He had to let them go,
Even when he didn’t want to.
Hurting their hearts so low,
When broken no one has a clue.
Of horrible things done,
Come to regret later of life.
Saddened lives always won,
Rifting and rafting all so rife.
Thinking it’s for the best,
What is lost to sit and gander.
The thoughts never to rest,
Secret past to present pander.
They didn’t have to end -
Life and love was their friend…

I know I’m in denial,
Man turned into a monster,
Broken heart mended vial,
The rest I wish you foster.
What life which was together,
Never too late to reclaim.
Fear not the living ether,
To free our souls from the blame.
Somewhere I know to let go,
Never to hurt you again.
Rebellious your love I know,
Sweet making eternal when.
Mourned hands in sands stars fall stime,
The fight for us withered time…

It was all too fast,
And it wasn’t our fault.
They hurt us to last,
As a wound touching salt.
Rope around my neck,
Tried and cried I couldn’t.
My life is a dreck,
Suicidal shouldn’t.
I hope you’re happy,
No matter that bad day.
False world seems sappy,
Purgatory I pray.
Never to see you,
Far from me you flew.

The thought of drinking with them again makes me sick,
I had to wake up and say no.
The killing myself life long misery so quick,
The last bile in me was a blow.
Funny how life works things cared about so strong,
Sooner or later catches up.
Regret and pain knowing who I hurt for so long,
Pouring my life away in cup.
I always asked something selfish of the All High,
Never realising friendship had.
All I ask now is not even to say goodbye,
Thought of losing them makes me sad.
Keep them safe soul from poison God let me go first,
For I know and You know the pain before its worst…

First seeing their eyes,
I thought love to begin.
Angels to God cries,
Guarding our souls within.
Journeys never known,
All forced into peril.
Of life till death shown,
Hope darkness left feral.
Given what wanted,
So happens to move on.
What left so chaunted,
Fear not life to be drawn.
What thought of love, hewn,
Sake of being soon…