I used to love you
But now the feeling has changed

I used to kiss you
But now you just turn away

I used to *******
But we're far away now

I used to hold you
But you're not close anymore

I used to hug you
But I don't love you anymore

but I love the way you laugh, and
      how your eyes squint up,
       and you bare your teeth.

I love when I feel the warmth
    of your calloused hand
       hugging my cheek.

You know how you always seem
    to just, stare into my soul?
            I love that too.

But what I love the most about you
          is that I don't have to try,
                 to be anything.

I love how you can put me at ease,
     because that is something
       that no one else can do.


                                                           ­                                     I don't love you.
                                                            ­                                                                 ­       But I want to.

if you tell me that you love me, i will not say it back

instead, i will tell you that your voice reminds me of indian chai tea and that your lips taste the way i thought cherry blossoms would and that i'd much rather sleep pressed up against your skin than under a sheet — i will tell you that i plug in my headphones to listen to your heartbeat and that you make me want to scream and cry and buy a one-way ticket to the other side of the world just to get away from you and i will tell you that i feel like i am skydiving without a parachute because i have never fallen so hard or so fast and that's scary and yet i have never felt more alive than when i am with you

Go ahead,
Break your promises
Destroy my smile
Laugh at me
Tear me down
Make me cry

Go ahead
I don't care
It's what I'm used to
Everyone else does it

So go ahead
**** me
It's what you wanted
Right?