I want to hide it
But it disappeared,
feeling nothing is a bit....
overwhelming,
and just like that,
I realized its turned off,
I'm wondering, would it come back harder,
without a warning?
Would those feelings, those emotions come rushing back in my mind,
like a flood that was waiting to be released?
I hate not knowing any other way to deal,
it comes like second nature to me,
to be able to turn off a part of my mind,
It happened automatically,
I didn't even try.
Guess my body developed
a healing mechanism.
but at the same time,
I have to walk through life not feeling anything,
I don't miss those feelings
I wish I could maybe I shouldn't

My heart flutters at the sight of you
Just like the day you bring me warmth
But yet like the night your so cold
Should I give you up
Should I let go
Or maybe I'll just look from afar
And suffer in silence

She trusted you with her care
She trusted you with out fear
Hoping you would be her friend, her father
But instead you made her your partner
16 and pregnant that's what you did
Too afraid of breaking the silence
Hoping that  the pain would go away
Now she not only a monster but a killer too for taking the life of an innocent one

Your eyes are like stars which captures me
your lips are the roses which takes my breathe
your touch is ever beautiful like i'm on cloud 9
But your tongue is like a knife which cuts deep in my soul
you know just what to say and do,
to hold my love
but what kills me are the razors in your mouth
they all see it
your the crazy kid with the knife and im the doll u prey on
if only i could be free from your hands and your sliver tongue

Before you,I glowed like the sun.
Before you, I was more fun.
Before you, I could have run.
Then, you shut it all down.
Before you, I had a smile not a frown.
I swear to claim my throne and make you pay for making me a clown.
Now, you dance and be glad only because I gave you the chance.