Do you remember the time,
You used to be my only reason why?
I got out of bed and felt alive,
And why I didn’t just go ahead and die?
I can’t find reason anymore in this world,
Except I’d really miss you all if I were to go.
I’m not even sure if you’d really miss me at all,
Or if that’s just something that  you say.

We’re better off as friends,
Cause I’m not a good lover.
I’m an addict I am  a joke,
Who will never be good enough.
My heart keeps searching for a someone,
To fill this void calm this raging storm within.
Within me there’s a black hole,
That leaves me blank and empty.

She calls me a survivor,
But I don’t feel quite alive.

Pieces of clothing scattered all over my bedroom floor,
This war with myself a war with many ******* casualties.
I’m going to hurt you like I always do so go get out the door,
Millions  hurt and maybe someday soon there will  be one dead.
Don’t know who’s going to win this war the monsters in my head,
Or  will  it  be  me  but  who is me no I just want to disappear and die.
But I’m too afraid of death no I’m just a coward no  I  am   just  a  fool,
I wish I could  just close my **** eyes and go to sleep for ******* ever.

I'm not your daughter no I'm not your daughter no I'm your wait...don't know who I am anymore,
Dig me a  grave but do me a favor save your tears see  sometimes I  feel like I’m already gone.
And I cut all ties to all those who care or I hope and wish that  they'll fix me some  *******  how,
But maybe I'm just this way and maybe I'm not meant to be  fixed  and maybe I was born to go.
Yeah  maybe I was  born to want to  die  maybe I was born to live a lie  maybe I’m afraid to  try,
Maybe I’m scared of life and of death and maybe I’m just terrified of every  single ******* thing.
I don’t want to be alive often wish that I was never born at all and all these things I’ll never say,
Don’t  want  you  to  see me in a different light and I don’t want to see your disappointed  eyes.

I’m  not  your  daughter no I’m not your *******  daughter  no  I’m your so—I’m someone  else,
Don’t  know  if you  know  me  you  should  but  you  don’t cause I’m hiding even  from myself.
Meaningless I  love  you’s are mumbled cause I don’t know how that feels anymore I’m numb, Everyone else are living their lives and then there’s me and I don’t know what I’m doing  ****!
You  say  that  it’s a choice and you say that I should choose to live but what if I don’t want to,
What if  I can’t choose and what if my mind and my body don’t agree  on who I ******* am?!?
And what if  I just feel  *******  lost and dead  and afraid   emotions all over the ******* place,
Tell  me  how  to  control this black hole within taking all hopes and all dreams a ******* way?

Go ignore yourself, go be someone else,
Say it’s all okay, smile another day.
smile, inside you’re crying,
Laugh, inside you’re dying.
Say it’s just a moment, it’ll go in a minute,
hide away your feelings, bottle all emotions.
You keep hearing questions, questions you can’t answer,
You don’t know the answers, growing sick and tired.

Go ignore your friends, possibly the best,
watch em walk away, from this utter fake,
Doesn’t know themselves, doesn’t know what to say.
Smile, there’s no tomorrow,
laugh, there’s no today.
They don’t know you, darling like I do.
Ignore the silent voices, mute yourself you’re silent,
watch as you scream and shout, look there’s not a sound.

Go ignore you’re family, they don’t mean a thing,
No it’s all ok,  they‘re just everything to you.
Go avoid your father,
just cause he will hate you, if he only knew,
who you are today, such a disappointment,
Bad taste , bad excuses, god you’re really hopeless.
Go avoid your mother,
Yes avoid her questions, go ahead keep you’re distance,
Watch her sit in silence, watch it you’ll lose her too.

The world still turns and turns,
the worlds still in its orbit.
We’ve got a billion thounsand heads,
millions loosing their sleep.
And a billion thousand hearts,
millions of them hurting.
I am only one,
in billion thousand souls,
So insignificant,
So irrelevant.