Sigh
I'm tired
I'm tired of feeling so much
I'm tired of feeling so deeply
My body aches
Aches in my chest
Aches in my belly
Aches in my mind
I'm sick of thinking
I'm sick of the constant feelings of doubt
Of fear
Of pain
I just want to feel nothing
Just let me feel nothing

I'm angry
With myself,
With the people around me,
I'm frustrated about my situation.
My mind turmoils over problems I can't fix,
And tires over thinking about them a thousand times.
Each angle seems futile ,
Coz my brain draws a blank.
My fingers itch to rip written paper to shreds.
They fumble over texts,
Misspelled, misunderstood, misused.
I want to break things.
Hear the crashing of glass on marble floors,
I want to fling things across the room like they're weightless.
My destructive side comes out,
Pushing people away.
Building walls and breaking bridges.
My shoulders tense,
I can hear my heart beat pounding in my head.
I need help.
But I've pushed everyone away,
And I'm too proud to ask for it.