Alone I am
But for how long ask I,
No longer in doubt.
I can feel as any man,
Just as much as any man,
Just as strong as any man.

Forlong asking,
Indeed I shall
But no longer from spite
Oh, oh not me
For done I am
Among such enterprise.

Forlorn I go
Yes, I go
To another place far from known
To journey and find,
A new meaning
A new meaning to understand
To understand, and read
To read, and sing
To sing, and cry;
Not from woe nor ail
But gladness, yes gladness
That runs as a river
True and strong,
Strong and firm
Firm yet formless.
Indeed as a river.

Tired yes, of the struggle
I've been struck and roughed,
I've naught left to fight for
I've naught left to live for.
But if you're meant to be the one
I'll fight? No
For tiredness has succumbed me,
Pain has befallen me.

Is this worth the pain?
The sadness and weariness?
I say neither yay nor nay
No, I'll save that answer,
Yes, for when it matters, truly matters.
No more I beg of thee,
My wounds are open, they're oozing
I'm wailing.

Oh, behold! And there she goes
A light on her eyes, shimmering
Of joy and gladness? Yes, perhaps
Such gladness I'll find not
Nor today nor tomorrow, no, not me
It is beyond my reach, not for her
No, she's the past, a cloudy past
Cloudy yet vivid and forgetful past.

Such love I've not felt since...
Yes, since my mum's,
Never since, never again
Of such fate I'm aware, painfully aware.
I'll be alone from now on, not from spite but choice.
For he who lives alone, is bound to love alone,
And that I now need
For wounded I've been.

Heartfelt reminders, I'm shivering
A thunderous boom, I'm quivering
They make my heart start flickering,
Yet there's a strand of light, glimmering.

A mindful awaken, I'm hovering
A burning, hopeful heart, smouldering
Yet they all keep on it, tampering
So they leave me alone, wondering.

My heart you've crushed
My soul you've stabbed
To keep with you, myself I forced
But not anymore, my mind's been sacked.

Through countless hours
I've been awake, asking, probing
I shall give no more flowers.
I've been awaken, I'll be leaving.

A new dream I've found,
No more mindless touching,
No, to this new dream I'm bound.
Now I'm free from your chaining.

A real connection I seek
Deep and true love I seek
That's my resolution
I'll no longer have your intrusion.

There was once a love in my sight
Yes, undaunted love from a side,
There were roses and clovers
But now we are only loners.
'Tis such fate, a foreseeable fate
In which is understood not
The love that's not answered but rather
That which makes you last.

And so it goes then, we loved
I loved indeed, she loved as well,
A love that shines through all
A love that as wine aged.
Yes, yes, such love I recall
Beautiful it was, yes awe-inspiring,
Nearly it broke my heart
When such love was left all stranded.

But this new love is never aging
Forever young, forever supple
Yes, forever changing, yet unmoving
Never leaving, always touching.
So with this new love I'm armoured
I'm covered and protected,
Never to be hurt again,
For she is come, everlasting.

I met this woman recently
She's beautiful, kind and lovely;
She goes with a light on her face,
Yes she goes glimmering
Enough to keep me shivering.
Oh yes, she makes my heart race.

They say she'll break my heart
To look for someone else,
But I want to keep on this lark
I say she's not like the rest,
They say she's not like the rest.
So we are on the same page.

Then why the need to stop me?
Don't they see me happy?

I talked to her the other day
Indeed, not like the rest,
She's careless, rough around the edge
She doesn't understand me.
She cares not for me,
The same way I care for her.

They say she fools around other men
She gets them high with her charm.
Then when they are at her mercy
She leaves them stranded as I.
Alone and forsaken, broken
Broken, just as she left me, broken.

Now, I can't sleep, I can't dance
I can't enjoy wine or a good serenade.
I'm alone now, I can't my friends stand,
I pushed them away,
For a good-for-nothing love
Not even long, it lasted a week.

So what to do now?
I now lay with such heaviness,
I've got no will to change
I've got no will to trying again.
My heart's been plucked
I am now motionless.

Oh my beloved, why dost thou flee?
Oh my beloved, what dost thou feel?
Oh my beloved, whatever reason to go
Remember our love is forever bound.

Wherever you flee my sweetling
Remember me oh sweetling,
For wherever thou mayest hide
Remember oh my love for thee.

Though we may fly apart forever more
Oh our love, beware of our love
For it may compel us to look back
So this says I:
"Seek thy wings for us never to come back".

Oh my beloved,
Though beloved indeed you are
Alone is thy path, alone from mine
And alone is mine, alone from thine own
So we grow far apart, yes
But remember forever "My beloved you are".

I tried to hope, but it was for naught
I tried to fight, I tried to stand
I tried to last, now I can't even dance
I ran and ran but couldn't escape
I flew and flew 'till been brought down
The wings are heavy, uplifting, yet heavy

Yes, everlasting is love
But so is struggling, the fighting, the hunger
Heavy's such burden, my wings can't but crumble.
Dark'ning it goes, my arms feel light
Way too light, they seem to fly
Fly but fall thereafter, for heavy I am.

I go, yes I go, I cannot bear it anymore
Disappear as I once did, to heal?
No, 'tis but an escape, so fear I'll face not
Not anymore.
Seven days or seven hours feel the same
All with such pain is the same.

And so I went, I escaped, I left
Did it help? Perhaps, I know not
I'm gone, my mind is gone,
While my body lasts I shall stay
I've naught left to say,
Just to struggle, I'll stay.

The tears of denial bring about closure
With such tears there is no room for leisure,
Oh but dost thou talk about perfection
When golden were these tender tears
There was naught but realisation.

These tender tears were made with zeal
For a time yet to think about,
To talk about, or cry about.
Indeed that was their right
To fight not, but love everlasting.

Oh! but truly, how did we truly love!
'twas but a setback yet unknown
Yet still to be looked upon,
Yet still to be felt upon,
Yes it was all left upon my tender tears!

And now there is no time,
No planning left nor word unsaid.
Now it's only cold,
Such cold that froze my tender tears,
That dauntless cold I've felt for oh so long!

Pain is seemingly eternal
It always seems that way.
They know not, it is ethereal
So 'stay on it' they say
Unknowingly they keep asking
But we know, so we pray.

I used to be joyful, happy and glad
I used to sing in the rain
Regardless of being full of lark,
I used to dance with my bared mind.

And as she came along,
Uplifted I was.
She made me sing with even more
Joy, happiness and gladness.

With her on my mind,
I went to quietly rest,
With her on my chest,
My fears I mindlessly wrest.

But an illusion she was,
She left me alone after a while.
She needed me not,
While I was left all to rot.

I'm like an ant in a sideway,
Like a butterfly in a park
Pretty to look at,
Yet not substantial to have.

But then I found it,
It was within me all along,
My true love, bound never to leave
For only I can leave.

With me forever, since my birth
It leaves in my heart no itch,
My true love that receive me will.
My true love that defend me will.

My love that after death will take me,
My love that shall embrace me
My love that shall save me
My love that care shall show me.

Yes for this love is what made me,
What shaped me, and moulded me
Yes, this love that is as everlasting
As the whole universe is ever-expanding.