Any moment without you by my side
Is a nightmare i cant deny

Your smile
Even if its not for me
Even if the reason for that smile
Isnt me
Still can save me.

Your voice
Even if you are not talking to me
Even if you are not laughing with me
Still can make me
Fall.

Your touch
Even if its not on me
Even if i will never feel it again
Will wake me

Up

From the nightmares
That haunt me
Any moment you are not by my side.

Miss being lost in your eyes
For hours at a time.
Holding you so close, I start
feeling your feelings, deep inside.
Tasting your lips,
sweet sips, sweeter than wine.
Making love to each other,
Soulmates eternally divine
with our, bodies intwhined
Your body becoming mine.
Missing you here,
But still on my mind.
Close in though,
Closer in heart,
Our true only distance,
is time.
Never really gone,
But never really there,
It's fine
Our moments stuck
on play,
as I keep pressing rewind.
Memories serving their purpose,
My heart doing the time.
Hours seem like days.
My emotions,
playing tricks on my mind.

I am not a person who cries a lot.

But I am crying almost all the time

And even when im surrounded with people

I am crying inside.

So many people talked to me today
But the only thing i could hear was,
"Im ******* done with you" and,
"Stay the **** away

From me."

I didnt wanna lose you again. Ever again.

But I didnt hold onto you right. I ****** up.

And all that I have caused is pain.

And I have already started missing you

Since my time was up.

I ****** up. Again.

I have lost you. Again.

I have never been so angry at myself

Never.

Its over.