Small as i may be
I am more than you can see
Looks dont always lie
Still
Im more than meets the eye

Lungs screaming
Heart beating
The water pulls me down
Screaming is useless
There is nobody to hear me but the fish
Stomach twisting
Chest heaving
I can feel my life slipping
Fighting it is futile
There is no way i can survive this
I close my eyes
Sinking deeper
Deeper
Deeper
Away
Fading
Then gone

The warm kiss of a summer breeze
The melodic singing of birds
The quiet mornings after rainfall
The sting of cold water on your feet
The dull itch of soft grass
The soundless echo of caves
The life vibrating through forests
The rough, comforting feel of trees
The bubbling laughter of rivers
The cool breath of winter to come
The warmth of sunbeams
The tall mountain sentries
The dust left over from climbing claycliffs
The numb feeling of snow
The peace of twilight
The smell of woodsmoke hanging in the air
The dark of long winters
The joy of short summers
The yukon

After so many months of loneliness
Dark
Despairing
Frozenness
Im learning to live again
Love again
Laugh again

Since i left
It feels like an empty hole in my chest
A dull ache echoing in my bones
Fists sqeezing my fragile heart
Im lost, lonely
Wandering through a maze of pain
Lost in a sea of bewilderment
Constantly striving for a breath of air

Help

Your smile thawed a frozen heart
Your words ignited a burnt out passion
Your kindness fixed a broken mind
Your love saved my life

Though you may not know it yet