What Else Should I Resort to ?
Leaves cling to branches
Until they dry out
It's like an oath made
Die with its branch

Even when the apex
Turns from green to dry brown
It sinks to the ground
To live in silence

That's the admiration
Worth rooting for
But we are humans
Bowing to suffering
Is never an alternative

Wondering,
Wandering mind
Resorts to delusion
Fiasco aspirations
But I'm still breathing
Still existing.

What if_
I could levitate
Into another century
One where am the best version of me ?

Where I get to stay and no judgements
Breathe like there no problems
Sleep like I have no ambitions
Dress without cautions
Sickness non existent
Smile
With no precaution
That would be me
That is me.

Then I fall back into reality
Where everything has failed
What else...
Should I resort to !

I like the way you talk
The way you dress
The way you smile
I like the way you write

When you laugh
Your eyes fill with vapour of life
When you talk
It like listening to a greatest deliverance
When you sing
Its like hearing a river flow

Your a male medusa
Your appearance leaves me frozen
Struck with ecstasy when you smile
Your perfume
A scent so angelic

Partially living
If you leave earth
Declaration of tremor
A world without your existence

While you speak...
I would proudly say pardon
Never shall I speak my mind

So... pardon please

Rushing to follow
Man with a black jacket, grey trousers
On an empty street
haste his walk is
Couldn't yell
How can I tarnish my dignity
Only crush Ive ever had
Tip toe running to catch up

I remember his smile
Among his friends, he was majesty
His walk was glamorous
The only time we cross paths
He inquired
'Is this the dining hall ? "
Stummering
A talent I wasn't born with nor knew of
Y..e..sss ahmm oh, definitely, dinning yea. YES
Never forgiven myself

Two years since
I see his back am sure his the one
I vow to confess today

Before lights turn red
Ran
Grabbed his hand_ excuse me
At the zebra cross he turned
A mistaken identity

Sight in disbelief
Heart in agony
Mind in recess
I thought I saw

Alive
Morning walk with a smile
Sublime
Worrying decision to make
But ! hey
I shall break the ice
Urgency of change
Scared as a buried man alive
Belief a treasure to possess
God willing...
Will see where it goes
I promise to go onward
I shall challenge mistakes
Even in the worst times
For a step forward

I wasn't this bad
Once a saint
Nonetheless, I prefer insolence
The ones I fed
Sabotaged, betrayed
Killed innocence

The worst kind of hurt is betrayal

I shall watch you thrive on streets
Worship most high for mercy

You'll be ignored
Wish come true
Prayers answered

Not a punishment
It's freedom desired

The next time
Might be lenient
The goodness I possess
Never allows evil to thrive

Today's moonlight
When it gets tough
Never reminiscence
Live
Gates are closed

What if I said no

Now
Screaming
Weary in pieces
Talking with myself
Pain each bone
Walk paths troubled
Alone in a forest

Before
Not a soul abandoned
Least is to ever see sadness
Safe haven , I was
Merry with everyone

I request assistance
All ran
Others chatter laughter

Oblivious of most hated
Adamant  to accept
Till too late

Will I ever forgive ?


Burden of regret
I should have said no

When I recover
Things shall change
Defend a heart

Self sufficient
Lesson learned

Said something dense
Breathe in, breathe out
Face crossroads with thoughts

But eyes don't lie

Frown like a fiery pulse
Cold turns hot

Eyes don't blink
Through winds
A straight gaze
Not obstructed

In rain
Still unbreakable
Five minutes of fierceness

Till exit
Deadly thoughts calm down
Glare to glow
Stiff lessens

Else around
On best behavior

When you ask what just happened
Don't know the answer