I'm falling in more ways than one...

....once again the cycle resets.


It takes so much to stay standing,
to remain firmly grounded.

When I feel happiness...
sadness follows in the absence,
replacing the gratefulness I should feel.

This discontent, stirs my emotions,
into a never-ending turmoil.

I am consumed in my greed.
The tease is never enough.

This life refuses to be fabricated.

Pieces lay scattered among the dust.

These winds never relent,
making it impossible to gather the crumbs.

Unable to make determinations from the debris,
I cannot seem to collect myself.

Brief bursts of effort, come and go...
this energy, so difficult to muster.

Without consistency, I am faltering..
never steady and always full of extreme highs and lows.

Now that I've tasted life with you,
I am bound to torture...

..the torture of being without your love.

In every aspect of my life,
I am getting most of what I need....
just not enough of it.

I have family with me.....but not enough of them.
I have the love of my life.....but not by my side each day.
I have two jobs.....but not enough money to cover those needs, or any wants.
I have clothing.....but they are worn and need replacing.
I have food.....but just barely an appetite.

I am hardly able to keep myself together,
physically or mentally....

....I can't seem to stop falling,
regardless of the several times I keep getting back up.

The last hope I have to hold onto, is you.

I need the strength you give me, to face the day.
I need the love you give me, to keep the sadness away.
I need you to hold me, and tell me it's going to be okay.

I need to be able to share the love in my heart,
that I hold only for you.

You are the glue to my life; what is keeping me together.

I'm sorry...

I get millions of thoughts a day
Most of them are about her
How she looks today
How she makes me feel
How shes feeling
All about her
I dont even think about myself anymore
I dont even think about school anymore
These thoughts are only about how i can spend my days with her
How much i care for her
Dont get me wrong im still up to date on my studies but thats not really important to me
Shes the only person thats important to me in this world
These are my thoughts
This is the only way i can express them

Sleeping through the deep dreams
Waves of your love within
Your cold heart that can heat my night
Floating in, looking at the star of your
eyes.

Feeling the moves of your hip
Flowing in the curves of your lips
Breathing the air of your heat
Freezing our times
Getting lost in the deep feeling
Of being together in our sea.

Dreaming always
In the cold of the dark
Cause there is no light
Where are bodies collide
With the heat of our actions
Keeping us alive
In the inside
Of our dark night