I long for
(Sigh)
Wait give me a chance to settle in….
A night in with the four walls staring at us not making a squeak,  
Maybe good music playing in the background to set the mood
How about a high mood to set the company just right
How about the exchange of thoughts to get conversation just going right
Haha, is that really what you thinking?
How about I tell you what I’ve been thinking…
Well, let me enlighten you, I think of
You
Every single second of every minute
You are running a marathon of memories in my mind
Oh, where do I start?
No let me begin from the beginning when the walls were staring at the both of us
You settle me in just right, under your arms, in your bed, while the music is just doing the most in the back
Oh no we had more than enough to talk about cause our thoughts kept popping like pop ups on an internet site
Can I be granted the permission to share the moment when you kissed me and how it felt like the first but instead it was our fourth
The kiss may have been our fourth but what came after that mmh
Our first….
You handled me like a woman you’ve known for months (sigh), more like you studied every curve on my body
Every turn, every pleasurable moment felt like moments I was never going to feel again
My breath felt like it was my last
Your breath against my neck felt breathtakingly
When you reached your utmost pleasurable moment, with my nails engraved in your back, that kiss you planted on my forehead, just had to have a skip a beat in my heart
Oh no I think I’ve shared enough to describe my desirable craving
Which is YOU!

You call, but the water drops behind me are crying too loud for me to hear
Water drips down my body as I peek watching you call for the first time in my register but in your register the third
I switch off the water to answer your call that has no connection
Aii, I finish up get dry and call again in my room but no connection again
You call to ask if we chilling I said yes, you tell me "cool I'm coming to bye"
In a cracky voice I ask "forever", you say yeah, with tears hiding in my eyelids I say "okay"
I sign you in, not with an excited heart this but a heart filled with sadness
The elevator ride makes me even more sad, because you extend your care by asking "if I'm okay?" and I lie "yeah", not wanting you see the drip coming from my heart
Time to say bye
You greet the rest hand-shaking, fist-pumping, while you do that I wonder around with a sad face not so ready to say bye
My turn, oh no, I don't want to...
I'm expecting a fist pump, but instead I receive a warm tight hug from you
You hugged me so tight, whispering in my ear "don't miss me too much"
Oh my, I can still feel your breath echoing in my ear...
And little did I know that this hug would be our last..

Jasmine Nakana