We were never
On the same page
The same chapter
Perhaps,
We crossed paragraphs
And sentences
And yet
I wanted you
To still be in my book

I'm lost
No longer wanting
To be found.
Just waiting and wanting
To be lost
Some more.

Do you smile at your phone
Like I do
When your name,
My name
Appears on my screen
Your screen?

How does one not  go crazy when basic necessities
Are not at a basic cost
Instead,

Your ´average´ single rooms median rate is around $950
Squeeze as many as you can into that one room because
2 rooms you´re looking around 1,000+

Don´t wish to starve right?
Average household groceries range about 4,000
Throw in a nice budget, and a few coupons and who knows
You might range about 3,800

They tell you Education is the key but
But tuition itself is around 9,970
In-State that is.

Heck scientist have even theorized the cost of BREATHING
To be around $80

Living is a luxury I can no longer afford

I asked for
Assurance
Not
Insurance
For this broken heart
You gave me

I’m processing
Configuring
The time
And Calculating
The distance
That separates us
Oh the seconds
Until i see you
Once more
To God Above
I pray
You don't forget me

I waited
Forever
To finally say
I love you.

It hurts
To know
To fathom
To understand
That I will never be your number one
Or even anything to you

I hate
Being in my head
Left to my own thoughts
It's feels like my head
Is then a prison cell,
No visitation rights....

Why is it the ones who are,
In the right that have too
Apologize masses
And kiss *****?

Which to the human heart
Is more painful?
Loving someone
Or Being alone?

I think
That there is a child
Within me
Every time
I lay to rest
I hear her screams
Not to be forgotten
Not to be left behind
Although
No one hears her
But me
I guess no one listened hard enough

I long
For a Home
That I have never known

Much like a hound
longs for a bone

Home oh home
Where are you?

Love
Is a responsibility
One takes on
To protect another's heart
While entrusting the other
To do the same
Naturally,
You will understand
when you meet the right oerson

It was only a week
Yet it felt like years
do tell me
Where have you been
and where have you gone

No more summer flings in July
Means
No more heartbreaks in September

I have
Taken being called the N-word hard er
Told that I don't belong
Taken that I am fat
my hair was not beautiful cause it was never long
Taken that I would never make it out of High school
My dream held no worth
That nobody wanted me here and that I should be gone

Despite all the hatred and spite gave to me
I refuse to return it.

The day you said
You liked me
As a person
A friend
I cannot deny
The sky opened up
And together
We cried

Another chapter
Same story
A continuation
Of a saga
Behold
A torn page
Torn heart

I cannot help but compare people to plants.

We are born,
Blooming throughout our lives
We sow seeds and bear fruit.

Like trees,
We take root spreading far and wide
And yet we wither and die in the same soil

Even still,
The flower petals dance through the sky
And our greatest adventure continues.

What's the point
Of telling the truth
If even my truth
Is at question?

To live is to breathe
To not breathe is to die
And yet
With every inhale I hope that it's carries
The scent of you

And as I looked into his eyes
I no longer could see my reflection
For his gaze held the silhouette
of Another

There are times and situations
Where I know I should smile
When I should be happy and elated
Instead in tired and life seems vile

So I retreat to the voices in my head
And we just talk for a while

Me pregunto,
Soy libre
pertenezco  
en un país que no me da la bienvenida?

I wonder,
Am I free
Do I belong
in a country that does not welcome me?

Sometimes I feel like I’m treading on eggs
But I’m just fine
Because I imagine they are your head

I don't talk black
However I talk back
To the uneccesary judges
That have appointed themselves such
In life

I am not the same person I used to be
Not last year
A month ago
A week ago
or even a second

That person exists no more
And I call her progress

Do I even need
A reason to be upset
When life itself
Is so.....
Aggravating

You were,
A rib
A Backbone
Multi-Dimensional and goal-oriented

You were
A human
A woman
Loving and nurturing in every aspect
In honesty? Perhaps to good

Now you are
Fragments of what once existed
Alas, you were enough...
Just not for the right person.