I'm blinded, aware of nothing anymore
The emptiness has reached from the heart to the core.
The obscured disguise of the illuminating ray
sealing me in the undying darkness to have me gone astray.
The strong hold my mask has on me,
an abstract reminder for I'm a volcano under sea.
The compulsion of uncertainty thrusting fakeness on to my lips,
a constant practice that immediately curves its tips.
My heart is stabbed with the cureless contrition
Agony oozes out by rejecting termination.
Vagueness finds its home in the feelings I try to verbalize
Insanity strikes my thoughtful headroom to unstabilize.
My wounded heart and insane mind conspire to develop a defence
against these harsh feelings that forge a fearful nuisance.
Callousness, a nightmare dressed like a daydream, a bitter hope
The dream comes true along with the bitterness to cope.
That's how I sculpted myself into a cold stone,
choosing to become all numb and alone.
I'm blinded, aware of nothing anymore
The emptiness has reached from the heart to the core.
Standing straight a stiff statue, I
wait for something to be moved by...
When my definition of 'feeling' becomes 'pain',
I turn numb and wash it away in rain.
Shutting it off seems like the only affordable solution
and I don't care if I'm consumed...
'cause I'm already lifeless.