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SunFlower Feb 15
Anger frustration confusion and sadness.


I felt all six creep up
One by one they took their turns
Taking every last pieces I have left in me


I felt all six creep up in a discreet manner
Ugh I give up on this poem I can’t think of how to write it


I felt six creep up in a discreet manner.
I felt anger, confusion and now sadness.
I can’t even express how much I feel about this situation and the fact that I am not alone in it and I am not a victim of it and I feel like I am not in any way in the way I am in any way affected by it and I have no intention of being hurt or hurt by it or anything like that but I am not sure how to feel about it and I don’t know how to feel or how to feel and I feel about it but I feel like I have to feel like I am not being hurt and I feel like I am not in any way in the way I am and I feel like I am not feeling good about it and I feel like I am not even trying to be honest and I feel like I am not trying to be nice to me and I feel like I am not really understanding of it is just not being mean to me and I don’t know how to be honest and I don’t want to be honest with myself and I feel like I am not being mean and I feel like I am not saying anything to me and I don’t want to be mean to me and I don’t want to be rude to me and I don’t want to be kind of mean to you and I don’t want to be a **** to you and I don’t want to be a bad person to be mean to you and I don’t want to be a mean person to you and I don’t want to be mean to you and I don’t want to be rude to you and I don’t want to be hurt or hurt or anything I just want to be honest and I don’t want to be with you and I just want to be and I don’t want to be a **** to you and I don’t want to be a little bit of a **** to me and I don’t want to be mean to you know that I don’t want to be rude to you know that I don’t know what I don’t want to be honest with you know that I don’t know what I just want to be nice to you know that I don’t know what I want to be kind of mean to you know I don’t know what I want to be mean to you know that I don’t know what I want to be rude to you know that I don’t know what I don’t know I don’t want to be honest with you know I just don’t know what to say that I don’t know what to say to you I don’t know what to say to anybody else I don’t know what to say to anyone else I don’t even know what to say to somebody else I don’t care I don’t know what to say to them I don’t know what to say to them but I don’t know what to say to them because I don’t know what to say to them and I don’t know what to say to them so I don’t know what to say to them and I don’t want to say to them and I don’t want to be rude to them I don’t know what to you know what to say to you know what to say to them and I don’t want to be honest I don’t know what to say that I don’t know what to say that I don’t know what to say that I don’t know what to say that I don’t know what to say that I don’t know what to say that I don’t know what to say that I don’t know what to say that I don’t know what to say that I don’t know what to say that I don’t know what to say that I don’t know what to say
I don’t know what to do I don’t know what to do with my life I don’t know what to do and I don’t know what to do but I don’t know what to do so I don’t know what to do I’m not gonna do it I don’t know what to do or do I don’t know what to do it I just don’t know what to do I don’t know what to do

Im sorry. Im really sorry.
SunFlower Jun 2018
His bashful and gentle smile devoured me
All i can feel is his warmth spreading it's self against the cold air
I try to stop myself from smiling low key
but I lose control slowly and can't bare to look away but stare
SunFlower May 2017
I felt like I was just another yard sale
the un- wanted and used object
at least look at me and give me some respect
I’m not something to ignore
and put in a drawer
I use to be admired
but now I’m fired
no longer required
SunFlower May 2017
when I write, I release my pain

I unlock all of my restricted chains

When I write, I can see all of my thought appear on the thin colorless paper as I breathe my chest becomes sharper

When I write, I surrender all of my sufferings

my vision becomes blurry

and in the hopes that my tears won’t collapse

When I write, I express the words that have never been said before

I can burst out my emotions without grinning like a dolphin

I cover myself in each word as I draft my poems

Till the last tear drops, I will continue to write, and one day I’ll be okay

Sunflower
SunFlower Dec 2017
Who are you to tell me that you missed me
when all you did was cause me pain
who are you to tell me he did me no wrong
when you stood there watching him suffocate my soul
and beat the **** out of me
who are you to tell me you cared about me
when you kept your mouth shut when you knew he abused me
who are you to tell me that you loved me
when you walked out of my life when I needed you the most
Who are you to tell me that I broke your heart
when all I did was try to fix it
Who are you to tell me that you got my back
when all you did was stab it
Who are you to tell me that will never forget me
when I already have...
SunFlower Dec 2017
She was scared and choked by her mother
beaten and scratched by her sisters
and bruised by the glitch of what she called "Love."
SunFlower May 2017
It’s the sadness in your eyes that darkens your heart

you were like a piece of art

your white pale skin carried no marks nor wounds

your silky hair and royal navy eyes appeared to be so alluring your suspected you were undesirable

but you were terribly mistaken..

Sunflower

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