I see the evil in the world. I try to pretend it doesn't exist. I feel your thoughts I can taste your hate. The best I can do is fix myself and hope you follow my footsteps. You act so righteous like you know it all. I can see you soul has fallen far. A break from life is what I need I'm getting weak I can not breath. All these things inside my head, only gone the day im dead.

Take the time to calm your mind and choose your next decision
Some will lead and some will follow make sure you know your place
The only one responsible is a reflection in the pond
What I do is all for me and I still call the shots
The many people that I know I care for very much
The mind is always mend-able until it turns to dust
The best advice a man can give is not to give advice
Let the people find themselves let the people fight
Things always escalate with emotions in the way
But take them out and find a life in black and white and gray
Felling mad or sad or good they're feelings all the same
Just another part of life that no one can explain
Trust your gut emotions, you've had them since day one.
Don't take life so serious lets just have some fun.

As i journey into the abyss, I think about what i will miss, family and friends, but memories the most, because without them who am I but an empty host. The things i held to tightly quickly stolen swept away. No one ever told me it would be my very last day. I always knew it was coming but i could never have prepared. The end is nearing closer. Just know I love and cared.

I put my thoughts up on the wall, so you all can see my struggle, know that you are not alone, even when you're on your own. I can feel the pain inside you, i can see what's on your mind.

Sometimes life does not seem fair but know nothings guaranteed. You spill your heart out hoping, that someone will receive, all the love inside of you, and return it as you give. But love is not as easy to find as its to give. Be a gift to the world and have love unlimited.

We all have our struggles and our hopes and aspirations. You are not alone in any of these endeavors. Just keep your course and stay true without a hint of hesitation. I promise you youll pull through, this life will soon get better.

All I do is give, and all they do is take. Is this life I live, bound to be my fate? Or is there something more, when will I receive, the love that i keep giving everyone I meet. Its starting to get harder to wake up and be glad, this life that I am living is starting to make me mad. I try so hard for nothing, the results I can not see. Its love I'm holding out for, but my time keeps passing me. I hope that someday someone will spark inside of me, those emotions that i long for very desperatly. I will give my love out unconditionally. I wont let this world take that away from me. So give and expect nothing, just pass along the love. Lets make this world better i fear it is our job.

There's things I think about that i never turn to words. Inside there is a dialogue that tells me what should be heard. When I speak ive played it out and guessed what will come next. I dont know why but Im feeling like my minds a ******* mess. I guess that it's a problem that i probably should address.

There is a strange
Tingly sensation
In my stomach
When you are near
And when you speak to me
Or touch me
A sensation often described as butterflies
But they are not pure enough
To be butterflies
Because I know you don't feel them as I do
So they are moths
Moths
Because they are crowding your light
Moths in my stomach
Flying up
And up
And up
Through my windpipe
Choking me
And trying to reach you
And your blinding
Fluorescent light