"You walk with-in my heart along the beaches
we once strolled.
It's sad that your not here, it leaves me bitter and cold."

Be pretty she said, wear clothes that are revealing so guys will look.
I don’t feel pretty even when people say I am, I don’t know why I always felt like this.
Second grade, I was wearing coats to hide my body.
Third grade, the teachers hated me.
Fourth grade, I was stealing trying to get attention from my parents
My family was falling apart and I was tired.
Fifth grade, they pulled me out of public school, I don’t remember much from this year.
Years started blending together and nothing mattered anymore.
When I was 13 I started self-harming no one knew what I was doing.
I skipped meals I thought it was a good idea at first.
I’m sorry I have been so much trouble mom, I didn’t mean to be.

Your eyes
As the ocean
Piercing through darkness.
My countess
Take me far away.
Take me to a place
That only contains us.
Your lips
Roses defined.
Kiss me untill
Everything falls away
And we are left
To cuddle in the clouds.
My countess
Breathe life into my soul
You are my everything
I will not fall.
You are the moon
Sitting so high,
You pierce the night sky
And fight all my demons away.
Yes its easy to say.
I love you
Now and forever
My queen,
My bae
:

I’m breathing but barely, why don’t you leave me alone.
Can’t you see when we were together I was suffocating.
You told me I wasn’t good enough for you, you told me to change so I did.
I stopped seeing my friends and I stopped talking to my family.
You held me down and told me I wasn’t worth your time
You broke up with me 20 times, coming back every time saying you were sorry.

You are my kith my kin, my one remaining daughter
But I struggle to love you as a father ought to
I've tried so hard again and again
But looking at you just causes me pain

I look in your eyes and all I can see
Is your sister looking back at me
I feel again my heart being wrenched
As the pain pulses back, agony unquenched

How can I be the best father to you
When all I can think is there should be two
I have failed you both, I can't love you that way
Since she didn't come home that awful day

I'd gladly swap places, let my daughters be free
That drunken driver may as well have killed me
I'm sorry I've failed the pair of you girls
To keep you safe and cherish you like pearls

You look so alike, it's scarily true
I try not to see her, just the beauty of you
But it's all I can do not to break down and cry
And cry and cry and cry and cry
Oh why oh why oh why oh why
Dear God,  why?

Im waiting for damnation
Im waiting to be killed.
Im waiting to be rejected.
No matter how hard i try
im never enough
Why?
See you think you are a **** god
And i am like some slave to you.
You said things would get bettet
You said i could be happy
But youre the same still
No difference.
You lied...again
What the ****?

im not much of a poet,
but his eyes look like comets
rushing to fall onto me,
being engulfed by earth's pull

im not much of a poet,
but i swear his skin
feels like the first drop of water
on a hot summer shower

im not much of a poet,
but his smile spreads across
my skyline like sunshine
on an early morning jog

im not much of a poet,
and he's not much of my poetry.