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Jun 2014 · 367
Storybook L<3VE
LeighB Jun 2014
How do I know if it's real?

I think about you
I fantasize about you
I spend most of my time trying to figure out how we fit together
But does that truly qualify as love?

I'm confused.

How can I know if what you're giving me is real love or fictional?
You were never one to go by the books
Yet you count every minute we're together,
like we're one of those post-****** couples on Facebook,
who just have to share what we're doing every two seconds of each day.
Does that even qualify as love?

The media describe it as something that you just fall into
But I'm sure that I'm falling, tumbling and face-planting in the bad way
You're not a prince and this isn't a scenario where we're gonna live happily ever after. So why are we fooling ourselves and following the status quo?

Why does being with you confuse me so much?

****. I wish I had all the answers.
Jun 2014 · 270
Living as an Option
LeighB Jun 2014
What the hell am I doing here?
What the hell am I STILL doing here?

It feels like a dream.
Walking
Talking
Laughing without a second thought
Socializing
None of it feels real.

What happens when reality feels like a dream?
What happens when you're just dying to wake up?
I don't know how to deal with this never-ending pit of monotony!

I want to wake up
I want to find the place I belong
I want to find the goals I hope to achieve
I want to stop living in a blanket of obliviousness and nothingness

I want to live...
Jun 2014 · 646
The Monster
LeighB Jun 2014
Lost in seas of I-don’t-know’s  
Captive to the native cant’s
Hope rests ashore  
Faith hands it a cold Red Stripe  

Each wave of depression  
Comes just like the last but with
More heat and tips the balance
Creating a whirlpool in which  
The Monster can live….

He comes like an unseen wave,
accidentally swallowed  
And stays like a tooth pick,
stuck in the stomach;
unwanted and fatal

So she tries to ***** him out of her system; tries to starve him out of her system; tries to… to….
She knows he’s back now
Be very quiet  
So he’ll probably leave if he thinks no one is home
Wrong!
He turns the corner of the wall
She dives under the seas  
He laughs at her  
She knows why,
She’s been a fool
Can’t not see he’s already got her
Can’t not see he’s the full-stop in life
But she refuses to give in.
Because if he’s the full-stop in life,
Then The Great Him must be the exclamation point.

- Leigh-Ann B.
I was going through a really rough time in my life when I wrote this poem (obviously) but it's amazing that after those troubled times passed, I can still look at this poem and learn something from it. Thank you, Internet! For holding onto my docs like a treasure chest.

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