I look at my student
and she literally looks like me
the same as I looked
when the abuse in my life
started
all i want to do
is hug this child and tell her
that I love her
I know it's not me
But I see so much of me in her
when i hug my student
I feel like
I am hugging myself
she is so quiet
with beautiful eyes
I told her that her eyes are beautiful
and she said
why I said because you are...
I believe children are so so healing
and such amazing souls!

Love spills out from me in the form of words and tears and laughter.

I want to touch you and hold you and kiss you and love you so tenderly and with such softness that one wrong step could crush me.

Put me in your mouth and chew me up.
Take a bite out of my ripe, tender skin.
All you’ll find in this flesh, is love love love. Sweet and soft and juicy the way a peach bleeds.

i only write in the dark in the night in the moments when i feel my eyelids fall heavy and my chest grow empty. it is only then that i can untie the bird from my sternum and let the creatures growing in my small intestines wake. the sky will rupture and glow pink and i will be none the wiser because while white elephants sing and paper mache dolls rise i will be here, in my final form in the sea with those who tried me like i tried myself. i am my own worst enemy.