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Skyler M Oct 2017
I'm sitting on the floor,
As the room closes in before me,
Staring blankly at the pale paint,
It nears my tear-stained face,
A note slips under the door.

He says, let me in, let me in,
I'll open the door with nothing left to hide.

He's got his hand in mine,
We are both just as broken,
Our problems won't dissolve,
So we play with the devil.

He says, Let me in, Let me in,
I'll open the door with nothing left to hide.
Skyler M Jan 2018
I hope it is sufficient that the reason for my purpose is unknown,
I will try my own **** hardest to prevent my legs from sinking,
The forest surrounding me keeps caving into reckless abandon,
I will finally surrender so I'm back on the ground,
Rocking back and forth to try and plead,  "mercy me!"
Cause simply living feels like a force to reckoned with,
and I just want to get some sleep so that I can face the day,

Won't you let me sleep tonight?
Won't you let me sleep tonight?
Won't you?
Won't you?
Won't you let me sleep tonight?

Despite the ***** crimes closing in on me,
I absolutely cannot see the forest for the trees,
I understand what I need to be another lamb,
but I've been asking for help since the day I thought, "Why?"
I searched and found my soul inside the merciless trees,
Noticed that every hole that I found was deeper than the last,
Despite the fact that I know I've lost myself,
The sun will rise and I'll fear what I don't believe again.

Won't you let me sleep tonight?
Won't you let me sleep tonight?
Won't you?
Won't you?
Won't you let me sleep tonight?

I've been dragging myself around by the hair of my nape,
Searching for my dreams or the goal that I can reach,
Brought back from death for I was fearing life itself,
and for the timeless time that I was there,
I am back again to properly surrender my underestimated power,
Instead I'm slipping down the drain.

Won't you let me sleep tonight?
Won't you let me sleep tonight?
Won't you?
Won't you?
Won't you let me sleep tonight?
Skyler M Sep 2018
Trying to hard,
Looking to the future,
Never gonna make it but I hope yet,
I can hope,
Filling my dreams up to the seams,
Can you believe I'm still alive?
I'm just wondering tonight,
If you're alright.
Glancing out of the window,
Your eyes glazed over,
Speaking of bones and death thrones,
Please don't ever leave me without warning,
Always afraid you're gone every morning.
Skyler M Sep 2018
Hold my hand,
On this autumn evening,
Walk with me,
Far away from this place,
With your eyes I see,
Everything that I need.

You give me all these things,
And you buy me all these gifts,
But I don’t need them because all I’ve ever wanted is you.

Swing my hand,
Talk to me about your day I don’t mind,
Kiss me on the cheek,
And don’t let me walk too fast,
I don’t want to lose you,
Don’t doubt my love for you.

You give me all these things,
And buy me all these gifts,
But, girl I swear the only thing I need is your hand in mine.

Watch the sun set,
Cuddle up to my chest,
Let’s watch the world end,
Before our own eyes,
Hold my hand,
And let’s watch the world end,
Let’s watch the world end.
Skyler M Dec 2021
Now I’m no genius,
Just barely passed high school,
Couldn’t get through college,
And I can’t keep a **** job,
Maybe I’m being dramatic,
Or maybe you’re a ******* ****.

“You’re not disabled, you’re just a lazy ****”
Burned into my head,
“You’re not a man, you’re just manipulating us”
Burned into my head,
“You’re not suicidal, you’re just selfish.”
Burned into my head.

I’m whatever you say I am,
I don’t own anything when I’m here,
Can’t handle your ****-eating grin,
Want to knock your teeth right out,
But I’m too weak,
I’m burned out,
And I’m a ******* freak.

Good luck, bringing me home.
Cause you won’t see me anymore.
My seat will be empty for the holidays,
I know that you won’t care but…
Everyone else will.
Skyler M Dec 2019
Change this pace,
This year’s home is far away,
I’m okay with it,
This year I’m gonna stand high,
I’m okay with the sound of the future.

Reach out now,
This time I've got my harpoon,
I'm okay with defending you,
This winter has been the best of my last few years.
I'm okay with getting stuck.

I accept it.
Skyler M Dec 2018
Life is a highway, one way and no way else,
At least that's what they insist,
But it traps me inside a lane,
I can't get out of the crawling traffic,
Let's get out of the car,
Roll down your windows,
Escape into the ditches and cleverly hidden cabins of forests.

Keep moving,
Don't stop or else you might end up inside the car again,
Keep moving,
The sun will never dip if you follow it,
Keep moving,
Your dreams are wherever you are in the forest.

Life is a highway, one way and no way else,
But I like to think there's something more,
Perhaps a trail that leads thousands of miles away from where you started,
You'll pass by three legged deer and struck down trees,
Nothing you will pass will ever be familiar,
Like seeing through new eyes every mile you make alive.

Keep moving,
Don't stop or else you might end up inside the car again,
Keep moving,
The sun will never dip if you follow it,
Keep moving,
Your dreams are wherever you are in the forest.
Skyler M Dec 2021
I feel like buying a gun
Cause I’m not having any fun,
I’m done trying to run,
These days are coming undone,
No longer seeing the sun.

I can’t sleep for the life of me,
Why can’t these thoughts leave me be,
Im struggling to begin to see,
The forest for the trees.

Cry out every night,
God, save me from this plight,
I’m half a human as I write,
Hope I find a little light.

I don’t want to move on,
I keep seeing the same dawn,
It’s the same one I’ve always drawn,
Feeling like a plastic pawn,
I won’t be here for long.

I can’t sleep for the life of me,
Why can’t these thoughts leave me be?
I’m struggling to begin to see,
The forest for the trees.
Skyler M Feb 2018
Something pulls my feet from underneath the river's surface,
My eyes are drawn to a bright light at the other side,
It flashes mesmerizing colors and I'm leaning into the water,
My hands outreach for it's splendor as I truly start to render it's beauty,
I slip into the river and swim towards the light,
The tugging at my feet grows stronger as I get closer,
But I'm already on shore and I'm holding onto it's existence tightly,
The light glimmers as I hold it close in loving comfort,
I pray to whatever created me that it'll never leave me here to wallow underneath the river.
Skyler M Jan 2019
Dark is the room I was in,
I ran out of light bulbs so many years ago,
I've been sitting here waiting,
Not moving much,
Just hoping that I would get along just fine.
Skyler M Nov 2021
There’s a guilt associated with you,
A lingering sunset before darkness,
A winter breeze at the end of fall,
I don’t know how I feel about you.

Now I’ve kissed other people
Laid in their beds and hated their guts,
Watched as I grew farther from their touch,
Nothing seemed certain.
Not nearly as much as you.

If I were a smarter person, I’d have let you go,
You haunt my dreams these nights,
Bringing about a chorus of doubt,
Maybe I never should have said goodbye.
Skyler M Jun 2018
a genius machine.
through the time,
nobody saw you,
tell me are you okay?

waste my time, please.
I need you to be by my side,
even if you think you're a burden,
don't tell anybody that I died.

when I'm in my 20's,
tell me that you still care,
even if you're thousands of miles away.
i'll say it back if it's okay with you.
Skyler M Dec 2020
And they're cunning in their ways,
They're not absent-minded plays,
Cause they'll get what they want,
Even if it means you've got to rot.

And what happens when the immortal is killed?
Where does the ghost stay when he's forgotten?
When does the tyranny fall at the hands of the innocent?
Why is everyone so angry at everybody?

Memories left to produce mold,
Power that a dictator will hold,
Jump to the creek and cry out, "please"
"Whoever will I be?"

And what happens when the immortal is killed?
Where does the ghost stay when he's forgotten?
When does the tyranny fall at the hands of the innocent?
Why is everyone so angry at everybody?
Skyler M Jan 2020
Atop a self-made treehouse,
I’m a self-created personality,
Tree beneath, you’re my morality,
Clouds up above, weak spirituality.

Sitting on the edge,
Where the treeline meets the sky,
Not one of these birds know why,
But they’ve found that they cannot fly,
Skyler M Sep 2018
Pouring buckets of acid liquid from the golden sky,
Contrasting colors fade my killjoy heart,
No need for sympathy or wicker seas,
Veering through black rain in a stolen frame,
The voice in my head tells me I'm no longer alive,
Terrifying, melding, my world's colliding with suicide.

Long lost son, waiting for the golden sky to part it's acid liquid.

Killjoy heart found in a ditch, under the rainbow stars,
Throwing sympathy into dried up seas,
Crashed my frame and I'm collecting raindrops,
I know for sure that I'm no longer alive, stop lying,
Already pulled the trigger but I wish I wasn't speaking figuratively.

Long lost son, waiting for the golden sky to part it's acid liquid,
Long lost son, waiting for the golden sky to speak it's tears,
Long lost son, waiting for the golden sky to leave me alone.
Skyler M Mar 2018
When I look to the sky,
Don't ask me who I'm looking for,
Cause I'm just looking for anything,
Anyone at all.

An answer from space or energy itself.
If I knew whether it's real or not,
It'd defeat the whole purpose of searching.

If I said knew who I was asking for,
I'd be presumptuous and ignorant,
Who knows who could have built this.

When I look to the sky,
Don't ask what song I'm singing,
Cause I'm just making it up as I go along,
Along a make believe path.
Skyler M Dec 2021
I don’t know how to sing,
But it’s all I want to do,
And the floors give way,
To a whole new song,
I just can’t sing along,
Cause I was right the first time,
My voice still sounds so wrong.

Meshing together in a single spiral,
A passion-driven thought,
That’ll wrestle with logic,
I’m hooked to the fight,
A looping paradox.
Skyler M Dec 2017
You know you've lost yourself,
When the darkness from last night,
Seeps into the morning,
Filtering into your brain.

Watch yourself,
Take it easy,
Keep it slow.

You know you've lost your sight,
When the darkness from last night,
Seeps into the morning,
Behind both of your eyelids.

Watch yourself,
Take it easy,
Keep it slow.
Skyler M Nov 2017
Please, don't forget about me,
Cause If I forget about myself,
Someone's bound to as well,
Though I can't say that for the rest of my life.

I know that I am lost,
but I know that you are lost as well,
Maybe we can guide each other to light?

Shadows are chasing me,
Through more empty stairwells,
As the memories are displayed,
Broken and untouched on the walls.

I know that I am lost,
but I know that you are lost as well,
Maybe we can be light for each others eyes?
Skyler M Aug 2018
Let's take a walk out onto the roof tops,
Look out over our boring suburban neighborhoods,
Are you satisfied with your life?

"Hey, where are you going tonight?
I'm getting tired of losing all my friends,
Could you stay a little longer?"

Every night that I'm alone on the roof,
I am missing all of you,
Memories are all I have at this point,
Everything feels like it's moving counter-wise.

"Hey, where are you going tonight?
I'm getting tired of losing all my friends,
Could you stay a little longer?"

These ghost stick alongside me for now,
They always talk about how stupid I am,
Never allowed to leave my side,
I need all of my friends back.

Throw me back in time,
Even if it kills me,
I don't like being alone,
Why am I alone?

"Hey, where are you going tonight?
I'm getting tired of losing all my friends,
Could you stay a little longer?"
Skyler M Jan 2023
We're so lovable,
Yet so fuckable,
Think we’re functional?
No, just dysfunctional.

Put it in reverse,
Wait here comes the hearse!

Quickly now,
Bring it down,
Not a sound,
Hearts pound,
They surround.
Skyler M Nov 2017
Can't you see,
You are lovely,
Lighting up my day,
No matter what you say.

A heart of gold,
That cannot be sold,
Take my hand and more,
We will be able to soar.

Can't you see,
You are lovely,
Your hands are wrapped in roses,
Warming up the coldest of noses.

You won't forgive yourself,
Leaving all your hate on the bookshelf,
Why won't you believe me?

Can't you see,
You are lovely,
The clouds are a shade of pink,
But still you rethink.
For my best friend who doesn't believe she is worthy.
Skyler M Feb 2018
Can't you see what I see,
You are lovely,
It's framed in my head, undoubtedly.

You light up the darkest nights,
No matter what you say,
No matter how much my edges fray.

Can't you see what I see,
You are lovely,
It's framed in my head, undoubtedly.

Your hands are wrapped in roses,
Warming up the coldest of noses,
No matter how much you oppose it.

Can't you see what I see,
You are lovely,
It's framed in my head, undoubtedly.
Why won't you believe me?

Why won't you believe me?
Skyler M Jun 2021
Intoxicated on your medication
Everybody compares you to drugs
Is it because
You're just so
Toxic yet lovable?

Abandon me on the park bench
Leave me to get high
All alone, on my own
The stars don't seem as bright
We think you're
Just oh so
Lonely yet charming.

Drop our phone call when I'm stranded
Just off of Main Street
Didn't word myself very well
So I'll walk home
You'll feel bad
Only when I get swept away
By traffic and rain.

Romantic isn't your style
You admitted to me
While I was dying on the wayside
Over by eastern tide
Another night again
I guess, I'll walk myself home
As a heartbroken ghost.

Intoxicated on your medication
Everybody compares you to drugs
Is it because
You're just so
Toxic yet lovable?
Singers always talk about a drug-like lover...
They usually seem to ****. A lot.
So here's a character dealing with said 'drug'
Skyler M Jan 2018
I thought I’d be okay,
I thought it was gone,
The feeling in the pit of my stomach raged on,
I want to puke my guts out because of you,
But not because I hate you,
But because I love you.

Is this lovesickness? I can’t have you, that’s okay.
But maybe you hate me and that’s what’s getting to my head.
I want you to know that I only want the best for you,
I’m just losing my mind down the toilet.

Spending hours on end thinking about your response,
I know I’m selfish and pathetic as hell,
The truth is killing my bones,
But I don’t expect anything back because I’m perfectly content as it is, as we are.

Is this lovesickness? I can’t have you, that’s okay.
But maybe you hate me and that’s what’s getting to my head.
I want you to know that I only want the best for you,
I’m just losing my mind down the toilet.
Skyler M Dec 2021
So distant from the future yet so close to the past,
This barrier that prevents me from taking one more step,
Eyes to the ground I won't make eye contact,
These greedy beings are far too rough to me.

Cease to exist,
Won't be fixed,
Down the list,
I'm told I'm missed,
It hurts like an engorged cyst.

Wringing my bones of the infectious mold,
Pay God a sum to fix me with venomous tongues,
I won't bathe in the pity that a loved one engorges on,
All day and every night till the very day I die.

Cease to exist,
Won't be fixed,
Down the list,
I'm told I'm missed,
It hurts like an engorged cyst.

Waterboard these treasonous instincts,
Tomorrow's a new day to forgive you of the infliction,
Another wine cup made from Jesus that I won't drink,
I've kissed Lucifer and told him God is nobody worth loving,
Cause if God won't love me for who I was and who I became,
Then God doesn't deserve to breed his impotence and greed.

Yet.
In all his glory, he shines down on the sinners,
Promising to be the golden riches we lust after,
He no longer deserves capitalization for further polluting,
O' our wretched hands.
Skyler M Dec 2018
When you look upon yourself in the mirror,
Do you see what I see?
Because the way you look away when I say,
"You're amazing."
Just gives me proof that you're out of this world,
It's okay, It's okay, it's okay.

It's time for you to learn,
To learn to love yourself.

You're framed inside a picture,
That's moving out of the gallery,
And your eyes hold the stars,
While your hands hold the torch,
Of all the art in the gallery you're the most stunning.

It's time for you to learn,
To learn to love yourself.

And when the sun sets on the hills,
It reminds me of your smile,
Call me cheesy and a dork now if you want,
But I'm telling you the truth, my dear,
It's the truth,
So for me,
Could you find a way,
To love yourself.
Skyler M Sep 2024
Annihilate my future,
Every prospect,
Every opportunity,
Every sinking feeling.

Change my trajectory,
Through drugs,
Through alcohol,
Through self-hatred.

Baby, I self-destruct,
Countdown from,
5
4
3
2
1

Lonely at the edge of the world,
With only me, myself, and I to blame,
Don't you dare pity my M.A.D.,
Berate me as you wish and must,
Remind me of how I got here,
My own selfish determination,
It's me and my mistakes,
Here, at the edge of the world,
Here, at the end of the timeline,
Here, at an ergo sum of my lifetime.
Skyler M Nov 2017
This pen is my weapon,
The words I use to tear away from abuse,
With every night that passes,
I'm left more soulless than before.

There's no escaping,
I might as well make it good,
While I can.

I can't write a word without telling myself,
"Where will the time go?" I say,
"When you're wasting your words on ten sheets of paper." I cry,
Time doesn't matter to me when my heart is free.

There's no escaping,
I might as well make it good,
While I can.
Skyler M Jan 2023
What do they make of me?
Am I a mistake or a prodigy?
It's really not too hard to see,
I’m just a liability.

Pulling at my skin,
Pulling out the pin,
Loving my sin,
Loving to win.
Skyler M Apr 2018
Make room,
Cause I'm hopping on,
The Amtrak,
Headed to wherever I may go.

Whether I'll be dead within two years,
Or maybe I'll be living mediocrely, boringly.
If dreams really came true then I'd be onstage,
Singing out the times I wanted to cry and die.

Make room,
Cause I'm not waiting for you,
My friends have all gone,
I don't know where they went but I'm doing just fine.

Maroon blood on bathroom floors,
Is all I can see at night,
Makes me wonder where I'll be alive, tomorrow.
Well, don't stop me now.

Make room,
Cause you're not part of this,
I've got things to see and things to do,
Don't control me,
Just make room.
Just make room.
Skyler M Jul 2018
I am a nearly burnt out star,
Venus hates my guts,
Sun won't look at me,
Mars is even spreading lies.

Mama Moon, will I die soon?
I've had enough of you,
Mama Moon, sing me a tune.
I've got my hand on a gun,
Mama Moon, before it's afternoon.

I am about to implode and explode,
Jupiter is king of my life,
Pluto won't let me go,
Mercury seems to be dead.

Mama Moon, will I die soon?
I've have enough of you,
Mama Moon, sing me a tune,
I've got my hand on a gun,
Mama Moon, and now it's afternoon.
Skyler M Mar 2024
Something starts to surface,
Coming up from the mantle,
Praying for our own demise,
I suppose it's best to sever our ties.

I know I'm a bit of a let down,
A fading creature losing it's royal crown,
And it's happening so fast I'll drown,
Gone and drowned by now.
Skyler M Dec 2017
This isn't what you think is true,
This isn't what you believe is right,
This isn't what you see to be light,
This isn't what you seek for forgiveness.

What you think you know,
Becomes what you'll never know,
So won't you find another way?

This isn't what you foresee,
This isn't what you can be,
This isn't what you wanted to happen,
This isn't what you seek under lighthouses of fog.

Burning down the house,
So you can say goodbye,
Cause you're so terrified.

This isn't where you sleep,
This isn't where you abandon your grief,
This isn't where you carry my burden for me,
This isn't where you keep your demons.

Mary Jane, dear,
I'm losing your mind,
On the international highway,
Is this what I think is right?
Skyler M Jun 2018
Being myself hurts and I wish I could snap my fingers and make things disappear but,
My eyes are glued to the bottom of my chin,
I can't look away from the things on my chest,
And I can't get rid of the past,
This weight that rests on my throat and on my chest,
It holds me down as I cry out.

Hey friend, do you want to exchange?
I know you're feeling a little down about yourself as well,
I've got something you don't so why don't we make a deal?
We can curse whoever for making this mistake together.

When I'm at home and laying in bed,
My mind tends to make up scenarios,
Where my eyes are in my sockets and I can see the world in full color,
Only a little scruff showing itself on my chin,
Or maybe even being confident in the voice that I live with,
But I wake out of these visions and breath before I cry.

Hey friend, do you want to exchange?
I know you're feeling a little down about yourself as well,
I've got something you don't so why don't we make a deal?
We can curse the heavens for making this mistake together.

I hope you're doing okay,
I know it's been hard,
It's never easy for us,
but hey, why don't you stay and talk awhile?
Let's curse whatever made us this way even if we're talking to ourselves.
Even if we are talking to ourselves.
Skyler M Nov 2020
I hope that everything I know,
Will be turned into the snow,
To melt away into the gutter with my sorrow.

And if I'm able to face my soul,
Without wondering when I'll take a toll..

Tumbling down is skilled if anything,
So break my toes from the inside.

Everybody understands it except you,
Or maybe nobody really understands and you're just a lost soul like me.

Don't you dare call me cause you're just a *****,
Well, all I really do is doubt you.
Skyler M Aug 2024
When the sky loses its sun,
And my days turn hollow,
Alongside my makeshift body,
I make my own, create my sun.

In the form of the menial,
The unwanted forms of joy,
Have to become my Earth,
As a morphed moon tugs the tides.

I’ve learned that cycles,
Must be met with a fire,
A yearning for survival,
That no one can see.

In the form of the menial,
The unwanted forms of joy,
Have to become my Earth,
As a morphed moon tugs the tides.

I am my own best enemy,
And they say you’d best keep them close.

The problem always becomes,
When I’m so completely blinded,
Lost within the impenetrable dark and,
Lead by the crescent moon into,
An utterly devastating state,
It’s only then that I will ask,
“Oh god, what have I become?”

“What have I become?”

In the form of the menial,
The unwanted forms of joy,
Have to become my Earth,
As a morphing moon tugs the tides.
Skyler M May 2019
Black leather chair with empty classroom desks,
Summer is catching up with a piña colada in its hand,
****, let's find a chill space 'cause I'm sick today,
Empty halls with spilled green tea, it's slicked the ground,

Ugly face, Be Bold, Colorful skull, and Miss Substitute,
Lined up in a bright pink row,
Explore, Target, In the now,
The Great Gatsby, I forgot to read it, am I gonna pass well I don't know.

Reflections from soda cans with my face,
*****, greasy black laptop screen,
Kick it back cause I don't give a ****,
You're a ****** and I'm so much dumber.

****** LED light up my room so I can catch my target,
Which sits on my bed as I sit at my desk,
Well boys will be boys as he punches me for being mean,
I'm 'bout just eighteen and I haven't learned anything.
Skyler M Mar 2019
Green and yellow,
What the hell does it mean,
When it hazes over my eyes,
Like a lazy autumn evening,
I keep being called lazy,
And I am, God knows I am.

"Just stop with these colors,
They aren't very good metaphors,
Cause nobody knows what you mean,
And you're just a stupid kid,
Walking a lonesome road,
All your friends will die one day,
But not before you do."

There goes that voice in my cranium,
Spewing and brewing those maddening sentences,
I know for a fact that It's already pact,
I've got a future,
I just need some time to suture,
This broken underlying voice,
He doesn't know that he has a choice,
To be happy or sad,
It's been sad for all this time,
I'm urging him on to make the decision for happiness.
Skyler M Feb 2018
I refrain as my frame,
Continuously lies as I let out many unforgiving sighs,
I notice the water is deeper so I falter,
Then he calls me blasphemous as I become slowly passionless,
But that's just fine cause I don't need to follow him into the hollow,
I've got time to strive for my lifeline.
Skyler M Jun 2018
Flood my room with yellow,
The color of the sunlight streaming through the blinds,
And when I gaze at you,
I see everything clearly again.

I know you hate your eyes,
But when I gaze into those irises,
They remind me of milk chocolate,
And they make me melt.

Deep pools of half-melted memories,
I should be over it, I know,
But I miss your gentle laugh,
When you fell asleep on my lap.

Big blue lake of open windows,
That breeze that swept your hair into your face,
And I brushed it away to find that you were gone,
I don't know what I did wrong but-

I know you hated your eyes,
But when I gazed into those irises,
They reminded me of milk chocolate,
And they made me melt.

I hope you're well now-
Do you ever think of me?
And when you do,
was I enough?
Cause you were for me.
Skyler M Oct 2021
Deprived of insecurity,
Lack of thought processes,
Possesses me to take action,
You won't like my action though.

I'll be alright,
Just forget me.
I swear I'm no good,
Mind-melded to absolute rubbage.

Held up in a suspension,
Of a singular emotion,
Rotation to my own damnation,
It's time I started eviction.

I'll be alright,
Just forget me,
I swear I'm no good,
Mind-melded to absolute rubbage.
Skyler M Aug 2018
Walls keep closing into my frame,
Temperature skyrockets as I stare until my own eyes burn away,
I can't sleep at night when all my friends are dead or gone,
Eating my own ****** guts on the clothes-ridden floor.
Emotions are all either dead or overpowering.

What makes you think of the stars?
Does it ever keep you up at night?
What is it like to know you'll be alright?
All I ever get from sleep are scars.

Settled into a little room,
Not enough to hold all of my missing friends.
Every day is the same I want out of it now.
I wonder if there will ever be a day when I won't want to burn away.

What makes you doubt yourself?
And does it ever keep you up at night?
Tell me, what is it like to know that everything's alright?
All I ever get from sleep is waking up to the same old shelf.

If they really cared they would text me back,
I only asked for help once and now I'm off the hook,
My only thought is that it's all my fault,
And you wonder why I'm not alright.

Wish I could get sent to space and witness an exploding star,
Nothing feels right anymore with only four corners,
Am I an animal for thinking I should die,
Looking at my hands that almost appear to be bleeding,
Green is all I see from head to toe,
Lights dim and I lay myself to sleep.
Skyler M Nov 2018
Shaking down my clothes,
Searching for those last puzzle pieces,
To my life they could resolve everything,
Change the way I perceive my own time,
The possibility has me running,
Tossing over ***** laundry and disheveled beds.

Those nights that freeze my attempts,
I keep seeing those corner pieces out of the corner of my eyes,
Every-time I turn around in my head,
I've gotten the big picture but I'm always craving more,
So don't give up on me now.
Don't give up on me now.
Don't give up on me now.
Don't give up on me now.
Please
Skyler M Oct 2017
Hope you resent me
Cause once I leave
You won't have to miss my eyes
You won't have to miss my hands
You won't have to miss my voice

Think your way out of this maze
Stay positive and lay yourself in a bed of flowers
Your rotting corpse killing the plantation
Did you really think that was the solution?

Throw me all your hate
So when I leave
I won't have to miss your eyes
I won't have to miss your hands
I won't have to miss your voice
Skyler M Jan 2018
Remind me Mister Pills,
of when I overdosed.
Remind me Mister Pills,
Of my hallucinations afterwards.
Remind me Mister Pills,
of my failing heart.
Remind me Mister Pills,
That you weren't there
Skyler M Mar 2018
I take these trees and pretend you're there.
I stole these arms to fake my own death.
I stormed the city and got ran over by a taxi cab.
I went back and cried to the heavens.
This isn't easy so leave my body be.
I take these trees and pretend you didn't leave.

Mister Spirit,
How do I speak?
Mister Spirit,
When will I die?
Mister Spirit,
How do you speak?

I follow mounds of burnt down trees and hope it leads me to the will for living.
I stole a gun to **** and undo my existence.
I yell torment as the wind whispers my name.
I felt cold fingers on my shoulder and I know who's here.

Mister Spirit,
How do I speak? (to you)
Mister Spirit,
When will I die? (at last)
Mister Spirit,
How do you speak? (to us)

I only want to scream and cry but I'm held back.
I know my brain is sick and I'm trying to heal it back.
I sink into songs of life but spit out death.
I hate every God alive.
I despise every word you never spoke.
I desperately need your touch on my head.
Lean me back, into the kingdom.
Skyler M Dec 2017
A misty lake,
The cold air,
And my cold feet,
Gentle eyes defeat all the demons,
That shadow my lids.

They walk through the lake,
I can't see nor reach them,
But I can feel their breath on my skin,
Ripping and tearing.

I can see the other side,
The green trees,
peacefully standing,
Almost tauntingly.

I can feel my knees hit the dock,
The rusty nails digging into my flesh,
As the tide washes over my burdened back,
I slip away into the waves.

A still heart,
Polluted with suicide,
Darkened from all the infected scars,
I'll be ****** if I say anything.

Perhaps it'll help if I close my mouth,
Don't speak my mind,
Otherwise it'll burn my lungs,
They don't like it when I speak.

The misty lake,
Tugs at my rusted knees,
But the pain from the nails,
Hold me there.
Skyler M Nov 2021
It's late this night,
We're not in bed,
And we're lit by the fairy lights,
You're in date clothes,
And I'm in my pajamas.
Speaker's turned too high,
It's okay though.

I just hate to see you this way,
You're swaying but not for the music,
And the light in your eyes is dulled,
Cause the toxin is in your system.

I'm getting tired,
You're telling me things,
I can't understand what you're saying,
So it's goodnight,
Cause it hurts to see you,
The thumps upstairs are scaring me.

I think I hate drunk people,
I really hate when you're drunk,
You said you'd never get drunk again.
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Skyler M Oct 2021
Im tired of pretending that Im any good at singing,
Cause my vocal cords crack and groan at every note,
Maybe I don't drink enough water,
or maybe my throat is just sick of me singing.

I don't know anything more than four cords,
My guitar doesn't see much use except abuse,
Although my piano just might be a *******,
I'm just a fool with a tool to speak his muse.

I wanna find it inside of myself,
A driving passion to bring money home,
Cause I'm sitting here with nothing,
Except a couple dollars to my name.

The poems I write are far too basic,
Nobody likes them but to be fair neither do I,
I can't show my face to anybody now,
Cause the porcelain is beginning to break.

It's chipping away, away, away...
Down the drain, away, away, away...
And now I sway, away, away, away...
In my room as a dull tool who loves music,
away, away, away...
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