Shannon: Poems

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Shannon Sep 2019

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A wobble of the lip
Or just a sad thought
He’ll notice right away
And ask if you’re okay.
That’s the kind of man my father is
And the person I aspire to be

at a lost

Shannon May 2020

at a lost

this world is unfair
just one word from one person is enough to make me crumble
i hate it
i hate that i'm like this
i hate that i feel this way
my head knows things
my heart feels things;
Different things
if only it was easy to build me back up
but it's not
if only I was capable of putting it into words
and if only I had the courage to show these words to someone
but i Don't
and i hate it

but truth is, i don't know what to do about it
I'm At A Lost About All Of It

Betrayal

Shannon Oct 2019

Betrayal

My choice of words may come off a little strong,
But who are you to judge how it really feels?
I finally figured out why it hurts so much
It’s because I trusted you
I confided in you, and you in me
We were a team
I felt what it was like to have a best friend

Whatever people said, thought or did
It didn’t matter as much
Because I had you
Didn’t matter if I didn’t have a lot of friends
Because you were enough

So now, I don’t know what to do
I’m hurt and lonely
I haven’t dealt with these feelings in a while,
Not on my own

It seems like I’m losing everyone around me
I thought I was doing the right thing?
I don’t know anymore

All I know is that once again,
I’m getting a taste of betrayal
And I really wish I could spit it out,
But I can’t do that
Because I still care about you

Sorry for my late night rambling.. just needed to get that off my chest.

#losing #*** #friend

Growing Up

Shannon Dec 2019

Growing Up

As a child, you long to be a year older;
how fun will it be when I get a bigger bed
how fun will it be when I get a phone
how fun will it be when I finally get to drive
But what's ironic, is how once you've realized the weight of the responsibility that accompanies these things...

You Wish You'd Never Grown Up.

growing up is fun but ***** at the same time..

happiness

Shannon Dec 2019

happiness

happiness is not fearing the ending.
it's being excited about the beginning
happiness is not being scared of suffering, of hurting, of dying.
happiness is living the moment at its best, knowing it could end any second, but not caring.
happiness is so strong that sometimes it is hard to express.
because happiness comes from deep within you.

wrote this a while ago ;)

~Her~

Shannon Sep 2019

~Her~

She didn’t know what a beautiful soul she had
Her dreams, her goals
How far they could have lead her
If only she had let them lead

Maybe she’d have a taste of happiness
The kind she can only imagine now
Sitting on the floor behind her bedroom door

A knock on the door
A voice
As a spark of hope reaches her eyes
She lets it go

People will wonder what they failed to see
And she will never know what it is to be
Because she can imagine that it’s all a dream,
But her sleep is far too deep

I don’t mean to trigger anyone and if I did I’m truly sorry. I just think it’s important to talk about.

#suicideprevention #loveyourself

Hypocrite

Shannon Sep 2019

Hypocrite

What’s a hypocrite?
Someone with a facade
Someone who says something but means another
Someone who doesn’t say the whole truth
Why do I feel like a hypocrite?

I don’t lie
No move is calculated
At least, most of the time
I like spending time with you but I keep myself from doing so
To protect myself
From what?
Your influence

I know it’s bad
I know I’m doing the right thing
So why do I feel like a hypocrite?
When you say “I love you” I know I can never mean it as much
But how much could you really mean it?
You don’t know what real love is

But I do
So I guess I’m not so much of a hypocrite
Because when I say “I love you”, I know what it means
Which is why I can say it to you
Truthfully

Again, feel free to interpret ;)

#real #love

I wish

Shannon Sep 2019

I wish

Why can’t you be like me?
One of your own but with the same beliefs
Wouldn’t that make it so much easier?
They say diversity is what makes us unique
But who made the norms for diversity
To what extent can we be diverse?

We can’t possibly be here for no reason
Which means we have something to accomplish
Are we doing that?
Or is the world too emerged in it’s diversity to actually search
What it sees as important, is it really?

Who are we to know?
Who are we to make our own decisions without a care in the world about how it may affect others?

How can one know where to go if he doesn’t know his current location?
Sure life is a path
But what kind of path?

We only see what’s up close
Someone else sees the bigger picture and is trying to warn us about the huge rock ahead
Will you ignore the helping hand?

If so, why?
Because of arrogance?
Wanting to prove you can do it on your own like a foolish child would do?
Well, I took that hand
And if only you knew how I wish you would take it too
So I could love you freely, deeply and without restraint

But I guess it’s not that easy
And I can’t force you either
But still, I wish

Feel free to interpret ~

persona

Shannon Dec 2019

persona

do you know what is hidden behind the bubbly personality?
if it popped, what would be left of me?
is this me or a persona I created
I've been lying to myself for so long I don't know anymore
how high can I fly before it bursts and I have no choice but to find out...

Who am I without my bubble?

the struggles of always being happy.

#bubblypersonality

precious

Shannon Apr 2020

precious

I wonder what it feels like to give up what's most precious to you

grief from losing that part of you
or
satisfaction from gifting it

I hope it's the latter.

sanity

Shannon Nov 2019

sanity

in the end, I think none of us really are sane.
and that's what makes me insane.

#justthoughts

What we see

Shannon Sep 2019

What we see

I sometimes enjoy looking at the world through my blurry vision
Seeing the world as a big picture rather than in detail
It hides the imperfections
But sadly, the details get hidden too
And that’s what makes it so beautiful

So I put my glasses back on
The imperfections are back
I know they never disappeared in the first place
But that doesn’t mean I have to give them any attention
I can choose what I want to see and ignore the rest
So I will

Written a while back...
: just a little perspective on how I see the world ;)

#14yearoldme #positivity

You

Shannon Apr 2020

You

I'm not you yet
but I'll be you soon
Don't ever change
for I believe in you

I want to love you
better than I do now
Build me up
so I can be proud

Gain wisdom
and share it with me
So I'll have the freedom
of loving who I'll be

becoming you..

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