I found myself walking streets
On sidewalks that remember me
I was a kid, I lived so free
But now I’m grown and love to leave

I met with friends, we shared a laugh
We reminisced on what we had
On how we were when we were young
Cause we don’t like what we become

The family says I’m still the same
The same I was when I was eight
But they miss out on all this pain
It’s hid behind a happy face

Sometimes I feel that people leave me, move on to a better version
Sometimes I feel that I leave people, now those reasons I’m not certain
I have a binder of excuses, but deep down I know their untrue
Maybe I’m just useless, and a mirror is where I can find the truth

These waves of sadness start as innocent swells
It just takes one little moment, for me to feel this unwell
Could be a bird chirping that reminds me of youth
Then I’m down to my knees, never thought I could feel this blue

Not a main character in this plot, trapped in the background usually
I’ve become all those things I’m not, I miss the way I used to be
This mindset traps me I get caught, but I don’t care truthfully
Starting to feel alone on this dot, but I take solace that it’s blue like me

You know that feeling when you first wake up, when you feel complete weightlessness.
The stress of your morning, your life, and your pain, are completely washed away.
This illusion plays tricks on our minds, while our brain is quick to autocorrect.
It all comes rushing back, as the weight of the world crushes all in its path.

The moon is shining through my window
I think in silence to write this poem
My mind runs wild under the disguise of darkness
Starving for style, as I feed this hungry artist  

Then sounds of screaming consume my thoughts
Just beyond my window, I can hear it trot
Should I feed my curiosity? I ought not
Finally look outside to see a furry red fox

Something about noises in the nighttime, they never fail to disturb
Deeply afraid of what we might find, unveil the curtain to a great unknown
Shades of Beckett with a dose of Hitchcock, as I slowly await for nothing to return
Waitin for the moment I can hear a pin drop, but oh my clock, how it loves to slow

As each night passes, the more certain I am of how little I know
Tricked by those glasses, at a distance even bronze looks like gold
Stock up on rose-colored lens, see the world for only good
But Satan surrounds our broken fences, danger lurks in quiet woods

I fly over Nova Scotia, I swim the ocean blue.
I land in New Orleans and eat Poe Boy or two.
I am not the person people expect me to be.
I'm not warm, I'm not over and I am not in between.
I'm living in my car now, I sold all my stuff.
Not because I needed money, because I had too much.
I'm writing this in a notebook, that no one will ever read.
So why am I still pretending I'm who they'd think I'd be?
I am in between the margins, these words are just me clothes.
That I wear to cover up, what I want no one to know.
Jungle Green, Magenta, and Underwater Blue.
I love every single color, Teardrops + Balloons

I don’t really know this man that I see
I stare in the mirror and feel lost at sea
Nostalgia it kills, I yearn for the past
I just gotta learn, today ain’t that bad
My mind is a cloud with rain coming down
Not building an arc, I think I might drown
Don’t like what I hear, I hate how I sound
Not ‘time’ that I fear, it’s living for now

See I don’t know why, I feel this way
Cuz being depressed, just ***** with my brain
Got all that I need, outside I look great
Dig deep and you’ll see, it runs through my veins
I gave up on happy, wasn’t into the chase
The devil is laughing, oh how easy I break
I’m tempted by evil and listen to snakes
Eat fruit that’s forbidden, that leads to my pain

Can’t quite find a song that relays my message
I’m doing it wrong, my words should be spreading
I write how I feel, for those that need lessons
I hope that it helps, learn at my expenses
I say I want meaning but that has no substance
My life is so fleeting and I am the suspect
Destroy my upbeating, replace it with sorrow
My mind is defeating the need for tomorrow

But I still have hope, guess all of us do
I know you feel pain, I feel it too
The nights can be long, but each day is brand new
I don’t write this for song, I write this for you
This world is insane but calm down, just breathe
Cuz living for now, is all that you need
Don’t live for the highs, where roads to nothing lead
We all know we die, let’s live in between

Started writing how I feel, so I’d channel all this pain
Thought that maybe it would heal, all the **** inside my brain
Being lost became too real, pretending it was just a phase
No way out the doors are sealed, oh the monsters I create

I’m not proud with how I’m coping, it’s the only way I know
Substances run my emotions, welcome to the life of a broken soul
On the outside I look fine, but really that is just a show
‘Scars will heal give it time’ but life is moving way too slow

Patience ain’t a trait of mine, quickly losing all my hope
This life ain’t what I thought, wasting time is al I know
I got voices in my head, I got thoughts I can’t control
I am losing all my friends, guess I’m better on my own