I miss what I imagined
not what I survived

but god does it make me feel alive
to know I made it through

Ever glow
Walking instep
A seamless transition
Before I go
Haunting lullabies
My weary dreary
Anguish
Pockets
Full of misery
A nameless soul
Outmatched
Red light won’t change
Grappling hook
One eye opened
The ticking
Clock on my wall
Hasn’t moved in years
Retribution day is
Just around the corner
Time to put the
Book down
Complete surrender
Living on borrowed
Time somethings gotta give
By now
If this is
What hell looks like
I’m running the other direction
I’ll take a one way
Ticket to heaven
I’m starting
To believe this planet
May be
The indications are all around me
Catastrophic events of life
Have proven me right
They occur far to often
In my circles
To tell me different
For it not to be
Poor ole me I say
Stuck between a rock and
A hard place
Standing still in neutral

a leader dropped bombs on the world,

when i fell out of love with you.

not for that, but,

because all the times you had left,

i consoled myself with laughter,

after loving aftermaths,

a fair chance, that left you mad,

but im still sipping shores.

whatever fits me back to square one.

When I'm with you, I feel happy. I feel like the sun is sitting on my chest, lightly burning my body. It makes me feel like a little kid. The feeling of new things around me, but the only new thing is you left. We stopped talking, and now I no longer have the sun lying in my chest. No longer giving me comfort and assurance. No longer having my best friend by my side. Now, without you, I feel sad. I feel lost. I lost my twin flame, and now my sun is gone. I feel like everything's the same, and there's nothing new. I think of you out of the blue, and now the sun in my chest no longer burns. It stings, and it stings me every time I think of you. In fact, I'm pretty sure it’s no longer the sun stinging me. It's my heart, reminding me we're no longer friends. Reminding me we’re apart. Reminding me how much I miss you. But what can I do? The sun no longer burns or stings. It's numb. It's cold. and What used to bring me joy, i no longer hold. It kind of reminds me of us. Without you, I feel numb.

I promise that thing will get clear, my love,
'though outside the storm's raging fierce.
Darkness unbroken and rain, love.
Thunderbolts only can pierce.

I promise that things will get clear, my love.
Dry off those heartbroken tears.
Patience is needed once more, love.
I know you've waited for years.

I promise that things will get clear, my love,
clear as your view from the peak.
Solitude ends with your word, love!
So with your ruby lips: SPEAK!

I promise that things will get clear, my love.
when you let go of your prayer
secretly spoke to your heart, love,
not knowing if someone was there.

I promise that things will get clear, my love,
fast as the tap of your heel.
Don't be so numb and so cross, love.
We've both got so much to feel.

I promise that things will get clear, my love,
and firm as the earth and the trees;
vast as the ocean and sky, love.
I can't wait to melt on your breeze.

does anyone feel the ticking of the clock -
a deadline, a rush, a finality
an end to our ways of living.
in the brink of another calamity
overwhelmed by the world
of devastation and cruelty.
striking down the minority,
aiming to breathe,
swimming up against the current,
the water invading our lungs -
we are drowning.

Nights consumed and power drained
Failure engulfs yet hunger remains
For some to be less pained
Be worth one who’s overstrained