Help, I lost myself again
But I remember you
Don't come back, it won't end well
But I wish you'd tell me too
Our love is six feet under
I can't help but wonder
If our grave was watered by the rain
Would roses bloom?
Could roses bloom
Again?
Retrace my lips
Erase your touch
It's all too much for me
Blow away
Like smoke in air
How can you die carelessly?
Our love is six feet under
They're playing our sound
Laying us down tonight
And all of these clouds
Crying us back to life
But you're cold as a knife
Six feet under
I can't help but wonder
If our grave was watered by the rain
Bloom
Bloom
Again
Help, I lost myself again
But I remember you

I am your Skin
& I itch & I ache.
"I bear with all your hardships,
I wear your mistakes.

I am your Skin
& I grow this scar tissue
because if you bleed out,
it would **** me to miss you.

I am your Skin
I will heal until you are free.
I belong to you.
Please be kind with me."

A happy soul is the best
Shield for this cruel world

Suicide is just a way to leave a problem
Suicide is what no one wants
Suicide is what no one expects
Suicide is a stupid thing
Suicide is… what suicide no one really knows is
Suicide is something I don’t need
Suicide doesn’t solve your problem
Suicide makes you loose what you already have
Suicide is the only thing that makes one problem even bigger

I come from a battered & broken
home.
Where i always felt alone.
I entered the world so cold.
Looking to be wanted, needed & loved.
I found heartbreak & pain.
I never gave up.
I knew one day down this long lonley
road of life there is someone to love
for me.
The road of loveless and pain come to
all end when i found a friend.


Now i know no matter how long the road
of life is,
you always stand strong & hold your
headlight.
I am a proud native woman
HEAR ME ROAR.

                                  ~~ A Survivor

(aka Jewel,me)

He stripped away my
self-worth, layer by layer
until there was nothing left
of my personality.
Yet I never thought
about the girl
who I used to be.
She lived inside,
my caged soul
waiting for the day
I would set her free.
Casting her light
into my dark mind,
hoping I will see,
flashes of a better life,
glimpses of possibility.
I was never alone
because me & him believed in me.

You make me feel special,
You make me feel new,
You make me feel loved,
With everything you do.

You hold me close when I am sad.
You wipe the tears from my face.
Every time we are together,
It seems like the perfect place.

My eyes light up when you enter a room.
I smile when we are together.
No matter how bad things are,
You always make them better.

I love the way you kiss me,
The way you hold me tight.
I love the way you touch me,
I could be with you all night.

I love the way you can make me laugh
For absolutely no reason at all.
I love how no matter what I do,
You will be there to catch me when I fall.

I just want you to know,
That even though we sometimes fight,
I will always love you!
No matter what, day or night.

I don't know why
                                             I feel so down today.
The other day I
                                             Saw my best friend, as sharp as ever
Had her sharp nail
                                             go against my belly softly....
I thought seeing her
                                             would bring me pleasure
But instead I felt
                                             the old fear and sadness
I grabbed her wrist
                                      and told her to go back where she came from.
All she left
                                       was a long pink mark on my tummy
Now, that day
                                       I almost went back into old ways
All I could see at the moment
                                       was the scars I would have the rest of my life.

You make me want to laugh when i want to cry
You make me live when i wan't to die
You make me smile when i wan't to frown
      You turned my life upside down
Believe in me when no one else does
       You're my now, my is, my was
When you call my name, i begin to blush
I'm afraid people will notice i need you so much
When i'm with you time seems to flies by so fast

my
existence
is not
about
how
desirable
you find
me

The night is only a night,
Without you by my side,
The night turns into a magic,
Once in my arms you I hold!

The wet lips of yours get wetter,
As I keep on kissing,
As if I would die,
If I ever stop kissing you!

The hot night takes us in its lap,
You and I become one- like magic!

Don't be that way
Fall apart twice a day
I just wish you could feel what you say
Show, never tell
But I know you too well
Kind of mood that you wish you could sell
If teardrops could be bottled
There'd be swimming pools filled by models
Told a tight dress is what makes you a *****
If "I love you" was a promise
Would you break it, if you're honest
Tell the mirror what you know she's heard before
I don't wanna be you anymore
Hands, hands getting cold
Losing feeling's getting old
Was I made from a broken mold?
Hurt, I can't shake
We've made every mistake
Only you know the way that I break
If teardrops could be bottled
There'd be swimming pools filled by models
Told a tight dress is what makes you a *****
If "I love you" was a promise
Would you break it, if you're honest
Tell the mirror what you know she's heard before
I don't wanna be you
I don't wanna be you
I don't wanna be you... anymore

I love you with all my heart to the point where i cant explain it
When I look into your eyes I see a maple forest brown in the mist
                                of a beautiful fall season.

Your thick hair between my fingers runs & smooth like obsidian that
                                 flickers in the sunlight

         Your heart brings me joy that it fills a vessel in my heart

               Your laughter is like birds singing in the woods.
        
                A naturally beautiful, pleasant sound to my ears.
                
                Your'e my light when its dark and gloomy

I am still the same in life
It is you who I still adore in life
It's you who I still want
You are there in my smile
It's you who I want to flaunt
You were a special part of me
You were a part of my destiny
Can't think of a day without you
Know that I truly love you
I loved the way you care
I loved the way you were there
Nothing is left in the whale of time
It is all over before I could find
It is all over from my side
There is nothing left to hide!

when i saw your body for the first time,
i realized how war torn you are
how many battles you lost
on your wrists
your thighs
how many fires occurred
on your sides
oh, your lovely sides
and how many times i told you
i love you, because i do
because no matter how many times
you have lost the battle
you will always win the war.

You gave me shoulder when i needed it
You showed the love when i wasn't feeling it
You helped fight when I was giving in

You made laugh when I was losing it
You are you are
The reason why I still hanging on
You are you are
The reason why my head is still above water
And if I could ide get you the moon I give it to you
And if death was coming for you ide give my life for you
You are you are
The reason why I still hanging on
You are you are
The reason why my head is still above water
And if I could ide get you the moon I give it to you
And if death was coming for you ide give my life for you
You are you are
Oh you are
Oh you are
You are...
You are you are
The reason why I still hanging on
You are you are
The reason why my head is still above water
And if I could ide get you the moon I give it to you
And if death was coming for you ide give my life for you

Hey - call me back when you get this
Or when you've got a minute
We really need to talk
Wait - you know what
Maybe just forget it
'Cause by the time you get this
Your number might be blocked

Look - now I know, we could've done it better
But we can't change the weather
When the weather's come and gone
Books don't make sense if you read 'em backwards
You'll single out the wrong words

"It's not you, it's me" and all that other *******
You know that's *******
Don'tcha', babe?

-Billie Eilish
Party Favor

If you're alone
I'll be your shadow

If you want to cry
I'll be your shoulder

If you're not happy
I'll be your smile

If you need me,
I'll always be here

You are worth your imperfections
You are worth your bad days
You are worth your good
You are worth your confusion
You are worth your insecurities
You are worth fighting for
& You are worth loving

  And that's a ******* fact

My love for you knows no bounds,
it's timeless & endless.
You can enrich my life in more ways than i can express in words.
I felt strongly connected the moment i looked in your eyes.
I was drawn to your soul in a way i have never experienced before.
You are the only one that see the door to my soul

The day I met you, my life
changed… the way you make me
feel is hard to explain. You
make me smile in a special kind
of way...  you make me fall
deeper in love everyday ❤️