I miss you mumma
So deeply inside
How my little hand
Held yours so tight
And through the few years
All eleven
You always had my heart

I see your brown eyes look at me
And smile when cuddles were
Always free
The feel of your arms holding tight
Even when day came to night

Then you came ill
And my world did fall
So much for me to take in
No one to call
Tears burned for years there in
When god gave you wings
His angel
My hurt

And now I'm a man
My heart wants time back
To when the cuddles were free
And a shoulder to nap
I understand more now
But can never forgive
When up in heaven
You would live

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Promise after promise
Fell into my head
I carried them with me,
I took them to bed

So hopeful, I waited;
To hold your forever
Intentions negated
This jaded endeavor

Yet, lies soon took shape
And doubt would take hold
Your dormant coercion
Cementing the mold.

You never came through
You never came back
The woodchips, they faded
The bracelets, I lacked

Trapped under my instincts
My innocence, vanished
The moon was relinquished
My purity, famished

Young as I was
I’ll never forget
The impact you left me;
Your stark epithet. . .

You took something good,
You found something pure
My will cut in half
Rose white, and demure.


The root of my psyche
You’ve yet to discern,
Who plundered my childhood;
My chastity, burned.

Existence forgotten;
Defined from within
I’ll never evade you
You’re etched in my skin.

Scar after scar
Fell into my arm
Your ink swam my bloodstream
Your slander, your charm

I swindled the rabbit
And powdered my nose
Freefalling in choices
Defining your prose.

With tasty white pills,
A hand in my throat
A liver that’s grilled;
The bible I quote.

With no one on earth
To save me from me
I sampled the bottle
From under our tree.

I cannot begin
Nor pretend to describe
What happened to Maple,
Who am I inside?

The loneliest girl
In the entire world
The events I’d mistaken
The chastity; hurled


All that I know
And all that I think;
Is this monster within me
Was born in a blink

But who’d tune in now?
The opinions are set.
My mind is jay walking
The lines of regret.

The holes in my person
The doubt I can’t sever;
My husk of normalcy
Braving the weather. . .

For what you don’t know
Is what you can’t nurse
Assumptions you draw
Are making me worse.

Conclusions concocted
Your story, enhanced
My path interrupted
Dismissed by a glance.

So I’ll say goodbye;
There’s no seeds to sew
For this is my truth. . .
Confession bestowed.

Still treading his words
That flood to the brink;
Harassed, used, and left
In less than a BLINK.

I don't wanna see you back
We only fight come the time
Instead of love you
We trade insults
And hurt

Forever couldn't be
So can't you see
The days and nights
Were never for us

It's not about love anymore
Or how in our bed
Time slipped by when we became one
But the tears that we cry

Loving you was my only wish
Since that day and wow that kiss
But years just show me
How cruel life can be
For us alone
Killed this meant to be