Looks as though I've lost my friend.
Seems she broke while trying to bend.
Thought we'd find a way to blend.
Together we would endure that dreadful sin.
But your shattered heart would not mend.

Don't tell me goodbye... again.

Broken Silence...we should have kept,
all the reasons that you wept.
Slipped right by me while I slept.
Didn't hear you as you left.
Now my broken heart shall not mend.

If you tell me goodbye... again.

Life is hard and often unfair.
Doesn't mean that no one cares.
Put the pills down get some fresh air.
Pretend I'm there brushing your hair.

Try to love life ...again.
Don't leave me here alone...my friend.

The distant surf
crashes against the old
Spanish wall.
Sounding like slow
volleys of gunfire
ricocheting off
the jagged cliffs
above.

The sea side stillness
of the night is
disturbed by
my footsteps.
They crunch a
million grains
of sand with
every step
I take along
this jaded
asphalt.

At this hour
all of this is
closed,they put
hours and gates
around
whats free.

Wet feral cats
chase giant
wharf rats all
through the
cavernous
crevasses
between the
break walls
giant stones.

Across the Harbor
on the calm side.
Lights shine bright
from the
giant cranes
and the
deep green
Span dressed in
strands of
Blue.

The lights
reflected off
the still water
and danced
along small wakes
left behind by
passing boats.

The fumes
of sweet
scented fuel
hides just
beneath the
smell of
salt water and
the rotting
bait fish left
behind by
hopeful
fisherman in
chunks along
the rocks.

A quarter mile
out on the breakwalls end
the Gateway to
the Angels sits
as still and proud
as an ancient Oak.

Its dependable
Lighthouse
vigilance and wisdom
washes over me
as I pass this
night counting
the seconds
between
the shine.

Envy

Lust

Anger

Greed

Joy

Hope

Sadness

Anxious

Happy

Emo­tions
What is the point of emotions?
Get attached
Get hurt
Be alone
Get hurt

Emotions are a poison
And a cure
All at the same time

You can't live with them
But you can't survive without them

My jealousy
My anxiety
My depression
My envy
My lust

They destroy me
They widdle away at me
Making me feel like a monster
Making me feel pathetic

My joy
My hope
My faith
My trust

They shine a light
In my darkness
But they only last for a fleeting moment
Before they begin
Their destruction

All of these emotions
Spin in my head
And my heart
Constantly
24/7
And I can't shut them out
I can't shut them up

They are voices in my head
That battle to be in the spotlight

They make me weak
They make me strong
They tear me down
They build me up

What's the point of emotions?
When they seem like bad luck

It feels like a cruel joke
As they spin
And spin
And spin
In my head

The worst of them all though
Isn't one I have said
For the worst of them all

Is *love

I'm a monster
   You're a saver

I'm ugly
   You're beautiful

I'm worthless
   You have a purpose

I'm broken
   You are loved

I'm unhelpable
   You're saved

I'm unloved
   Family and friends surround you

I'd be better off dead
    There is a grand plan for you

I have a plan for you, love
A grand scheme
That only I can see

I know you feel helpless
I know it seems like an unwinable war
But I died for you
I payed for you passage into a better place

Your world is broken
Destroyed
But I shed my blood
So my Father in Heaven
Can work through you
And save your broken world

You feel like your sinking
You feel alone
You feel unloved
And forsaken

But I am here

I am with you

I love you

I'm walking along beside you
Even if it doesn't feel like it
I feel your pain
I feel your suffering
I feel everything in you

I see what you face
Inside and out
The depression
The anxiety
I see and feel it all

I understand

My death on the cross
Terrified me
I begged for another way
Even though I knew
It was the will of my Father in Heaven

I will fight with you
I will fight for you
I will protect you
I will love you
And I have saved you
From the fires of Hell

I faced them
The scorching heat
Of the external flames
So you, my beloved, don't have to

Speak to me, child
Open up
Let me in
And I will love you

I will fill you with a peace
That you've never known
I will quench your thirst
With the living water

I am the Alpha and Omega
I am the Begining and the End
I have created the world
And everything in and on it

I know you don't feel it
But you have a purpose
There's a reason you're here

The enemy is strong
But I am stronger
You've read Revelations
And you know the outcome
Of the final war

There will be a New Jerusalem
Instead of a broken world
You have been saved
Washed in the blood of the lamb

You will not be thrown
Into the pits of Hell
You will not burn
And smell sulfur
And burning skin
For all of eternity

You will be saved from judgment
For you have the stamp of God
On your forehead
And you are untouchable

You are saved from the tribulation
And have been loved
And saved

I promised to be there
Through out the walk of life
I never promised it would be easy
Because Satan is the prince of the Earth
But I am the king of the universe

The devil will attack you
And as a disciple of mine
You have a target on your back
For he wants to shut you up
And for you to shut me out

But have faith
For I am here
And though he is strong
I am stronger

So give your pain
Give me your struggles
And through me
Washed in the blood of the lamb
You are saved from the Devil

Though he sounds true
Though he twists words
And tells lie after lie
Listen for my voice
In all of the chaos
For I am there

I have
I am
And I will always be with you