Pardon my intrusion. And so there is no confusion. This must be an illusions. My brain going into contusions. From the images well the image of the an angel I  saw the other day.  Its stardolled me as she caught me staring her way. The profound beauty what do I say. Breath taken away. Mind drawing only a blank......  
           I approach her and say      
                                                     "Eyes stolen from the heavens.  Shall I gaze and be lost like an astronomer as his scope wonders the sky. I am also lost there, ****** in like a black hole agonist the galaxy's.  Traveling endlessly in a vast void and still so beautiful. Searching to escape but yet still drawn in. Excuse my stare, please forgive is my plea. But men have travels worlds to find, what I now steal for only me."

Women what happen to standards? Do you not realize every time you open your legs(****** or not) your body is changed. "Turn down for what?" SELF RESPECT. He love you yet he cant seem to be enough. From girls night out ( TRANLASTION: Bust a new ***** so if THIS ***** start trippn......) to "shes going through  something and needs me."( TRANLASTION: Im out and hes gettin it to night) yall to much. But to be real  he know this and still he stays. FOREVER LOYAL. He trys to brighten your day with the little things, but i guess so small you never even see it SLAVES to the clock to buy you nice things. And still none of this matter. He return home to your friends or ***** house or UNEXPLAINED ATTITUDE. Mysterious investigation of his           belongings,  constant  interrogation. For what??? He doesn't know. How can he see a wife in you if a wife  you are not. A wife/wifey(girlfriend) is holds him down even before her because SHE KNOWS although he is strong he still can be weak. She feed him and f__ks him because SHE KNOWS thats what he NEEDS. When he is tired she accommodate to him. He is king and she is QUEEN. These rolls are important and SHE KNOWS this. He returns home not wanting anything/ or anyone but her and SHE KNOWS that. She is his everything, his PORNSTAR. She is his rock and he is hers. SHE KNOWS she can not fall if she holds on to him and SHE DOES  with confidence.

I havnt found her yet, she out there. I just take one day at a time.

What is she doing when she walks away telling me , shes off to the rest room each and every day. Oh.. how I wonder what is in her pants, if she only knew ive longged to see her dances. How graceful she'll move as she dips to the floor, glancing around feeling the music even more. But where does she go, as she does often leave, freshing up returning smelling of a rose in a breezes. ****... can I taste you ? Do you taste as sweet? Would you mind if I layed you down and had a bite to eat? Back to work she never bustin a sweat, got me pondering are things that im saying making you wet? She was my co worker, I remember those days, the smile on her face and her eyes in her daze. Simple whispers in her ear would cause her to blush, then she off to the bathroom pant full of mush. Waterfalls pouring, she should have brought a towel. And Ill test my theory, for we get off work in a short while.

You been in a situation for quite some time now but i think your not happy so i dont see how. Why would you settle if you are worth so much more ?At your ripe age you have the world to explore. I think you should take a chance and try something new, spontaneous, no thought a decision right out the blue.  But keep that clear mind, and to thy self be true. But i think you settle for the way things are and im happy for you. But tell me something can you picture this? A long walk on the beach, a long moon lite kiss. Eating plates of lobster and having a few drinks. Red lipstick now fading to pink. Long night of dancing or even catch a show, it really wouldnt matter because your happy so just go. Trips on boats, traveling across blue sea, eat exotic food as your hair blowing in the breeze. Rendezvous in nice places, with a special friend, maybe a little role playing or a game of pretend. I dont know it your choice and yours alone to make, but i just have one question "How long does your happiess have to wait?"

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Late at  night while I lay in my bed. I feel your warmth on and around my head. The way you would hold me, just as I fell alseep. A kiss on my brow, lips and then cheek. A soft whisper in my ear as you bid me adue. And when I awake in the morrow I realize I must live another day without you. Sometimes it hard to breathe, and you know humans cant live without a heart. They say everyday is a new journey, yet I dont know where to start. I dont want a new journey, I just want you here with me. And things will be so much better now, then when they used to be. I wish my thought could float to you, so that you could hear them loud and clear. And all I want to say is "oh how I love you"and "I wish you where here." I hold you in my heart but like I said it really not there, your gone now And its in much need of repair. Cant really do much with out you crossing my mind but I cant stay in that place to long, I break down everytime. But sometimes I think and some days Im cry, and my mood changes and no one understand why. As I go about my day I sware I see you everywhere, but then I have to tell myself that you are no longer there... well..... no longer here. Passion onces shared yet drifted away, for you to love me is all I want today. Its all I want tonight and the day after. I only see you in my dreams so I wish this day would go faster. Now im home once again and I lay in my bed  waiting for the moment your warmth touches my head.

As I walk Thru the valley of shadow of death, I will fear no evil. I will keep my head high, and look for brighter days for thou art with me.

I once had a conversation with a figure when I thought I was sleep. The conversation was of the contents of life and the there after. He ask me to walk with him, and the comfort I felt was like talking to my closes friend. I could not see his face nor could I remember his voice. He knew everything about me and what transpired in my life. I asked so many question I always wanted to know. He began to answer as he ushered to me a certain way. We continue to walk as time seemed to stand still. I began to wonder who he truly was. How does he know all this? Where was he leading me? I began to get nervous and asked could turn back. He began to explain  and expressed the life I knew was gone. I tried to turn but he blocked my way. He held out his hand and said it time, don't be afraid come with me. I placed my hand into his, hoping id awake soon. He stated this was no dream as if he was reading my mind. His hand was ice cold. My body felt light as air. I wanted to scream. But I felt no breathe left in me. He pulled me close.....And as he stated the life I knew had ended.

Such a beautiful death.