Jumbled up in my mind
.
What can I write?

I love him
I tell myself
I know that
We will be together forever
I don’t believe that
We could be separated
My thoughts tell me that
He’s the love of my life
Sometimes my heart lies and says
I could live an eternity
Without him
Like my friends say
“We’re perfect for each other”
And you can’t tell me
He’s not the one.

Now read from bottom to top.

I find more comfort in strangers
than my family

He was:
hard to hold
but impossible
to forget.

He could show you forever
In a single glance;
a glimpse into love,
untimely romance.

when I try to understand
the immensity of what I feel;

My heart on the line,
his hand on the reel.

My soul is exhausted,
it whispers for me to rest
But my heart says, “Fight. Don't give in. This is a test.”

My brain says “Do whatever you want.”
and  it wasn't a lie
So I dropped my head, held your hand tight
while I hoped to die

Help me to understand.

Drrrriiivve me crazy
That’s what it’s like
I drove me crazy

Help me to understand

Take your time listening to me.
Listen to who I am
Not just the voice inside your head
I am

Help me to understand

Who are you to me?
I am the voice who is guiding you to be free

Help to me to understand

I don’t think I’m the one for you
I’m not here to make you blue.

Help me to understand

Who tf are you?