are made
of a million you's;

Go on
Dream BIG
Prove them wrong

this wasn't the place
we dreamed to live with
nor the words we promised

it has changed differently
not even close
or more than words
ours was vast and beautiful
but this, only holds
pain, the grave we fall
from hopeless wishes
and empty jars of faith

i know this wasn't
but to do something to change it
requires my soul to break

           so better leave it be forgotten
           than have myself to completely fade

they've mistreated
my beliefs
stomped on my respect
treated me like a trash

then they've wondered
how i forget
they exist

she spread her wings, wide
cheerfully smiled
and her blushes are wild
while I lick my lips
eyes fixed
to a beauty before me-
fresh, wet, and free

I can still remember
how much of a heart
we were-- when we first met
on that banquet
a night filled with glances
from strangers,
dancing--
then you caught me staring
our bodies fighting
what our eyes have seen
and with just a smile away
my cheeks felt warm
against your rash breathing
I'm holding you in my arms

the night went away
and we're still dancing
under the blankets
that covers our skin

If only the stars
are enough proof
to tell you
how I wonder
and wander
about your beauty
maybe you'll understand
how it feels
to admire your soul
but they aren't enough
because it takes
a thousand galaxies
to define such beauty

yes, she is made of storms
a maiden of chaos
she calls herself
for no man
could ever chain her
to one place

she is adventure
the most exciting one
her smiles, affectionate
and never wears off

she is fire and ice
the very existence
of metaphor and simile
and all that is opposing
yet moving at the same direction
similar yet unique
wild and beautiful
minute and vast

truly,
she is phenomenal

To all the
what ifs
I have to
think of--

I've been drowning
to all of you

troubled,
stuck in-between
love and chaos,
when holding on
too long
means pain
than letting go

i write when i'm excited
i write when i'm sad
i write when i'm burning
with feelings so overwhelming

i write when my head is busy
buzzing figures of speeches
and words that asks collateral
disruptions
and voices that pays no toll
for causing distractions

i write when i feel empty
i write when i'm filled with empathy

i write when everyone speaks too much
my heart aches for reasons,
papers and pens could only reach
to comfort and preach
that i am strong as such
and when i'm down,
i can help myself fetch

i write when i think of nothing
the ruins of my thoughts
lingers like unpaid debts
of feelings, rejected and ignored
that wakes me up at 3am
i couldn't do anything
but lie and think
and to papers and pen
i write them down
page by page, endlessly
until i ran out of blood
my pen is dry without its ink

i write with my life
as the blood of my pen

i was just
a silhouette
in our scenic
love story-
where you made
me believed
i was your sun

i write
to the only reason
and fear-
that i might
drown my heart
and soul
with the words
that floods
my head

they never liked your face
the way how your body's made
your hair aren't what they expected
so they chose to have you rejected

they never appreciated your strength
for they envied you- since and still
their insecurities have no length
they have this negative will

yet your beauty attest
what you are outside
you may appear a monster
but you are an angel inside

you hold this treasure within
a beautiful soul! a beautiful soul!
that's what I see, that I'm sure

now I could say
you are a truly a treasure,
not a hearsay
a true gift of nature!

i have gone away
to a place, where love stays;
i was nourished
i was cared
i was thought for
with words promises made

i've set my feet
atop, to those lines
i believed true

i've set everything up
thinking it was the best
idea, i could ever have

but they've placed
the setup
before i was able
to make mine.

Water drips from my eyes, flown straight thru my cheeks; shivers- I breathe deeply. Holding every inch of pain I felt in my chest,within, thud-thud-thud-thud, says my heart; a sensation that lingers- battling every strange feeling, living amidst of me. Choking- air came scarce, and so are words left me. Black, darkness reign; and the light you've shone bright- slowly gone, and gone to stealth.

I turned the lights off
there, I saw my soul
sleeps soundly
then I turned it on
my soul woke up
with troubled thoughts,
figure trembling
like a flame,
dancing against the wind-
about to die...

I turned it off back
and to eternal darkness
I dose myself out

remind yourself
that you owe you
an apology
for not loving
your worth

I never had the chance
to tell you
of the things
you should know
but you got me first
by saying goodbye
then left-

we almost had it
but we never did
I guess, almost
means never

I stroke with
both legs, pumping-
with excitements
of the thrill
ahead of me.

Mr. Sun is still
dozing off
taking its time
to rest
before burning
this already burnt skin
that covers my soul-

then I look back
hoping to see
figures running
with me,
but all I see
are silhouettes
of the tress
and grasses
and stones
cheering my spirit;
keeping the flame burning
whilst eyes busy
looking for signs
that'll take me
to the finish line.

hours passed by,
and I am bathed
with sweat
and tiredness.

breathing heavily,
I battled against
my footing
and my head-
urging to give up the race
but I keep running
until warm words
starts to blanket
my doubtful thoughts
and smiled;
I can do this

I can't own you
like he did to you
you have your world
and, I too;

I can't own you
but,
you'll be the world
I would love to live with
regardless the change of seasons
regardless the shape you're into
regardless the chaos you contain
you'll still be the world
I would always run to-

I can't own you
for my love for you
is freedom,
like you dreamed
when we were younger
and after you were broken.

I have not thought
of songs that sings
with my name
until, I hear your voice
it had me ecstatic;

and to ever wonder
how and why
I fell in love with you
deeply-

sometimes we write beautiful lines
and speaks of them a million times
sometimes we **** at creating one
and in thoughts we reminisce how's it done

sometimes we make things right
from the messed up ones we had on flight
sometimes we tell stories about our life
but most we just kept out of sight

sometimes we pretend that everything's alright
to contain the pain we had inside
sometimes we forget ourselves
to make others happy

but;

sometimes we drop the leaves we grew
to make way for new ones to glow

my mind is again drowning
of the thoughts
i fear would happen
in reality;
things i just see
in my head
when dragged by anxiety-

my soul is choking
gasping for air i couldn't grasp
reaching for a lift i couldn't hold
looking for love i couldn't own

i fear of losing you
when these thoughts
are for real
i fear of losing you
because my love
you brought my heart
a great deal

Now death has come before me
Claiming what is owned temporarily
But choices are given to be drawn
Whether to live again in vain
Or choose death that is about to gain
Escape, i thought for a second
What is to be yielded on hand
I love my life
Yet, I'm curious about death
Is it a cure?
I asked again-
And in enough of thoughts,
I jumped to death's den
And to eternal darkness
My life faded
Like a footprint on a sand

stupid as it may seemed
i trust so easily
fall so easily
forget so easily;
someone would just
make fun of it

i didn't care
i never would

THIS WISH of mine I prayed to reach your sleeping heart, in fantasies I dreamt them be like.
In Disney's like Aurora and Snow White that you seek also princes of heart and the like. Though I might not appear as how I should in fantasies I spoke, my heart is a full golden moon rose if only you look- deeper through my eyes, my soul, Aye! My soul is a spoonful of stars. But you should know as well, that I could only shine because of your soaring soul and mysterious heart. That even in the moonless night, I can see your beautiful smiles like a pair of wings, bearing a faithful star to guide my path ahead- to dreaming of a collage of your eyes, an endless universe I have always loved.

THIS WISH could only be a daydream, of a poet who only sings love between lines- but I still and will always daydream as you carry me to the edge of the moon, hung amongst the stars.

They say,
every person
is a different world
but why is it
you're like
the sun

Your warmth
is what
I needed.

you spoiled every cells in me
overjoyed, you bath me with love
and in kisses,
and hugs, you took me so high
i fear the drop
could break me into pieces
but you hold me so tight
like a harness, on my climb,
you're safe- you assured that i am
you guided the steps i take
and in every wound i get
you were there to kiss the pain away
so every day,
i take you not as a passing thought
but the usual hero
in my lifetime event

what excites you?
she asked, curiously
climbing mountains,
i responded quickly
troubled, she looked down
then i smiled and spoke
"to find the words
along the trail-
she stared, seemingly;
for more than what i have
couldn't explain
the feeling
of having you near me"

you are bitter-sweet
the coffee treat
i will never forget

you are the lever
that lifts my soul, to new level
and i always wonder
how you set fever
into summer

you are bitter-sweet
and to wander
your world,
takes no deep thoughts to ponder

you promised me art
beyond love
and you said,
it was ***

indulged, i mind it
as my Freaking bUsiness;
a Contract, i thought
with our hearts
and you said,
it's fun

with a cracK
i lay naked
seeing the truth
you hid, behind your lips
i'm just for fun
for you to ****