I can remember
Your smile
And yet worn eyes
As you burried yourself
In religion
And work
No mother nor rest
In sight
And as i continue
To live in this life
And wake up in the middle of
The night
I think I understand
How you went astray
Dad,
I really miss you

With each tear in my heart
Another poem is written
A **** less is given
And one less life to live in
I guess I should be grateful
But I'm to upset
Over the aftermath

Warm nights like this
Remind me of when I would watch you
Sit on the porch
And look at the sky  
As she beckoned for your worries
To join her

I can see your sunken shoulders
As you sat there,
Setting your alarm to wake up
And cook us breakfast
Before we went to school
And you to work
Scrolling
Scrolling
6:00 am set
If you went to bed now
you would probably get 5 hours

You scratch your head
That started to pepper out years ago,
Yeah, its time for a cut
But little Charlie needs shoes and
Terry graduates this year
And don’t forget
soon it will be Mary’s quince
Maybe next month you mumble

I can smell you light your Newport
While you look back at the sky
And you know
To this day I could never tell
If it was the stars reflecting in your eyes
Or Tears
That reflected in your eyes.

Forever,
I will be the listening ear
But
When it comes for me to express my voice
No ears linger.
Always

I'm considerably lazy
but for my brothers
I would sprint in hellfire itself
if they ever needed their big sister

brave the tundra
if they told me they were sad
and travel from the moon
to hug them if they were lonely.

I would give them the world if I could
but
I can only give them my heart
Even though they are already living pieces of it

I want to scream and shout at the world
Holler at the tolerance
Tell people just how lonely I am
Explain how important you are to me
But when I open my mouth
Inhale
Exhale
No words are formed

Open fields are meant for me to listen
To the stars tell me it's alright
While I cry silently about being lonely

You are the Universe
Disguised as a human
Hope
Transcendent upon land
Light
For a better tomorrow
You are a new day
Make the best of it

It's so hard
To Forget
When you have
Yet to Forgive

And it's so hard
To Forgive
When you have
Yet to Forget.

I never
Meant to lie
To you
You see it was at
Another's request
And I was left
To decide what I thought best
Yet
My lying isnt the best
And remembering turns my head into a mess
So instead of the stress i turned
Silent
To keep from hurting you.

My mind cannot decipher
Wether my heart wants to be free
From stress
Or from you

Oh Daisy
Loved by everyone
Flowed with the wind
Kissed by the sun

Petals filled with starlight
And dancing to the Sunday's praises
Advice and love always at heed
And right now grandmother
You're what I need

Oh Daisy
How I miss you

Decisively
Everyone
Abandons
Their
Happiness

Dear Future love,

I look forward to seeing you form many faces
The happy ones when I occasionally cook
Because the mixture of my cultural differences will be comes as a surprise

The confusion when you upset me
To the sad ones you make when we argue
    because we care

Your sleeping one because you consider my
    side to be your place of comfort
The excitement we will share when good
    comes our way
To those tranquil moments that we wish
    would just stop

But the thing I look forward to the most
   Is loving you

I never thought
The day would come
Where you would no longer
Need to hold my hand
But in reality
For me to let go
Of my hurt and past
I had to leave your hand hind as well
Forgive me......
I'm sorry

No matter the age
Or how grown up I may be
There still hides a crying child in me

How I wish
That I could come out
And say the things
I yearn to say
Love you with my all
But I wallow in fear
Because you say I'm too clingy

I think I heard my heart break just a little

The house
Is just a house
And it’s not my house
But it’s a house

But the house
Could be my house
And could a home
In fact, my home.

Maybe I can give up wandering and settle just for few.

Honduras,
I stand with you
Even when my country covers her ears
I hear your cries

She remains complacent in her ways
Yet I shall help her recall
The Refugee Act of 1980

As you cross through frigid rivers
And walk through dense forest
With your families trailing behind you
Your hope blazes ahead of your journey
And I can see it,
The helping hand that we once swore to give

And as you continue your march to the border
While they rush to close your entry
I only wish that they could see it too.

You were
Consistent
With your
Inconsistency
And now all I yearn for
Is to emotionally
Be free.

My pictures
My words are the visual
The tree trunk
But lack of confidence
My stuttering and shyness
The roots
But still, everyone picks
at my leaves

I have a love
Of whom I cannot call out too
How many times
Has my heart whispered
I love you
As you embraced me
I have said it in every language possible
Beyond English
So i can fight this urge of uttering
The words
You do not wish to hear
Despite your cold demeanor
And pushing me away
I love you
And yet
I cannot say it
For it is you whom I love

Dear Words on the paper
Please heal my mind
I know what they say
And what I need is time

But time is of an essence
that I do not have

Once emotional ties are formed
I am gone once more
I don't think
I have stayed long enough in my seat
To even rest

on to the next
state
country
emotional adventure.