Just
Trust
You?

Just is a word for the 2+2s,
Ups before downs or the
Scribbles on my shoes
That prove distraction from the world.

Just is a word you use to stay
Under the covers for a few more minutes.
Simple and easy, an apple a day but
Todays the day I don't.

I won't.

Because Trust is more
Than a once a day
Trust is more than
Something you say
Trust takes time
And effort to build.
Trust needs a reason,
and a home to fulfill.

For trust is not built from just saying just.

I'm not dead
I'm not absent
And I'm not even dormant.
I'm in waiting.
Actively waiting
For another
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     moment
to
    Change my
Life
   Forever.

It's a moment
That takes your breath
And then it's gone away.
A group of words
Just like so,
Or
A landscape
Whose perfection
Cannot be captured
In a photo or a painting.
Or
A painting
Whose impossible implications
Tear away at your brain
Until there's nothing left to
Understand.
Or
The chorus
Of a song,
Sang by someone
Who is unmistakeably
And irresistibly
In awe.
Or to be this person
Stuck in sleepless slumber
Never daring to dream of
An alternative to
Who they are.

These are the moments.

If you reach up for the moon it doesn't seem so far.
I could grab a ladder
Or climb a tree.
It doesn't seem so big.

A lie
It all is.
I'll lie
Too -
Make the
Pain go
Away.
A lie
The
Most true
Words.
I'll lie
Here.
And not feel
Anything
At all.
A lie
It is all.
Just
A lie.