I thought about it,
Many times before.
Knowing life is ****,
Wanting something more.
It doesn’t matter,
Never what you want.
What’s even sadder,
Life a constant taunt.
And so we try hard,
Running and running.
Lives thrown like a card,
Gambled and cunning.
So here we go now,
To find life somehow…

**** your ride up,
You seem to find a different track.
Exed, axed, in cup,
Basic instinct no going back.
Your world a trap,
The old you fears you in ten years.
Tell em a rap,
Your soul never doing back tears.
It’s time you fly,
Like D.B. Cooper on demands.
No time to cry,
Sink their souls deep down in the sands.
Buckle up, Chuck,
Time to ride luck…

Your touch is deep,
When you’re inside.
Where can I sleep,
No heart denied.
Know where I been,
Cause I won’t tell.
No, it’s not sin,
Where tears don’t dwell.
Something you can’t,
Have for long lust.
Tried loving shan‘t,
God cursed to dust.
We try so hard,
To hold love lost.
Bleeding blood shard,
Dead eyes up cost.
Here pain no more,
Drained my dread gore…

You used to feel good to me,
To imagine feeling you..
Lost whims of your kiss to be,
The way you touch and all do…
Something more secure of past,
Never truth of love to light…
Light to dim what nothing last,
Not even to mourn a fight…
What point is it all to mourn,
When starved out no more feelings?
What left of lovers to scorn,
Of the lovers lost dealings?
Dare you ask my soul complete,
Where here lost my lover sweet?

You used to feel good to me,
To imagine feeling you..
Lost whims of your kiss to be,
The way you touch and all do…
Something more secure of past,
Never truth of love to light…
Light to dim what nothing last,
Not even to mourn a fight…
What point is it a to mourn,
When starved out no more feelings?
What left of lovers to scorn,
Of the lovers lost dealings?
Dare you ask my soul complete,
Where here lost my lover so sweet?

Many nights,
Thoughts getting over you.
Seldom fights,
All my dreams to come true.
Hold me now,
Now that your far aways
Yet somehow,
Never to see the days.
Obsession,
Please come out my mind.
Confession,
Leave my lost love behind.
Nightmares can,
Dream again…

You want me back,
Because you’re missing the thrill.
I’ll call my Jack,
And you’re alone to still chill.
Where are you now,
Needing to cope to closure,
so tell me how,
We can keep our composure.
It’s time to go,
Your gaslighting days over.
You ought to know.
Disconnecting drugs sober.
Back what you want -
We know we can’t…