I'm fighting a war inside my head again,
I don't know why it's always life or death inside my brain,
There's no gray areas in my gray matter,
Only black and white, with zero color,
It gets bleak in there, and darker by the day,
I'm slowly going more than more insane,
I thought I hit my lowest point long ago,
But I feel like I'll be there again, before I know,
And I try to drop hints, but you seem to leave them in the cold,
But I get it, I'm the best masker or so I've been told,
So unless I just come right out and tell you my feelings,
You'll go on thinking I'm okay, without a hint of how I'm reeling,
Off balance on the inside, stumbling around underground,
Cause in my head I'll never be out of that basement with it's sounds,
I'm just always going to be stuck in my childhood trauma,
A head-case without a warning label, just asking for her Mama,

But no one can fix this for my inner child,
She's stuck in her cage, just in the corner trying to hide,
Because someone hurt us too much to ever really be okay,
So until the day I die, by my own hand or God's, I'll fake,
Fake happiness, fake living, I'm a zombie without a patient zero tag,
Just another millennial on too many meds, wishing to be fixed with everything they have,

And yeah, I'm like alphabet soup, BPD, PTSD, OCD,
Bipolar, alcoholic and addict maybe, and a few other things,
Genetics and circumstance ******* me over without asking,
And now I'm stuck in my head every day wondering if I'm living,
Another day in this forsaken world, or should I just slit my wrists,
Find something to overdose on, or maybe just take a risk,
Cause sometimes when I feed my impulsive beast,
The voices shut up for just a beat,
And yeah, that's bitten me before, but not that bad,
So I haven't learned my lesson, not quite yet,
I just wanna drink myself to forgetting,
That I even wrote something so full of feeling,
Smoke a J, and not remember all my problems in the morning,
Because I'm tired, so tired of remembering,
Carpet stains and moans of pleasure,
Wash my hands over and over,
And maybe one day it'll all be done,
But until that day, I'll be on the run,

But no one can fix this for my inner child,
She's stuck in her cage, just in the corner trying to hide,
Because someone hurt us too much to ever really be okay,
So until the day I die, by my own hand or God's, I'll fake,
Fake happiness, fake living, I'm a zombie without a patient zero tag,
Just another millennial on too many meds, wishing to be fixed with everything they have.

You're too much of a coward to admit the truth,
what happened between us was nothing new,
But you're a weak man,
And therefore you can't stand,
By my side, no,
Please just go,
You're not a lion baby,
Just scared, and kinda shady,
Like a newborn lamb,
You'll be slaughtered when they understand,
I'm not crazy and you're a liar,
I hope your words get dragged through the fire,
And brought to the light for how wrong they were,
That you get everything you deserve,

You're so weak,
Not the man you pretend to be,
But I see you or who you really are,
And that scares you so much, you tried to run far,
To get away from the truth in my eyes,
That see through all your lies,
So this is goodbye, Babe,
And this time, There's nothing left to say,

You're a man with no morals,
And the way you treated me was horrible,
Couldn't admit you loved me,
Where anyone could see,
I was the side *****,
And that's no way to live,
So I'm done with your games,
That you like to play,
Have fun in your world so plastic,
It's gotta be ******* toxic,
And I hope you choke on your lies,
As I walk away one last time,
You called me weak once,
But you're a liar, so here's the truth,

You're the one who's weak,
Not the man you pretend to be,
But I see you or who you really are,
And that scares you so much, you tried to run far,
To get away from the truth in my eyes,
That see through all your lies,
So this is goodbye, Babe,
And this time, There's nothing left to say.