As I see your lips forming a curve
A smile is plastered on my face
You looked at me and greeted me with warm inviting smile
You didn't even warn me that you'll let me fall head over heels to you
I wish I'd wore my protective gear since then
If only my heart could wear a bullet proof from this unrequited love
And never feel the blood rushing out my veins and the thumps of my heart beat
But then you really a bad ** ****
You shot me down without even knowing it
And now I don't know if my heart beats normally or abnormally
It was in pieces like mirrors shattering
Like thunders lightning
And like blood never compatible
Or else Death shall fall upon me.

at the age of 10 i was molested
by the person i trusted
i tried telling her the truth yet she won't listen
for she thought i was capable of lying

yet in every pain, every fear, every drop of tears
i have learned that in order to survive
i have to move on and forget about my tragic past
surround myself with people i trust
it may not  be that easy, i know
but i will, i have to, and i'm going to

It's a four letter word with one syllable
Yet bears a heavy meaning
It can mean rest
It can mean loss
It can mean escape
It can mean the end
Death
It has the same meaning, bit a lot of interpretation
Death by violence
Death by disease
Death by suicide
Death by nature
We humans are obsessed with death
What is beyond it?
Is it really the end
If you died today what happens tomorrow?
What does it feel like?
Does it hurt
Does the pain last forever?
Death is forever
But is it really?

Invisibly, slowly, painfully, terminally ill
waiting at  death's door, i can't do this anymore
i want to scream but got tongue tied
i want to show them  how i feel
but it won reach their eyes

i fought hard, fought with all my strength
even fought against the darkest shadow
but i receive was pain

i feel so empty
this dark shadow has truly taken over me
help me
help me..

wanted
to
become
a
queen
of
my
own
circle

was  pale with dawn,
we  walked together in the garden
and looked unto the east and were silent
in the presence of the rising sun

This isn't a competition of who's prettier  
and i am not an opponent you need to remove from your sight
it's either you move out of my way or join me as i explore the adventure in life
You are my sister and not my competition
Imagine what we could do together
If you lower down your pride

it may sound cliche and all
but when i'm with you i won't fall
so stop  babbling nonsense and grow up
stop trying to compete with me
we both possess different gifts and beauty
You are my sister and not my competition

encourage her to dry her tears
and face her fears

Truth lies beneath your warm smile
that as time passed by
you've learned that in order to survive
you have to suffocate yourself with lies
telling you are loved
you are cared
you are blinded by hallucinations
you went to a place you called paradise
and filter your pain with i'm alright
in reality you are long dead
your soul is broken into pieces and shattered on the floor
bathe in your own tears
you wanted to tell the truth
you wanted not to hide
you wanted to tell them that you are suffering from anxiety, loneliness every night
that as she shut the door and said  Sleep tight
you took a blade and slits your beautiful skin and rest with tears in your eyes
you tried to hide your wounds with a smile and telling everybody you're fine

more than a **** body
a beautiful face and skills
They may not be everything
but they deserve to be cherished, loved, cared.

if i keep living
then i have to keep hurting

I met a lady in red with glasses on
She sits near the heavy stone
as i enter the room
she smiles and waved her hand