Sky - Hello Poetry

Sky Jun 2018

I don't know how to keep doing this,
keep living with this monster under my skin -
he likes to come out and play
when I least expect it.
He tears me to pieces,
or, rather,
makes me want to tear
myself
to pieces.
I hate it!

How can I keep living this way,
surely one day
he will win.

Jun 2018

Hanaa

Emptiness

How can emptiness be so heavy?

#emptiness

Sky Jun 2018

Untitled

I'm so tired
of hurtling towards
an ending written
far too soon.

Sky Jun 2018

Untitled

Oh, yes,
I'm fine,
just a little lonely
with a side of mildly suicidal.

But don't worry,
I'll still be breathing
in the morning.

Sky Jun 2018

Put the Phone Down

If I told you what I was feeling right now, you'd have me shipped off to a hospital;
They're just feelings, darling, so please put the phone down.

I just feel so empty
and lost
and numb,
and I want to rip the veins
from my wrists
and watch the blood pool
until I can't watch anything anymore.

But I can't tell you that
because you'll think that
I'm just that crazy
But the thing is that I
would never really do
such a thing,
that's just the illness talking.

Don't listen to my demons,
I try not to.

Sky Jun 2018

(Un)filling

I'm so tired
of this feeling -
this
emptiness
that plagues my soul.
It seems that it is
impossible for me
to be
satisfied.
There's a hole in me
and nothing can fill it,
but I try to shove
drugged smoke
and uncertain emotions
deeper
and
deeper
into myself
to feel just a little bit better
for just a few minutes.

Sky Jun 2018

Little Yellow Flowers

Why does there seem to be
a sudden chain of sadness
taking lives?

I worry
that depression
will wipe out
the world.

But I will still plant
my bright yellow flowers
because hope can never die
And neither will you, or I -
not today.

Two more losses in what seems to be a year of sadness. We're losing so many beautiful people to the growing monster that is depression. Suicide is on the rise, and we're losing so many people every day.
I just want to give you a little yellow flower and remind you that you are beautiful, you are great, and you are loved. If you're struggling with mental health, or having suicidal thoughts, please reach out. Don't tuck yourself away in the dark corner. Find the light, and grab it. If you are worried about a loved one, talk to them. Let them know that you're there and you care.

This is a time where love is the most important thing we can have. Love one another, look out for one another. We all need each other.

#suicide #depression #hope