The idea of love,
has always been my fear,
but i'll try to overcome,
to keep you held so near,
This fear of mine isn't new,
And surely will last long,
I'm scared of being hurt again,
Scared something may go wrong,
I care about you deeply,
I’m so glad to call you mine,
So for you i’ll win this fight,
All that matters is the time,  
I fear you will find better,
And i hope that never comes,
I fear you may have met her,
And you’re both biting your tongues,
But for right now,
I don't know how,
i'm happy that you're mine.

when people are in love
they often say
they simply fell
tripped over their own two feet
face forward
and into the arms of their beloved

i did more than simply fall
onto the ground of your love

you, for me
were an ocean
and i dived
headfirst
roughly
harshly
almost painfully
into the waters of “you”

i knew i could not swim
but i did so anyway
i was drowning
entangled in you
surrounded by this being of “you”
engulfed in this feeling of “you”

and i did not know what came over me
but i let myself drown
i did not try to swim back up
because if i went back to land,
releasing myself from your grasp
that would mean losing the feeling of “you”

and after
submerging into the depth
the love
the passion
of “you”

how could i ever leave?

~I didn't get to say goodbye,  
all I could do was cry,
you've left me all alone,
and only god knows why,

I miss you by my side,
I miss being in your arms,
way too many tears I have cried,
ever since the night I watched you die,

the feeling of depression,
is now my minds obsession,
I feel no need to exist any longer,
they say this will make me stronger,

I feel it only makes me smaller,
I can fake a smile all I want,
but it always finds its way to haunt,

I can close my eyes and hold my ears,
but that doesnt help silence my fears,
I hold my breath to drown the tears,
and pray that I may meet the man upstairs,

I deeply miss you mother,
it's becoming too hard to bear,
in all and complete honestly,
i wish i were up there,

id hold you close,
and kiss your nose,
cry a single tear~