They're more than they seem
They hold the key to my heart
They know how I feel
They know what I want
They know what I'm thinking
I love them with all my heart
They're mine
Im their's
If they left i wouldn't know what to do
I love them more than anything
I love you so so much my love

My sibling is always there
If I'm dealing with the worst they're right there for me
No matter what i can tell them anything
They've been asking for a while to read my poems
Probably not expecting some to be about them
My sibling
I'll always love you
I'll always be there for you when times are tough
No matter what you can tell me anything
I cant wait till I can hug you
My amazing sibling

Why do I **** up every time
I bring trouble everywhere
No matter what
Trouble finds me
It haunts me
Always
No matter what i do
It will never change
That's how my life works
Why was i born?
Why am I here?
Do i need to stay?
Cant this pain just go away?
It's always the same
Day in and day out
It'll never change
That's how my life is
If I cut well that change anything?
No
It will cause regret
But i need to
I know it won't help but I deserve it

All these thoughts running through my mind
Racing
Running
Over and over
When will it stop
It never will
Are they happy??
Are they mad at me??
Are they lying??
I dont know
Im sure they're fine
No they can't be
They should be mad at me
Im not enough
They're mad at me
Why
What did I do?

Where are they when I need them?
When Im feeling down
When idk what to do
Why aren't they online
When I miss them so much
When I want to talk to them
Why can't I hug them?
Show them just how much they mean to me
Show how I feel

Im sorry....
Im sorry im not enough...
Im sorry i cant be there....
Im sorry i cant be what you need.....
Im sorry i cant give you what you need..... im so sorry....
Im sorry i cant provide what you need..... im sorry...
Im sorry...
Sorry...

Those thoughts are back.
Everytime I think it's gone
It'll just come back
I think I'm over it
But then i realize I'm not
I think I'm fine now
But im not
The thoughts will always come back.
The thoughts and feelings that haunt me
They won't go away
They never stay away..