I know you're somewhere out there, laying in bed without me.
My heart is silently cracking.
As my tears drown me in my room.
Do you still love me?
I still love you
I can't breathe, my heart overthrew my brain a long time ago.
Now they're constantly at war as I tear my self apart. Every tear is truly my fault.
The pain is too much for me, can we just snuggle for the night?
Or maybe just until my hands get warmer.
And my heart starts it's regular pace once more?
I miss you.
I'm not sure as to whether or not you still miss me, because after all I was the one who broke it.
I tore your heart to pieces as my mind crashed.
Should I call?
No. The sound of your voice to my ear will be overwhelming.
I don't want you to know how weak I am.
I don't want you to know of the fault that lie in my plan.
I messed up.
Are those the correct words that I am supposed to use?
I still love you.
And though I seemed so confident, I broke down as soon as I was out of the door.
And with each day alone my heart is slowly breaking, like a wine glass being dropped onto the pavement.
Please save me
I know I'm not one for asking, but you have my heart in a knot and my mind scrambled like puzzle pieces.
I remembered the day so vividly.
I'm at the beach dancing in my overused sweater though it's the coldest night of winter , there you sit, trying to get the sand out of your shoe. You look up at me."You're truly beautiful." You said at a random.
And even thinking about it now makes my heart clench and my bones shatter as I sit in this dark bedroom.
Ripping myself into pieces, as I relive the memories we once shared.
I'm still in love with you

Strike one
The rain violently crashes against the ground
He would cry, but his screams are stuck in his throat
Tears, synchronize with the rain drops
Threatening to drown him if he dares to utter a word
Christians pray
Children play
Yet he sat there choking off of the words that he wrote
The candle light lighting the dark room as the moon failed to do its job
Strike two
One more word but the ink is gone
Frustration fills his veins and he sends the bottle crashing to the ground in a masquerade of glass
Why must He fail to put his feelings in a simple line?
A poem
A story
Anything to reveal his dreams
His visions
Could god just want him to die?
Without a single trace
It’s true
Strike Three
Why is He here
He slowly curls up
Awaiting his trial in hell as lightning illuminates the sky
A crash shakes the shack as he closes his eyes
Dream of his death
Stars unfold behind his closed eyelids
And music plays vividly as his waltz around the room with a beautiful mysterious damsel
Strike four
Another crash shakes the house so violently that He wakes
Springing up he runs over to shards that lay sprawled all over the ground
There in all of its glory is the splatter of ink
Looking now he can see a small bottle of paint
Using a brush that so swiftly moves with his hand
He creates the Image of the damsel at last
Her beauty could not be explained with words and now he knew
For she was his dreams and his stars, her singing was the song that he heard every time he closed his eyes
Small tears formed in his eyes, sliding down his cheeks
His damsel was long gone, for she passed away
Her beauty now scared him
Ripping it down from the wall that he had hung it, And throwing it catching it in the blaze of the candle light.
Fire rose from the damsel burning the home and the man inside as the rain tried to save him
It was too late
The fire sounded of her small whispers as the house became ash
Strike 5

For he saw nothing as beautiful as her
Her mind was so far in the clouds
Yet she was always there
To be near her was a blessing that he would thank god for everyday
She was of course, His damsel in shining armor
He knows that he will give his heart to someone else for nothing
And that nothing will ever stop him from loving her
So with this rose
He shall give his heart
For only a rose can come close to her beauty.

Desire
Here we meet again my old friend
I thought the constant greed would stop
But it's just gotten stronger
I now see you in my dreams as I sleep at night
You're a nightmare that I want to wake up from
Constantly ripping my soul into millions of pieces
My heart is no longer gold
It's bronze
And all thanks to you ,my friend
Desire
We've walked this road a million times
You're there when I close my eye's
I can see you parading across my eyelids
When I walk the street you pull on my hand knowing that my needs come first
Yet it is always your want first
Desire
I thought that this path that we constantly walked down was closed for re construction but you still force me to follow it
I no longer want to follow these petty wishes
Someone wake me up
But nobody can
Because  everyone around me is asleep
Being brainwashed by the selfish wants of
Desire

Are you gone?
We can't be done
Darling our love has just begun
Take my hand
won't you join me
In our spiraling wonderland
Try not to fall
But if you do
You're in luck
Because I'll be there to lift you up
Let life be
And maybe you'll truly see
A world of endless possibilities

So now you're leaving my side...
What can I do to make you stay?
I guess our bloom of love died
As it sat in the sand, withered in the sun and washed away
Can I hold your hand just one last time?
Darling we can dance to the sweet tune of cupid's lulubay
I hated my self when I made your smile turn to black
I constantly hope that my apology will change it to the way it used to be
But I know that what we had then...
We will never get back.