Music only runs deep when you hurting

I loved blindly  never once caring about the odds against our love
Took me for granted when you found her
Did you even ever love that I loved you
My love for you was authentic
It still is up to now
But your indecisiveness is also still there
Do you want me or her?
Don't even answer
I've made up my mind
I love you  but letting you go
Is one of the strongest decisions
I've ever made
I don't belong to you
And I   never will
Or maybe time  will tell
If I was to be yours still

I'd hate to break it to you but I'm done
Done with your silly lies,your manipulation and your unrequited love
You keep saying you love me but why don't you stay and prove it
Every day of my life I woke to impress you maybe thinking
One day I'll gain your empathy if not your fake love
When I'm not around you are busy holding hands and kissing someone else
The essence of touch is something I never got from you maybe an embrace but never a kiss
If I never meant anything to you before I think I'm better gone
Because with me gone nobody has to hurt or lie you care when you clearly don't
I know you won't notice but I'll just let you know I'm gone

I look at you and smile because of the love that flatters in my heart
Every time I look at you I fall in love all over again
But since you are not sure if you love me
I want to ask
If I were not hear would you long to hold my hand just as I held yours but you let go
Would you regret not having showed the world you loved me
Would you miss the nights we spend together when it rained and the lights were blacked out
Would you cry as my casket descends six feet below the ground
Would you tell them I am your lover or would still be ashamed of us
Would you regret not telling me you loved me
But since l would not be there you will not get to do all of them
Do them now while I'm still here

Everytime I look back to the days I had you to hold
Not that I did any way just dreamed of doing so
The day I confessed my love to you
You ignored me does it mean you didn't want me
You never answered the questions I had only said you didn't know
Now my heart is bleeding torn apart in the undying love I still have for you
Why can't it just go away
I don't want to love you if it means being in pain
But I'm lost in your unrequited love