You sit over there
And state
Almost like you love me

Something in your eyes
My demise
Almost like you hate me

If you’ve never seen
A sunset in reverse
Then I envy you.

You then
Have never watched the colors fade
And turn to black

Even as
You were promised the saving grace
Of the sunlight.

Never once
Were you betrayed in the
darnkness
By your own heart.

If you have never seen
A sunset in reverse
Then I beg you.

Please remeber
The beautiful vibrance of the light
Bask in the radiance

Even as
You doubt the night it happened
And pretend it didnt hurt

Never once
Let the struggle consume your being
And drag you back

If you've never
A sunset in reverse
Then you've already healed

Rest now baby girl
You'll need your strength
for when he tries again tomorrow

I'm ready to let Mother
Turn my toes to roots
And mend me back into the soil

My arms reaching for the warmth
And healing from the sun
To help me grow

I'll wait for the rain
To pour down on me
And wash all I do not need away

And he couldn't show me
How to find salvation
But in the silence
The only thing I came to believe
Was that my scars were more powerful
Than his idol anyway

While you prowl
In the dim moonlight
I pray you please
Please dont touch him.

He wont be able to resist you
And your boundless temptations
But you are more
You are capable of compassion

I cant bear to see
What you'll do to him
And what he will reciprocate
And how my heart will punish itself

Before I return them
I will drench all of your ****
In my best perfume
You remember,
The one you love most from our
Mhm, first time
So every time now after
You go to reach for it
It's like you'll be reaching for me
And a reminder of all the injustices
and sins you commuted against me

Let your heart rest easy
In the tender arms of moonlight
You'll be alright
At least for now

Please write
If not to me
Then for me

And I'm still falling
I'm still in love

Looks like after all this trouble
All these broken promises
Shattered and abused hearts
You were still my biggest mistake
Not for just what you did
But for believing I would be able to love you

I was going to quit
To be with you
But now I use this vice
To drown you out

-tell me I dont need it
-make me put it down
-sing me out of my sorrows
-catch all of my falling tears

I just need someone
To show me the love I'm missing
And give me a reason to stay

I got drunk
to cope
with my problems

I guess all I have been trying to say is:
This all hurt,
More than anything I have ever had to feel
But I hope she can love you
In all of the ways that I couldn't

Shes deadly and sharp
Yet loving and careful
Like nothing I've ever seen before
Or dreamed before
Because shes not like the books I read
Or the poems I write
Shes a force all her own

You never asked for a lot
But I'm bad at handling things
And I couldn't even give you the minimum

Cold
And coated in ice

Why is it hard to catch a cigarette?
Because its impossible
When you chase one
After another

I dont want to love you anymore
The fickle emotion
Is rotting my heart
And boiling my brain

The time I spent in his green eyes
Has me spinning
Drunk off the rush and beauty
I could feel them tenderly stripping away my passion
and silencing my conscience

My body aches still to be touched
Despite my heart's fear of desire
of one day beating
-only for him

After all,
the challenge was
to keep hearts out

I smirk knowing
I'm the twitch in your toes
I am the reason your legs cause earthquakes
Your gasping breath
Crying moans
Even those are me too
All of your pleasure
-Comes from me

The goal was to be loaded
With my pockets now bloated
All my old friends have noted
To something new I'm devoted

Look Honey,
I bet you're funny

You're oh so sweet
I felt your friction and the heat

But this has got to end
I'm not looking for just another friend

I want to kiss her endlessly
Beneath the stars
Embroidered on her belt

I long to fill her mouth
With the music
From my lips

If only for a day
I'd love to replenish her heart
With the warmth from mine

Perhaps even
Line her floor
With the colors of our clothes

Liquor doesnt always taste like honey
And without a job I have no money
All I do is drink when the sky ain't sunny
My life is ****- but to some that's funny

So let's let out a cheer
When we stare in the face of fear
And let's get it clear
That the end or maybe love is near

Life is crazy but maybe
Just maybe

If hes with me
He has the key

To unlock my heart
And this release will give me a fresh start

Because the way he feels is like addiction
But all this life gives me is fiction
When he speaks he has such good diction
And I dont even feel the friction

Please come back to me
Even if it's in another life

The only time he holds my hand
Is after he ***** me until I can't tell
Where one inch of flesh meets another
The numb feeling of knowing I'm being held
Without knowing where
As hot flesh melds together-
It's not as if it mattered anyway

The number one cause of being let down


Is hoping in the first place

X

I don't bloom
Because you command me to
If I bloom at all
It will be
Because
I am finally ready
To face the world
And because
The world is finally
Ready for me

I'm still paranoid
And I'm sorry
I tried so hard
To smoke you away
That I almost did

It's sad that you dont see
A life with me

After all I'd ever give to you
But I will never do

Mother,

I feel I should apologize
After hearing horror stories
of womb to street stories
I realize
You're not the monster of the world
You are just the monster
of my world
No less deadly,
just only to me.
You're harmless as a fly to the rest.
You've never run home
with needles full of ******,
sorry Kay.
But many times
you have sashayed home
with sharpened words
ready to rip apart my flesh.
You didn't abandon me in the dark
and make me scavenge for food
before men in suits took me away
...I'm really sorry Kay.
But often you ignored my pleas for help,
as I begged you to save me from myself.

But now we're here,
and I'm still the victim
       your victim.
Yet, I want to apologize to you, and I'm sorry
for believing you were a monster
when you never deserved that title either.
You're just a bully.
And I'm sorry I let you get to me.

Regards,
Given Name

I didn't ask to fall for you
But that didn't stop you
from catching me

His soul was so beautiful
I will regret letting him go
Watching him walk away last time
For the last time...
I didn't require love
But I don't deserve abandonment

Now she holds his hand
Comforts him when he sleeps
She feeds the fire in his soul...
I could never give him that
The wrong love
At the worst time

Now all we have are passing glances
And my remorse
Maybe in those ephemeral moments
Our flames could collide yet again

Honestly,
I hope she makes you happy
Because truly,
He makes me feel so alive

I will always have those elastic memories
To stretch and watch over and over
Until they snap and fade away
Even if they don't break apart
Eventually theyll erode to nothing

I fear this pain won't be like those memories
It'll stick to my lungs and rot them away
Tears of acid will peel away these once rosy cheeks
My hands will shake wanting yours
Reaching for the memories
That have long sense expired

Cheers!
We can do this, baby girl.

The water has a way
Of drowning out truths
I was told something this morning
you told me
all I wanted to hear
So you could wrestle me down
into your sheets
Your words were hollow
Just like your soul

In the souls
Of these random people
Without taking from them
I'm still able to gather thier pieces
And patch my soul back together

Something I've learned
Over the years
Is never to rush nature
She knows what shes doing-
     Shes been doing it longer than anyone else
And the scars we force ourselves to have
Will always hurt more
Than the ones She will give to us
So never force a life lesson
You'll be naturally taught them
When She believes you're ready

What happens when the stars cross
and your face isn't the one I see?

When the planets align
but you're not the one in their path?

What happens when, as you fall for me,
I fall away from you?

The taste of stale cigarettes
On her lips
Mixing with the stinging cherry
On my own
Is a flavor I'll probably never forget
Or trade for the world

I wrote your destruction
Often times in my blood
But now the malice has ended
And I want to transcribe
Our ascension
Even with all this new found passion
The words have never been more distant

Hes the one
Because even in the silence
There is a melody between us
Sometimes the stark sound of nothing
Comforts more than frivolous words

I feel like all of my dreams
Random as they may be
Are trying to tell me something
They all want to circle back
And connect in some cryptic way
I'm terrified to death becuase
What if
Every dream is actually a nightmare
And what if all these nightmares
Take me back to you?