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I turned into everything
I said I wouldn't be
My father - A cheater
Someone that runs away
I've run away more times than I can count
I've had an epiphany
Now my heart and mind is in complete dissaray
My mother - Mental illness - BPD
My moods change so rapidly
Medication does nothing for me
Just a placebo effect
But the matter is stronger than my mind
I swore, I declared these things I would never be
Hypocrisy
I hate with every fibre of my being who I have turned out to be
There is no going back for me
I guess the apple doesn't fall far from the tree
I wish my life turned out a different way  
I guess this is just in my DNA
Or perhaps this is karma
I'm with you
But I don't love you
I kiss you but I feel nothing
We ****
My body rejecting you
I bleed
Every ******* time
I feel nothing
You say you'll **** yourself if I leave
Looked me in my eyes
Staring straight into my soul when you said it
I'm trapped
In a life that I don't want
In a life that I didn't choose
If life is a game
This is one that I know I'm destined to lose
I know that it could be worse
But this feels like a curse
The road is wrong
No matter what path I choose
I should be used to it though, right?
I've felt this way for my entire ******* life
Maybe I'll never feel anything ever again
Maybe the world was better off if I never existed
I'm a bad person
In every context of the word
Ashamed
Is an understatement
 Jun 24 Kalliope
Ganu R GR
I shed tears,
For those who had experienced that very pain.

The same pain I fear to face,


Death.


But it pains me more,
To be the only one to remember,


The Forgotten.


All my life,
I've seen death play it's game.

Those who...

seek it,

fear it,

face it.

But despite this,
I still feel sorrowful,
For all the pitiful souls,
Whom leave this vast world behind.

Despite their unknown...

names,

faces,

souls,


I Feel,



Sorrowful.


Is this what we call,
Mourning?
 Jun 24 Kalliope
Tyra
The Ocean
 Jun 24 Kalliope
Tyra
She glides effortlessly, seamlessly towards the beach,
Never too afraid to reach its destination.
Slowly, she retreats back towards the warmth, comfort and security of the heard of the waves,
A community to always rely on.
Her freedom radiates the air, purifying the atmosphere,
Turning the particulates of carbon into a possibility of purity.
The liberty to be free.
The power to have dreams.
The courage to reach your destination .
How I wish to be free like the ocean.
 Jun 24 Kalliope
Arna
"We can’t blame our fate nor the destiny everytime. Just accept everything and move forward with a smile."
Acceptance isn’t weakness —
It’s the strength to walk ahead without carrying the weight of “why me?”
 Jun 24 Kalliope
jasmine
Heavy feet stomped the ground,
A man with no past, a man with a future to carve.
Raised by animals, follower of the river, home in the woods
His name was Nothing.

Wandered too far,
Roamed the village.
They stare in awe, they gawked.
His tall frame crowding the dirt made streets.
**** and vulnerable. He suddenly felt alone.

A woman dressed in brown saved him,
Gave him food and clothes.
‘I am Nothing’ He spoke to her.

She spoke the name Alexander.
Alexander of Nothing
 Jun 24 Kalliope
Mike Hauser
never will you find true love
till you first learn to love yourself
if you can't accept this simple fact
how can you expect anyone else
they'll see right through the part of you
that keeps holding you back
how can you expect true love
if you don't first love yourself
I'm not depressed
I'm challenged by happiness
Can't feel my happy.
Reflective tears— but none fall.
Glass-stained eyes, holding back
a flood that forgot how to break.
The walls pit inward— tightening
like regret, closing in like the hole
in my heart.

Hurt me again— my mind almost
begs for it; not for the pain—but
for the proof I still feel.
Cracked knuckles answer what
cracked thoughts can't say.
A fractured mental frame
held together by restraint.

I want to cry, but as I reach for the
memory of it, the tears don’t come—
Just the hollow ache of forgetting
how to let go in that way.
It be like that some days...
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