Good-bye to those
who chose to walk away
You did all you could
to save yourself in the end
Your happiness is all I could have asked for

Suddenly
My face wasn't the one you saw
When Life became too much to carry
...doesn't moving on feel good?

I lose myself around you
And truly my love
I just cant afford
To cry anymore

This is a game.
I wouldn't lie to you,
it really is.
But don't think
for one ******* second
that I didn't come here to win.

The Warrior stands on the field after battle
Bodies lay before Her
The interior of her armor drenched in guilt
The exterior gleaming in red
Hands still clenching the sword and shield
She was paralyzed
Images of Her acts still happening

It is time to go
Her feet tell her body that Her job is done
Once She reaches home She knows
The applause of the people will wash over her armor
Taking the **** of the guilt away

But the Blood on Her hands
The blemish and scar of the heart
Showers of water will drown out the screams
Showers of memories will allow Death to follow Her

The moment Her eyes re-open to the sun
Her hands do burn
And she screams
A scream made of all the ones She took
They drown her
The still memories of the carnage
Each time Her mind chooses to wander
It walks back onto the Field

She can bury the dead
But She can't bury the Sins

Rose was left red
Violence isnt new
Drink that potion, kid
And they'll take you too

Some monsters have hearts
And we become the monsters
When we dont look for them

Remember
Something shared
Is almost always
Something lost
Something
You'll never get back
So don't give away
Don't share
Keep all
Stay whole

I'm only perfect
When the lights are off
And so are my clothes

Evil is
as evil always will be,
every time,
without fail or compassion.

And in that day I had fallen I love
It was the beginning of the end
But that much I didn't know
I remained nïeve and unaware
The feelings were all new to me
I had let mysel be consumed
Totally submerged in passion

It was in the mirror that I saw
All of my greatest fears lurked behind
I was blinded by my heart
Lust was seaping from his smile
I fell in love that day
But he did not

That night I lay beside him
With the sheers beside me
I cut it all
His hair
His pride
And little be known
His heart

For the fears I had seen
We're just that- fears
Insecurity was the weapon of the heart
But yet he stayed
Told me that all was right

In that instant I fell in love
With a man who had nothing
Yet held me as everything
He fell in love with a broken girl
Who made him whole

Learn to fall in love with who you are
Instead of who you think you're meant to be

I want to push him down
into a pile of leaves
Laughing the way children do
I'd fall backwards and he'd catch me
Looking into his beautiful green eyes
resembling the still crisp evergreens
Oh, the trees would be jealous
But also proud-
for their leaves were not wasted
We would lay and watch
the world move on around us
Flowers wilting
Clouds fleeing
Snow eventually following
When its time to fall
into his arms once more
not wrapped in leaves
But in blankets of his love

Are you scared of the dark?
Of what lurks behind the closed door?
Because I can show you
And I can take you there
I just can't promise you
Your return

You sing like a bird
Out of key
And without purpose

My words could never be
As beautiful as her soul
Or complete as her person

Silver clouds
raining down
flood the world
and let it drown

Taint the soil
let it boil
one last call
end it all

sunlight shatters
did it matter?
in this finale
where will you be

in the arms of love
or dying of
the silver liquid

Tides that are bigger than you will always turn
That doesn't mean you have to go with the current

She's probably as pure as a daisy
I can't wait to show her my thorns

I want to give all my love away
And have it circled back
So then why shouldn't it
Be you?

You are so much stronger than you believe
Look again at those mountains ahead
They're nothing more
Than the feathers to set you free

Loosing weight
but not the right way
Hey,
sometimes that's how it needs to be done
Of course its not fun
and I'm coming undone
under the stress of starvation
and working the day shift
I cant stop because I need money
from paycheck to paycheck
I pay my bills and
you know it kills
when I'm forced to watch
the crisp green fall into the pockets
of those who are just gonna stock it
I'm trying not to waste
but so much of me is gone
my pants have long since abandoned my waist

And I'm just starting to think
****
maybe within just this black ink
Is all I dwindle down to

So in this one last plea
hear my decree
don't let me die like this
Just remember me

Cigarettes and ashtrays
Red hair and Mohawks
Tattooed is the temple

Rock n' Roll
Busy home and quiet thoughts
Coloured are the walls

Big cities and small streets
Dark nights and bright lights
Empty is the sky

Sketching and painting
Rhyming and writing
Amazing is the Man

Would you kiss
all my petals
In the summer sun
without fear of the bees?

Where do my words go
When there's no one around
To catch them

I liked the days better when
You were begging to hold my hand
As we froze beneath the winter sun
Rather than it being pushed away
While me welt from the weight of the summer star

Onlookers!
Drift here.
Behold your eyes
For what you are about to see
If nothing short of fantasy.

You see a dazzling girl
Twirling around with her heart in a whirl
Lost in the stars
Little known, her heart lies behind bars
Now I know what you think-
And don't make a stink
But this illusion you see
Is a blurred reality

Ladies and Gents
Lend me your ears
Gather round close
For this next set of mirrors
With tricks more often than treats

Look at him smile
He drove all those miles,
Yet with nothing to say
His mind moving fast
Will his beating heart last?

He loves her so
But can't let her know
Oh no no
That wouldn't do
She hasn't a clue
Of just how lost he is
In the brokenness of her

Being ripped open
Again and again
Over and over
Can sometimes
Be the only way to heal

I'd delete your number
If only my fingers knew how
Just to forget your name
Only if my heart would let you go

The light of you haunts me
I just pray to be free

Some people sit there
and just make excuses.
But not me.
No, not anymore.
I'm not making any more excuses.
I'm making progress
and I refuse to stop growing.

Walking up
Sober and alone
Reminds me
That the bed
Isn't the only thing
Cold and empty

I keep going through your things
And I'll tell you why

First by saying- yes, I love you.
I mean it; I've meant it
Even after I said I didn't

lies
That's what we had left at the end
But once the layer of deceit was cleaved off
And the ugly truth was born
It was more than I could carry

Even still, in this unsettling love I have for you
Long after the truth has grown
To the ripe age of 18 years
And left the nest in my heart
I had built for it
-only so I could save my own sanity
sigh
...I digress:
I still feel the looming lies attempting
To play my heart strings like cords
Of the most out of tune harp

You say it's me
And only me
My foolish heart believes you
My body has already long forgiven you
Mind however; my mind has doubts
Mainly because no one would ever
Choose me
When there were obviously so many other
Her(s) to pick through

So I'll take your grain of love
And for right now
I'll choke it down between my spoonfuls
Of medicine
Salt
And soap

I'm sorry I go through your things still
It's wrong but its how I survive now
You can't be mad either because
Well, you made me this way.

I would say I got the last laugh
That I was able to rip you apart
But it seems the loneliness
Beat me to it

The Great Lord Becker
Dark as the blackest night yo
It's snowing on Mt. Fuji

I've never written a happy poem
I don't see how people can
How could you ever spill your highs?
Or rip open the tenderness of your heart?
How do you expose something so valued?

I write poems from the darkness
The cold, damp place form which I dwell
I hold my warmth close, I'd never let it out
I'd hate to expose myself, and the light within

I treasure my own, rare happy
I don't share what is mine, then it gets broken
And I am already broken and worn,
So why share the light I have left?

You're my ghost-
Or that's always how I speak of you.
Telling tales of how you haunt me
Over and over
Night again sending agony through me
Something lingers still-
Pulling me though the places of my mind
Leave me be
Set me free
Yearning to find love
In something other than the void you left beind
So, I'll beg you this once more
Let my soul go
Just like you had no problem with doing to my body

He said that "W" word yesterday
I'm still not sure what that was about
After endless torture sessions
Void of commitment
Last night his heart had a change
"Wife" was on list of words
His brain suddenly drew from
He not only wanted me
To be his winter blanket
Or his ephemeral spring flower
But his goddess
Throughout all the seasons
He wants me!
...he wants me ..
And that means every piece
And he loves...
...everything

I smoked enough
Of that cursed plant
To know that you
Are indeed the Devil

Slowly,
Day by day
I'm learning how to do everything all over again
Without you

From every nights hearbreak
To the next mornings hangover
I can't seem to stop loving you
And **** it hurts

The tears that roll
Because of you
Always taste the saltiest

I'm not the one who deserves another demon
But your crying eyes will haunt me eternally

Don't call him
He's not waiting for it anyway

Oops...
But those words never fixed anything

"In the end
It's you.
And, **** it,
It's always
just going to
be you.
So,
I'm simply
not going to fight it
anymore.
You're mine."

Baby,
I'm just a man
Lead by a candle
Trying to find my way to Heaven's gates
But look at you
The angel I've always wanted to find
Taking me straight to hell
How ironic
To find such beautiful wings are tainted
And cannot fly
Seems they were only made for falling

You said you fell out
Even as I was still falling in
But now staring down into the chasm
As you stand next to me still
I feel the void
Calling to you
Pulling you further from me

These honey feelings
You have me stuck in
Leave me breathless
And sticky
Things get jumbled together
Maybe things that shouldn't
And everything becomes
Foggy and hazy
This process continues
Until not even the bees
Want it back

I'd fill the space between moments with you
If only to get you back